ISTHR 153

１５３

The sky is starting to turn a faint red. It’s around 4 o’clock, I think. It’s too early for dinner, so we had a late lunch today. We’ve already had fried chicken for dinner, so I think we’ll have soup for breakfast. It’s got some pork belly, so it’s quite filling. Maybe I’ll add an egg and some pickled turnips, too.

I drowsily dozed off next to Saine. I was sleeping curled up next to the sleeping Saine. Saine’s stomach, or rather, his waist is in front of me. Satisfied, I gently grabbed Saine’s dick as he lay there, limp.

Supporting myself on my elbows, I went over to Saine. I squeezed his dick. His toned stomach was covered with the white stuff I’d ejaculated.

Haruka told me that being able to cum from being thrust into your ass is proof that there is love. Normally, you can’t cum just from being thrust into, unless you really like that kind of thing. Apparently you have to get thrust into, have your front rubbed, and then you can finally cum.

But I’ve only ever done it with Saine, and I was able to cum from just being thrust into my ass right from the start. When I told him that, he clapped and said that was love.

That’s right, it’s love. I really do love Saine. I’m happy when he sticks it in, and even happier when he cums inside me. When I think that Saine is happy with me, I feel so happy and moved. Then my chest tightens, and all my emotions explode all at once. Feelings like “I like you” and “I love you” overflow helplessly, and then my dick is drawn to it and explodes too.

I think the white spattered on Saine’s stomach is proof of my love. It’s not just words. I’m not just saying it. I really do love you. Saine, do you understand that?

I stare at Saine, who I’ve been playing with, squishing him. I hold him in both hands and squish him, and his red head swells up. I stare at Saine’s round head.

What should I stick in this tiny hole? Chopsticks are too thick, and skewers are dangerous. I could borrow some sandpaper from Allec and round off the tip of the skewer… but it’s so tiny. I wonder if it’s safe to stick something like that in a place like this. (TN: DON’T, OMG!!!)

I stare at the hole at the tip of the red, swollen head, the spot I’m after, and poke it with the tip of my toe. It doesn’t seem like anything will fit in there. I lick it with my pointed tongue. A slightly sticky, clear liquid overflows, and I lick it up. I wonder if it’s okay if something like this comes out. If there’s something to help me, like the dour grass in my ass, maybe it will go in pretty well. (TN: MC’s gone rogue, holly cwap!!)

I take Saine’s dick into my mouth and suck it. The smell of a man makes my head dizzy. I take it in my mouth, take my hand off, and knead his big balls. Like a kitty kneading for tits.

[Do you want it?]

While I have the stiff Saine in my mouth, I move only my eyes. Saine gets up and puts a finger in my ass.

[It’s still wet.]

To check, he puts in another finger and sits back down. I looked up at Saine, who was sitting cross-legged, and took my mouth off his completely erect penis.

[Can I put it in?]

Into this hole.

But Saine seemed to be thinking of a different hole, as he suddenly laughed.

[Yeah.]

Saine takes my arm and pulls me over. My legs spread apart while being guided over and my waist lowers down on top of Saine. I’m intoxicated by the tightness, even though I’m used to it.

Placing my hands on his broad shoulders, I move up and down on my own. Using Saine inside me, I stimulate myself. My dick was moving rhythmically. It was jiggling and it hurt a little. I lowered my hips, devoured him at the base, and thrust my hips forward. Saine smiled faintly and wrapped me in one of his big hands.

Saine could fit me in one hand. No matter how hard I got, one of his big hands was enough. Being wrapped in his hot, thick hand was an incredible feeling of security. I felt a happy warmth, like being wrapped in a fluffy futon on a cold winter’s morning.

[I like it when you hold me.]

I took a deep breath and rested my cheek against his thick chest. Saine’s strong heartbeat was beating much faster than usual.

