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Mention of Self-harm
Ch 8
by SpringlilaIt was only then that Lou Cheng suddenly realized he had grabbed Ding Xuerun’s hand.
He quickly let go, and said angrily, “F**k! Can’t I sweat my hands? You, what’s wrong with your mind?”
Ding Xuerun whispered “um” noncommittally: “I haven’t finished smoking yet, so stay away from me.” After speaking, he gently closed the small door of the bathroom again.
Lou Cheng said from outside: “Crazy.”
He rubbed the sweat on the palms of his hands and inexplicably thought about Xiao Ding’s slippery hands.
He can’t remember what it was like the last time he held hands with someone. In fact, he has forgotten what his last girlfriend looked like. He only remembers that her eyes are quite big, but her eyes are not as big as Xiao Ding’s, and her hands are not as tender as his, nor as white as Xiao Ding…
Lou Cheng muttered to himself, he hated the smell of smoke and returned to his bed. He lowered his head and smelled himself, there really was a subtle smell of smoke. Lou Cheng couldn’t stand it, so he changed his pajama before climbing into his bed.
Ding Xuerun is not addicted to smoking. He smoked one and was satisfied, then he rinsed his mouth. After taking off his watch, he washed his hands clean and went to bed.
When Lou Cheng was still in bed, Ding Xuerun did not wait for him and went to the cafeteria to have breakfast by himself.
He went to the classroom very early in the morning, but not the earliest. The students who were studying hard in the class came as soon as the lock of the school gate was opened at six o’clock. Ding Xuerun wants to read early, and the late time starts from the early reading. If he does not catch up with the early reading, he will be late.
And Lou Cheng is late every day.
Today was no exception. When the first class was almost over, he appeared sleepily through the back door.
Instead of wearing a school uniform, he wore a black jacket with his hands in his pockets. The physics teacher who was known as the exterminator was teaching on the podium. When he saw him like this, he said sarcastically: “Lou Cheng, why did you come to the classroom before the end of the class?”
“Pufft…” Some students laughed.
Lou Cheng stood behind and glanced at Ding Xuerun, and found that Ding Xuerun hadn’t looked at him at all. He looked at the podium and said confidently: “I went to the school infirmary. The school infirmary does not open until after eight o’clock. I have been waiting for it.”
“Don’t know how to go after class?”
“I can’t wait.”
The exterminator stared at him and sternly said: “You go out and come in after class.”
Lou Cheng said “Oh” and put his hand in his pants pocket indifferently: “Then I will get something.”
He walked to his seat, took out a small transparent plastic bag that was crumpled by him from his pocket, and threw it on Ding Xuerun’s table.
He was also hungry. He took a bottle of yogurt on the table and then paused.
It’s like he’s looking for something.
Lou Cheng didn’t seem to find what he wanted. He lowered his head and glanced at Ding Xuerun, and found that he was pretending to be serious again today—Xiao Ding was playing with his mobile phone.
Lou Cheng looked for the breakfast on the table again and looked it up carefully.
The exterminator saw that he had not gone out yet, and his eyebrows were already raised angrily: “Lou Cheng, haven’t you found it yet?”
“Are you trying to affect everyone in the class?”
“Right away.” Lou Cheng didn’t raise his head. He was sure that after Ding Xuerun hadn’t bought him a steamed bun today, his face was particularly stinky. Before he walked out of the classroom, he stretched out his leg and kicked his chair, making a lot of noise. The classmates who had been attending the class were taken aback and turned back to look at the big guy who was always nice and kind.
Lou Cheng was depressed and walked out with a cold face.
The extermination heard the noise he made so much and was going to scold him, but Lou Cheng walked too fast. As soon as his scolding got stuck in his throat, Lou Cheng ran away.
Little bastard.
Ding Xuerun didn’t react at all. He held the pen, and finally reached out and opened the small bag that Lou Cheng had placed on his desk.
There is a tube of scald cream, a box of band-aids, and a bottle of disinfectant spray.
The extermination teacher originally asked Lou Cheng to stand outside.
