SS 6(2) Part 3

Bomin slowly scanned Yihan from head to toe. His gaze was so intense that Yihan shrunk back as if he were being molested.

“You’re not a minor. So why?”

Though Yihan looked young, he was an adult. Besides, the original Bomin wasn’t inexperienced. He’d been roughly handled by the ‘Gongs,’ but he’d primarily performed s*xual guiding.

“…Yoo Min doesn’t want to.”

Bomin’s mouth opened and closed, searching for words. Then, a thought struck him, and he asked Yihan cautiously,

“Is Yoo Min, by any chance… impotent?”

“Hey!”

Yihan, who had been speaking softly, suddenly yelled. Bomin rubbed his ringing ears and sat a little further away.

“Then why on earth? Neither of you are minors, and you’re both perfectly healthy. Plus, you’re about to sign a Pair Guide contract.”

It was simply incomprehensible to Bomin.

“…I don’t know why either. If I knew, would I just sit here doing nothing?”

Their conversation had suddenly turned into a relationship consultation for Kang Yihan.

“How far have you gone? Don’t tell me… you’ve only held hands?”

“W-We’ve… done a bl*wjob…”

“So…”

Bomin stopped talking and stared intently at Yihan’s crotch. His gaze was so intense that Yihan covered his groin with both hands.

“Is yours bigger? Is that why?”

“Hey! No, it’s not!”

“You don’t have to shout, I can hear you even if you speak softly.”

His ears throbbed after being hit directly by another shout. Judging by height and build, Yoo Min was definitely bigger, so since they hadn’t had s*x, Bomin had wondered if it was because Yihan’s dick was bigger. But apparently not.

“That’s strange. Yoo Min seemed to really like you.”

“…That’s because I’m in Kang Yihan’s body. Who in the world would like me? I’m not like you.”

Yihan’s eyes darkened with gloom. The way Won Seongwoo had looked at Bomin was still etched in his mind.

“You… you get along well with other S-rank Espers, right? I’ve heard rumors.”

They were the ones who had only ever demanded emotionless s*xual guiding from him. And then he’d heard that they were all head over heels for one Guide.

Kang Yihan and Yoo Min had been dispatched to Switzerland early on, so they’d avoided the chaos at the Association when the former Association President caused the incident. Therefore, both of them had been back in Korea for a while.

The only news they received about the Association’s internal affairs came from occasional messages sent by one of Yoo Min’s former teammates. Yoo Min wasn’t inherently interested in other people’s affairs.

“Of course you and I are different. We haven’t lived the same lives.”

Bomin shrugged as if stating the obvious. Yihan’s hand tightened. The blue veins bulging on the back of his hand became prominent.

“But one thing is the same. Both you and I deserve to be loved.”

A hand similar in size to Yihan’s covered his tightly clenched fist. Bomin unfolded Yihan’s fist and gently traced the remaining scars on his palm.

“You haven’t told Yoo Min the truth, have you? About what happened to you.”

Yihan avoided Bomin’s gaze like a child who’d caused trouble and was afraid of his parents. This time, Bomin intertwined his fingers with Yihan’s, clasping his hand.

“That’s why I couldn’t tell him either. Because I thought you hadn’t told Yoo Min the truth.”

Tears welled up in his large eyes and streamed down his cheeks. Bomin gently stroked Yihan’s hair as he cried silently.

“If you keep going like this, you won’t be able to hold on.”

He knew it was scary to speak up.

Especially if Yoo Min’s kindness was the first affection he’d ever received.

Knowing how sweet that first attention and affection could be, Bomin understood the original Bomin’s feelings more than anyone. For him, Jeong Hotae had been that person.

After Jeong Hotae disappeared, the reason Bomin lived a life where he didn’t care if he died was because the moment he thought Jeong Hotae had abandoned him, his will to live vanished.

The wound he received back then still lingered in a corner of Bomin’s heart, occasionally dragging him into a mire of despair. But even if he was sometimes engulfed by emptiness, Bomin wasn’t afraid.

It was because he had people by his side, not just those stuck outside the door right now, but also those waiting eagerly for his return in Korea.

So, Bomin hoped that the original Bomin would also achieve the complete happiness he now felt. It seemed that there were more tangled, unseen emotional threads between him and Yoo Min than he’d realized.

“I have a feeling that Yoo Min was actually just friends with the previous Kang Yihan.”