I tighten around him and then suddenly relaxes. Without moving my hips, I urge him with just my ass.  Of course Saine won’t cum with just this, but I’m just playing around for a bit. It’s not like a rollercoaster where you just put it in, move tempestuously, and it explodes. A lot of people are like this, they play around for a bit after putting it in, tasting each other. Both are nice but if I were to choose one, I prefer this one. Every time I put some strength to tighten up that place, Saine starts to throb inside me. The tip was poking me.

He said it’s okay to put it in, but Saine totally misunderstood. That approval did not mean it’s okay to put it inside his dick hole. 

Should I aim for a surprise attack? But I’m scared about what’ll happen after that. I wonder if Allec had a fight after he did it. I’m be too scared to do it, I need to hear the aftermath first.

Grabbing my leg, Saine flips me over with him still inside me. He puts my face on the sheets and raises my ass high. He’s already all the way in, but Saine still wants to go deeper, so he grabs my ass with both hands and spreads it apart, thrusting deeper and deeper. I rub my face against the sheets and hold on to the white fabric with both hands. I can’t take it anymore, he can’t go any further. I bang my toes on the bed as if to convey that.

Finally giving up, Saine grinds his hips violently. He pulls his hips back so far that he was about to pull out, and moves as if to dig from the entrance towards my stomach with the tip. Over and over again. I grit my teeth, feeling like I’m going to wet myself. When he does this, I really do feel like I’m going to pee.

Saine stopped moving and stroked my back. His slightly rough, warm hands stroked me slowly. It was a touch that made me feel love, and I almost mistaken it for a scene where he whispered words of love. But of course, Saine whispered no words of love. He only emphasized once again that I am his.

[My Reincarnator……]

If he wants to emphasize it so much, might as well write it on my back. That i am Saine’s Reincarnator. I was a little annoyed, so I crawled forward and pulled it out.

I heard a light *slap* sound, and Saine’s dick stuck to his toned stomach. Saine’s full erection is amazing. It’s completely facing up and in line with his stomach. It’s not tilted forward or tilted to the left or right. It’s straight up.

[Don’t pull it out.]

He threatened me with a gruff voice, but I’m not giving in.

[Then tell me you like me.]

Saine drew his handsome eyebrows together.

[…You don’t like me, do you? You regret taking youry name off the list for the Ceremony.]

I said it to act tough, but tears started to fall.

[Don’t cling to words.]

[It’s not just words. It’s important. Love is something that will disappear if you don’t confirm it.]

His large hand strokes my cheek. Its warmth made my tears fall even more.

[Will your feelings disappear?]

Over such a pointless thing? That’s what Saine’s eyes are saying.

[I don’t want it to. That’s why I’m saying it to you]

[Are saying it for yourself to hear? So that you will not forget it.]

[I said that’s not it. I want you to know it. That i love you.]

I stood on my knees and looked into Saine’s eyes.

[Saine, what do you think of me? Is it okay for me to think that I have your love?]

 If that is the case then please nod in confirmation. You don’t need to use words, at least nod that what I’m saying is right.

[You’re my Reincarnator. That’s why I will be by your side. Forever.]

Saine gently pulled me to him. His powerful heartbeat beat out the usual rhythm. Saine’s penis had gone a little flaccid. Mine was completely drooping.

My words had made Saine’s penis go flaccid. Even if I told him I loved him, Saine probably wasn’t happy. He refused to even nod. It’s not like Saine wasn’t saying it because he was embarrassed. It’s not like he loves or likes me enough to even lie.

He’s only taking good care of me because I’m his Reincarnator, who came out during the Ceremony.

If I can’t have his heart then I’ll have his body at least. For some reason, I feel like I’ve seen that kind of drama before. You should never get involved with a guy like that. Even as a child I thought that, but the actress in the drama was giving her body to a no-good man.

That’s exactly the situation I was in right now. I clung to Saine and desperately tried to wake up his flaccid penis. He’s up, all right, I thought, straddling him and moving my hips like a lord riding a horse in a period drama.

The blue sky was dyed a dark red by the setting sun, and before I knew it, the room was pitch black. In a world where I couldn’t see anything, I continued to bounce around like a lord running across the sandy beach.