As a result, after Lou Cheng went out, there was no one left, and he ran to the basketball court.
But this is just the first class in the morning. Whoever skipped class and played basketball was only Lou Cheng alone. He dribbled the ball back and forth, shoot three points, and dunked alone on the basketball court. He doesn’t seem to know what exhaustion is and sweating wantonly.
There are only ten minutes before the class over. No one will come to the playground at this time, and there is no class that has physical education for the second class. Therefore, in this huge playground, there is only Lou Cheng sweating.
The playground is still a little far away from the second-year teaching building. It takes at least five or six minutes to walk through two teaching buildings and to bypass a green belt of the gymnasium and the school.
Ding Xuerun had to rush to the next class, so he walked very quickly. He walked to the small road behind the stadium-here you can see the direction of the basketball court, with dense trees.
He stood still and left after a minute.
Lou Cheng seemed to be about to rest. He stopped dunking and the basketball bounced gently on the ground, drawing a beautiful arc. He looked in the direction of the bell rang upstairs in the teaching building, and only saw a figure in school uniform leaving quickly behind the dense shade of the trees.
Lou Cheng felt that the figure looked familiar, but he didn’t think much about it.
After Ding Xuerun returned to the classroom, that Friday, he hadn’t seen Lou Cheng all day on that day.
Most of the students from other places like him stay in school on weekends, some go outside to attend cram schools, and some take advantage of the weekend to go out to play.
They originally had to make up classes for one day on Saturday in the Liu Zhong high school, but later they didn’t know who had reported them, so the school no longer gave extra lessons for the students.
Some students are happy, but some students feel that they have suffered a loss, especially the parents of the students, complaining: “Now the cram school is so expensive, a class starts at 300 yuan for two hours, and the person who reported it doesn’t know what to think! How much money the school had saved us as parents!”
Ding Xuerun thought it was good to have no class. He went out early in the morning, checked the bus routes in the city, took the subway, and then transferred to the bus, and went to a nursing home for the disabled named Sunflower.
He had learned about this nursery center on the Internet before. There are a large number of disabled people living in it, ranging from children as young as a few years old to elderly people in their sixties. There are forty or fifty people living in the whole home. Some of them were amputated because of railway accidents in their early years. They were sent here by their families. Some of them were mentally handicapped children from birth. Unlike ordinary people, they were abandoned by their families and sent to nursery centers.
This is a group of people abandoned by society.
Ding Xuerun called in advance, and as soon as he arrived he saw the dean. The dean found that the volunteer who called was such a small student. The dean’s face could not help showing a trace of disappointment.
“Student Ding, are you still studying?”
“Well, I don’t have classes on weekends, so I can come and help a little bit.” Ding Xuerun carried a big handbag. He looked around. The whole home didn’t look big. In fact, it was a residential area with a door facing outside. There is also a door inward.
Ding Xuerun entered the community first before ringing the doorbell because when he called, the other party specifically told him: “The outside door is locked and we can’t get out.”
Hearing Ding Xuerun’s words, the dean smiled reluctantly: “Thank you, I’ll thank you for the children. You are such a good boy. By the way, Ding, did you bring your ID card and student ID? Let’s make registration first.”
He followed the dean into the office, and the dean saw his student ID: “You are a student in Liu Zhong high school.”
“Yes.”
“Then your grades must be very good,” the dean said with a smile, “you look like a good student at first glance.”
Ding Xuerun said: “Dean, do you have any information about the patients in your home? I want to know about them.”
“Yes.” The dean presented the information on the computer, “Just look at it here, these information cannot be released outside.”
The so-called information is the name, photo, and doctor’s diagnosis certificate of each patient.
Ding Xuerun watched slowly while listening to the dean.
“The Sunflower Home has been established for a long time. It was established in 1995. It has undergone three relocations and its name has been changed twice.”
“Relying on the support of some socially caring people and the government, it has been maintained until now.”
The dean spoke for a while, then looked at Ding Xuerun with a gentle look: “Student Ding, there are not many caring children like you now.”