“How would you know that…?”

The guy who had been silently shedding fat tears now grumbled. He was sulky because Bomin spoke as if he knew Yoo Min well.

Kang Yihan seemed like a much younger brother. A different kind of cute than Kim Seohun.

“There are things that are easier to see for someone who isn’t close. Especially in romantic relationships.”

Love sometimes makes people blind. Bomin had a history of that, and he still does. Besides, he’s surrounded by people of the same kind.

“Do you really think so…?”

Kang Yihan’s expression was like a frightened child. Bomin understood how he felt, so he decided to meddle a bit.

“Of course. If you’re confused, let’s check.”

“How?”

“To know someone’s true feelings, you also have to face them with sincerity.”

Eyes the same color as Bomin’s shook violently. It was because he could guess what Bomin was going to say.

“But what if… Yoo Min leaves me…?”

Tears, welling up without a moment’s notice, streamed down his cheeks. Kang Yihan was experiencing happiness for the first time in his life. He learned about the happiness of someone looking at him with the same feelings when he met Yoo Min.

Even when he lived in Korea, envied by most, he had never smiled comfortably, not even for a moment.

Kang Yihan was always the weak one. He always had to live in fear of when the S-class Espers would abandon him. Even if they treated him roughly, he couldn’t properly confront them or report them to the association.

He just endured, tolerated, and persevered.

Hoping that someday they would feel the same way as him.

Then one day, he woke up in an unfamiliar body. At first, he thought it was a dream. It was only natural, since before he woke up in Kang Yihan’s body, he had been exhausted by the repetitive days and spent a long time staring blankly at his wrist.

He frequently picked up sharp objects impulsively and brought them close to his wrist. Although he never actually cut his wrist, he had a premonition that if this situation continued, the day would come when he would harm himself.

‘Yihan-ah, are you awake?’

As soon as he opened his eyes, he was pulled into a wide, warm embrace. It was the warmth of a person he hadn’t felt in a long time. Because unless they were having intense s*x, no one held him like that.

Looking at the shoulder getting wet with tears, as if someone had led his hand, he wrapped his arms around the man’s back.

He buried his face in the man’s shoulder, which was bent down to accommodate him, and shed the tears he had been holding back. He didn’t even know why he was crying. He didn’t know who was holding him.

Even so… just the fact that someone was holding him warmly made him cry in the warm embrace for a long time.

‘Your eyes are so swollen. Are you thirsty? I should have given you water first…. I’m sorry.’

It wasn’t something to apologize for. He said his eyes were swollen, but his own eyes were swollen too. He liked the way the man carefully stroked his face as if he didn’t care what his face looked like, so he gently leaned his cheek against the man’s palm and rubbed it.

‘…You’ve gotten more affectionate.’

It was only after hearing those words that he came to his senses.

‘Where… is this place?’

Seeing him speak formally, the man’s expression crumbled. As if he sensed something was wrong, his nicely tanned skin turned pale in an instant.

‘Wait a moment…. I’ll go get the teacher.’

He stared blankly at the back of the man who left him and got out of bed. His body collapsed to the floor as soon as he put one foot properly on the ground.

He didn’t have any strength in his body, as if he had been lying down for a long time.

‘Yihan-ah!’

…Yihan.

At first, he didn’t realize it wasn’t his name. It seemed he had been in a daze for a long time.

‘It seems like you’ve lost some of your memories. It’s probably because you hit your head hard. We need to run a thorough examination to be certain, though.’

He couldn’t really hear the teacher talking about him. His attention was solely focused on the man who was holding his hand so tightly that his knuckles had turned white.

‘It’s okay even if you don’t remember. My name is Yoo Min. I’ve been friends with Yihan since we were born. Our parents were close.’

Looking at the face of the man introducing himself, he decided to live as Kang Yihan.

Even if he went back to where he originally belonged, there was no one to welcome him anyway. For a brief moment, he wondered what had happened to his original body, but the thought quickly evaporated as he met Yoo Min’s eyes.

He didn’t want to lose the warm gaze directed at him.

He didn’t know what had happened to Kang Yihan’s soul, but he wasn’t a moral person to begin with.

That didn’t mean he forcibly took over this body. As if it was meant to be, one day he woke up in Kang Yihan’s body.

“…I never want to lose Yoo Min.”