DMPSA CH 39

Chapter 39: I Will Wait for You Forever

“You are that great person,” Yue Qi said happily. “I’ve found you, and I’ll never let you go again.”

This twist came too suddenly. Su Qing’s mood didn’t have time to sink in disappointment, nor did it have time to rise in joy. He only felt confused and stirred up, caught in a mix of emotions.

“What… does that mean?” After a while, Su Qing finally spoke, his voice a little shaky. “You’re not afraid of k!lling me anymore?”

“No, I’m not afraid. It won’t happen.” Yue Qi smiled confidently. “I’ve figured it out. I’m not that Alpha, and you’re not that Omega. We won’t walk the same path as they did.”

“We won’t walk the same path as your parents, either.”

When Su Qing heard Yue Qi say the rebuttal he himself had been too weak to voice, a part of him softened and grew sour at the same time. It was as if he had found an ally, someone who understood him. And the most important ally had mentioned the most crucial people: Su Qing’s parents. Su Qing’s eyes turned red, and he grew quiet, listening intently as Yue Qi continued.

“I’ve come. I’ve thought everything through, and I’ve come back.” Yue Qi held Su Qing’s hand tightly, unwilling to let go. “The first thing I need to do now is apologize to you. I wasn’t good enough before. I didn’t explain things clearly to you, and I made rash decisions on my own. I guess you must have been hurt or angry.”

“I apologize to you.” Yue Qi looked at Su Qing with sincerity. “I’m sorry. Please forgive me.”

Su Qing lowered his head, unsure of how to respond.

He had been hurt—heartbroken and upset. There was even a vague sense of anger. But, strictly speaking, what had Yue Qi done wrong? Did he have any right to ask for “forgiveness”?

“You… you’re not wrong, either. You didn’t have to choose me,” Su Qing said weakly, offering a small smile. “If you didn’t want to be with me, that’s not a mistake.”

“True. If I didn’t like you, if I didn’t want to be with you, that wouldn’t have been a mistake,” Yue Qi said gently, filled with regret. “But we were friends. Even though we didn’t say it out loud, we were moving in the direction of dating. Halfway through, I left without a word, without explaining things to you, making you think you were abandoned because you weren’t good enough. That was my fault.”

“You’re not bad. You’re very good.” Yue Qi said. “I misunderstood myself at the beginning and lacked confidence. If anyone is to blame, it’s me. I’m such a cowardly Alpha. Please don’t hate me.”

Yue Qi saw that Su Qing was silent, his head bowed, his gaze fixed on their hands still clasped together. Yue Qi felt a little anxious. He wasn’t sure how Su Qing felt right now, so he could only speak sincerely and cautiously: “Su Qing, I really like you. I like you so much. I want to be with you, to date you. Will you agree?”

“Are you willing to give me a chance? I’ll do my best to treat you well, and I won’t let external factors interfere. I’ll protect our relationship,” Yue Qi said seriously.

Su Qing’s head was still lowered, but when he heard what Yue Qi said, he couldn’t help but smile slightly. He was happy, but just as Yue Qi had said, the frustration and confusion from being suddenly pushed away without a word couldn’t dissipate immediately.

According to Yue Qi’s words, it was indeed okay for him to be angry.

He quickly wiped the smile from his face, raised his head to look at Yue Qi, and honestly voiced his feelings.

“I like you too. I like you more than I can put into words,” Su Qing said, watching the smile bloom on Yue Qi’s face. He could almost agree to him right then and there. The soft, refreshing fragrance of osmanthus filled the air. But Su Qing forced himself to frown, becoming serious. “But I’m still really annoyed. Back then, you didn’t even give me a chance to pursue you… You’re so cruel.”

Although, in his heart, he didn’t truly feel that Yue Qi had done anything wrong that warranted forgiveness, he still needed to express his frustration. He couldn’t just let it go without letting out a little steam.

“This place isn’t somewhere you can come and go as you please,” Su Qing said with a stiff face. “Just because you apologize doesn’t mean I have to forgive you right away.”

After forcing himself to say those words, which he thought sounded rather bold, Su Qing felt deflated. He slouched, watching Yue Qi’s smile fade, his heart uneasy. He didn’t know if Yue Qi was about to leave again.