Ding Xuerun had a trace of loneliness on his face, and then smiled and said: “My family is like them, so I really want to do something.”
“Poor child,” the dean said.
“But I don’t have much money, and I can’t do too much for the home.” After he said that, he bent over and took out some stationery from the handbag he brought. “I heard that there are a lot of children here, so I brought something they could use.”
The dean was very happy to see this beautiful and exquisite stationery, which is rarely seen on the market, so he stood up and said thank you: “You are still a student, you are so thoughtful…”
Ding Xuerun said it should be.
His mother was deaf and mute and was born with defects, but she had an amazingly beautiful face. Not long after she was with Ding Zhaowen, she gave birth to Ding Xuerun.
The combination of deaf-mute and sound people still has a certain chance of giving birth to deaf-mute children. Ding Xuerun did not cry or scream when he was born. Ding Zhaowen did not take care of the children and went to see his wife the first time.
The wife was deaf and dumb so she could not hear the child’s cries. She was very anxious and asked Ding Zhaowen how the child was doing with sign language.
The nurse pinched the child’s a*s and Ding Xuerun cried.
Ding Zhaowen comforted his wife and said, “He cried and made a noise.”
For some reason, Ding Zhaowen is not very good to the child and does not treat him harshly in life, but emotionally… he is not a good father.
Ding Xuerun used to be very young. At that time, he would wonder if his father didn’t like him because he had no defects. Slowly it became an obsession of his, he would put his focus on unnecessary stuff. Soon after learning to smoke, he burned his hands for the first time.
That kind of pain was so secretive that let him release the pressure. He looked at the rotten flesh and felt that there was a defect in his body, and he would get a certain amount of satisfaction and comfort in his mind.
However, he controlled it well and would not let anyone find out, nor would he do more terrifying things.
Ding Xuerun worked as a volunteer in the home of the disabled for a day. In the evening, he took the subway and returned to school.
On Saturday, there was almost no one in school. Ding Xuerun was hungry. He sat opposite the school and ate a bowl of beef noodles.
The price difference between the beef noodles outside the school and the cafeteria inside the school is not much, but the taste is better.
After he finished eating the noodles, he dragged his tired body after a long day and walked to the school.
When he entered the school gate, he happened to receive a call from Ding Zhaowen.
Ding Xuerun walked on the quiet school at night, Ding Zhaowen said on the phone: “The express delivery has been sent to you, and it will arrive tomorrow. I sent you a quilt, sweaters and down jackets. See if there is anything else you need. I need my father to send it to you.”
Ding Xuerun said no need.
It was just like the previous call, within ten seconds, the phone hung up.
When he went back to his dorm, he wrote a math test live broadcast. Someone asked him to advertise, and the other party offered a price.
Ding Xuerun hesitated for a moment and left contact information.
On Monday morning, Lou Cheng came to class. He glanced at the desk first but did not see the steamed buns.
He opened the table with a large move, making a loud noise. His handsome face looks so bad.
Ding Xuerun supported his forehead with one hand, revealing the quartz watch he was wearing.
Lou Cheng saw the burn, he held back his anger and patted his table: “Where is the medicine that I bought for you?!”
Ding Xuerun turned his head and glanced at him, Lou Cheng’s two sword eyebrows frowned, and his face was full of displeasure.
“I’m asking you!” Lou Cheng stared at his cheek and wanted to pinch it hard, saying, Xiao Ding why are you so heartless? Am I too kind to you?
Ding Xuerun still didn’t speak. He opened his watch with his right hand, revealing the band-aid tightly attached to the skin inside.
Lou Cheng’s expression improved, but when he thought that Ding Xuerun hadn’t bought him a steamed bun, and it seemed that nothing happened, he was still unhappy. He snorted and stopped looking at him.
The author has something to say:
Lou Cheng: Xiaoding, where is my steamed bun?
Xiao Ding: Are you not vegetarian?
Lou Cheng: Pull the calf! I like vegetarian food the most!