TCOR CH32

Chapter 32: Eaten by a big monster

For most creatures on Earth, the tongue is simply a tool for eating. A small minority use it to gather information about their surroundings and identify dangers. However, only humans associate it with ‘love and lust’.

The person who first invented the act of ‘kissing’ was truly a genius. Appetite, curiosity and love, the first two driving the latter, blended together to create a whole new, more complex sense.

Shen Wunian’s mouth temperature is very similar to his body temperature, a little hot but very pleasant.

I don’t really know how to kiss. In China, this has always been strictly regulated. It’s not taught in schools, and now it’s rarely seen in films or television. I only know some of the superficial processes, like opening the mouth and putting the tongue in, but I have no idea how to move it once it’s in.

I groped and managed to get my tongue between Shen Wunian’s teeth, where it gently touched another tongue of the same species. The other tongue was very docile, not aggressive at all, and could even be described as overly calm.

I curled it, explored its texture and taste, and satisfied my curiosity.

That was enough for me. It was stimulating, but not so much that I couldn’t breathe and felt like I was going to die, like in my dreams. I was quite happy with my first kiss.

I pulled away a little, my body still trembling, my blood still boiling, but I told myself I couldn’t go on.

Then Shen Wunian’s knees moved again.

I tugged at his hair and my breathing stopped. Only then did my brain, left behind by the rationality of the others, regain its senses, and I once again died heroically in the midst of a devastating prairie fire.

You… don’t move,’ I gasped, shaking slightly.

I squeezed my legs together to prevent any movement. But it was useless. My heart was beating faster and faster, the stimulation growing stronger and stronger. Tears of fear welled up in my eyes as I felt my body change.

You… you’re tormenting me again,’ I accused, not knowing what to do.

I haven’t moved,’ Shen Wunian said innocently.

How dare this person not take responsibility for his actions? If you didn’t move, then I…

Oh, he really didn’t move, I was the one who moved. As I lowered my head, I felt as if I had opened up a third perspective and watched the little monster break free from its owner’s control. It was like a dog licking its owner’s hand, shamelessly rubbing against Shen Wunian.

It hadn’t behaved like that in the past. At least when he liked Bai Qixuan, it was still normal. Now, it’s like it’s possessed by a teddy bear, always wanting to rub against something.

How can you have so much fun all by yourself? Clouds covered the moon, and Shen Wunian looked down at me condescendingly, his expression caught in the shadows, making it hard to tell what he was thinking.

I bit my tongue lightly, feeling a little embarrassed.

‘Help me…’ I begged him to help me stop the little monster, to kill it or strangle it, as long as it stopped controlling my body, I didn’t care what he did.

Do you know who I am?

Who else could he be?

‘Shen…wu Nian.’ Loosening his tie, I wrapped my hands around his neck and pulled him down further, repeating, ‘Help me…’.

The end of the sentence was swallowed into another person’s stomach. If the kiss I just gave him was just the right amount of stimulation, this kiss is a bit too much.

Shen Wunian and I are two completely different styles. He goes straight for the jugular, overbearing and strong, wanting everything and allowing no resistance.

My mind goes blank, every pore on my body opens up. The stimulation that has crossed the threshold makes my senses stay focused on this kiss, unable to pay attention to anything else.

My adrenaline is pumping, all sounds seem to fade away. The feeling of dying gives me a ringing in my ears, a tingling in my scalp and it feels like my whole body is about to explode from the inside.

I couldn’t tell if I was resisting or enjoying it, just following Shen Wunian’s rhythm and trusting him completely.

It felt like an eternity, but it was only a few minutes. Eventually, everything slowly faded away and he let go of me, leaving me to collapse without strength.

I lay on my back on the grass with no strength in my body. Of course, there was the influence of the alcohol, but more so because the little monster – it was happy, but I was miserable.

Shen Wunian stood up, revealing the vast, deep night sky behind him.

With my eyes half closed, I had the illusion that I had become a feather, or something even lighter, floating alone in the universe.

Was this what it felt like to be high?

Can you stand up? Shen Wunian held out his hand.

I slowly raised my hand and managed to grasp it, but my limbs were like soft noodles, unable to muster the slightest strength.

I can’t get up,’ I said, my voice weak with sickness.