Su Qing quietly asked, “If… if I don’t forgive you, I mean, if I can’t forgive you right away, what will you do?” He turned his gaze away, focusing on a distant corner. “Are you going to leave?”

Are you just going to leave every time?

Su Qing felt a bit angry at himself for wanting Yue Qi yet still feeling angry with him. His feelings were so contradictory, and he felt childish, like an immature kid.

But this was the first time in nearly forty years of his life that Su Qing had come so close to love. He was insecure and hesitant, moving forward while also wanting to retreat, wanting to get closer yet wanting to escape, wanting to be strong but feeling incredibly timid. Right now, he really couldn’t just hear Yue Qi’s confession of love and apology and forget all the unpleasantness, rushing into Yue Qi’s arms, happily jumping into a relationship.

He just wanted to act childish this one time.

He wanted to know if this person was really willing to hold on to him tightly, like he said, and never let go.

Yue Qi looked at Su Qing’s stubborn face, yet saw the softness and uncertainty in his eyes. He understood.

Standing at the beginning of love, both of them were uncertain, especially Su Qing.

And within Su Qing’s uncertainty, there was also a hint of anger and lack of self-confidence.

Of course, these emotions had to be processed first before they could really take the next step.

Their love didn’t have to be perfect, but it had to be sincere and willing.

“Are you not going to forgive me?” Yue Qi leaned closer to Su Qing, his face right in front of his. “Am I not cute enough? Xiao Qing ge…?”

Su Qing stared in shock at Yue Qi, who was acting cute in front of him, calling him “Xiao Qing ge.” The anger in his chest almost vanished completely.

“Not forgiving me is the right choice,” Yue Qi suddenly said. “If the roles were reversed, I wouldn’t want to forgive you right away either. That would make you seem insignificant.” Yue Qi added theatrically, “If you ask me, the more important someone is, the more hurt they can cause. Someone at my ‘future husband’ level must have really hurt you. Hmm, don’t forgive me, let me chase you relentlessly to make up for your anger.”

At first, this sounded shameless, but upon closer thought, it was indeed shameless. However, it made Su Qing’s tense expression break into a smile. He slapped Yue Qi lightly, scolding him with mock anger. “Who do you think you are? ‘Future husband’?”

“Yes, I am,” Yue Qi replied, smiling mischievously. He leaned closer to Su Qing, eyes glinting with playful affection. “But before you start punishing me, could you at least give me some reassurance and let me know that you agree to let me pursue you?”

“What… what reassurance?” Su Qing stared at Yue Qi’s increasingly close face. His body instinctively leaned back, trying to distance himself. Yue Qi wasn’t about to let him escape. With a firm hand, he cupped the back of Su Qing’s neck and softly kissed him.

The fragrance of osmanthus gently filled the air, swaying in the warm, soft breeze. The fresh and elegant aroma of tea gradually deepened, creating a tender atmosphere around them.

Yue Qi gently sucked on Su Qing’s lips, speaking intermittently between kisses. “Xiao Qing ge, I missed you so much. Did you miss me?” He tasted the subtle tea fragrance in Su Qing’s mouth, kissing him deeper, unable to stop himself from sinking into the moment.

“I… I… feel so dizzy.” Su Qing pressed against Yue Qi’s chest, his head spinning from the kiss. He gasped out the words, only to feel Yue Qi pause the motion of his lips.

Yue Qi gave Su Qing’s soft lips one last reluctant, tender suck before pulling him into his embrace, gently patting his back to soothe him. “Alright, no more kissing. Rest for a bit.” The osmanthus scent immediately subsided, becoming faint and delicate, like morning mist wrapping softly around the two of them.

“Sorry, I must’ve ruined the mood, didn’t I?” Once Su Qing’s dizziness subsided, he couldn’t help but speak dejectedly. He had missed Yue Qi so much and wanted to kiss him deeply in return.

“How could it ruin the mood?” Yue Qi’s low, raspy voice responded, laced with restraint. “You have no idea how incredibly sexy you are…”

Su Qing’s face turned red as he propped himself up from Yue Qi’s arms. “Don’t say such things. I… I haven’t forgiven you yet.”

“I know. Take your time. I’ll wait for you,” Yue Qi said softly.

“I’ll always wait for you.”

(To Be Continued…)

T/L: OMG I’M BLUSHING SO MUCH ૮ >⸝⸝⸝⸝< ა

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