Shen Wunian raised an eyebrow, his eyes full of mockery. “Where’s the strength that just brought me down by my tie?”

“It’s been eaten,” I whispered, closing my eyes.

In the end, it was Shen Wunian who carried me back to the car. I lay on his back and pretended to sleep. Under the influence of alcohol, I felt no anxiety and was not afraid, even though I knew I had done something wrong.

I left my worries for tomorrow. Thinking this, I wrapped my arms around Shen Wunian’s neck even tighter.

I’m an animal.

The next second I came to my senses, sat up with a start and began to recall the events of last night in horror.

No way! How could someone be so insolent?

It’s over.

It’s over!!!

I’ve committed sexual harassment, haven’t I?

I paced anxiously by the bed, biting my nails and covering my face for a while, but I just didn’t have the courage to walk out the bedroom door.

After half an hour of hesitation, I realised that if I didn’t go out soon, I’d be late for class. Gritting my teeth, I changed my clothes and quietly opened the door.

It was quiet outside and Shen Wunian hadn’t woken up yet. This was great.

I breathed a sigh of relief and went into the bathroom to wash up.

Then, as if triggered by the situation, a second memory came to me.

When I came home last night, I felt sticky all over… well, I felt sticky in one place, so I went to the bathroom despite Shen Wunian’s advice.

Shen Wunian was afraid that I might fall in the shower if I took a bath alone, so he had to accompany me – just to keep me company, behind the glass of the shower cubicle.

I don’t know whether it was the wrong technique or the wrong angle of the shower head, but the little monster woke up.

The glass of the shower cubicle was full of misty water vapour, which served a certain mosaic function, and the water hitting the tiles also partially muffled the sound.

So, taking advantage of the alcohol and the little bit of drunkenness that remained, I once again committed a despicable act against the blurred figure of Shen Wunian on the glass…

It was really despicable!

I braced myself against the sink and was almost driven mad by the memory of myself.

The distance… I looked into the shower cubicle not far away. How could I not have seen anything at a distance of only two or three metres?

The bathroom was filled with steam and the glass was steamed up. As I looked at Shen Wunian through the steam and fog, what was he looking at?

He must have thought I was a pervert…

I closed my eyes and looked into the mirror. It faithfully reflected my desperate appearance.

My eyebrows were slightly furrowed, and my eyes, cheeks and tightly puckered lips were red with shame.

Yesterday, Shen Wunian and I kissed.

My fingertips trembled as they touched my lips, and I immediately winced as if they had been burned.

To wake myself up completely, I turned the cold water on full blast, stuck my head under the stream, and washed away not only the superficial heat, but also the feeling that my brain was about to freeze.

I spent a long time in the bathroom. When I came out, Shen Wunian was already awake and breakfast was ready.

My IQ had returned and I just couldn’t face him. I was about to walk out the door without looking at him when he said:

‘Come and eat.

I took a step back, then followed Shen Wunian’s instructions and sat down obediently with my head bowed.

There was no communication during the meal. I felt like a condemned man with a guillotine hanging over his head, eating his last full meal. I was too worried about the guillotine falling to enjoy the food.

Last night… Shen Wunian raised his coffee cup and said the second thing he had said today, and I only had to listen to the first two words to predict what would happen next.

What you did last night was disgusting. I cannot tolerate a subordinate and roommate who has inappropriate fantasies about himself. Just go. Don’t let me see you again.

That’s what’s going to happen.

I was wrong!

‘It’s no big deal.’

My voice echoed Shen Wunian’s, and with a deathly determination I awaited the fall of the guillotine. Instead of the end of my life, I received a pardon.

A general amnesty.

Huh? I, who thought myself unpardonable, was more surprised than anyone.

Men, after a little wine, are always prone to infatuation. It’s normal, it’s nothing, you don’t have to blame yourself like that,’ Shen Wunian lowered his eyes, tilted his cup, took a small sip of coffee and said, ‘Well… at home people often help each other like that, even if they’re not gay.’

He looked up at me: “Do you know what I mean? Zhong Ai.”

The coffee cup obscured part of his expression, so I could only focus on his eyes.

His irises were a translucent light brown in the golden morning light. Complex rings and fine cracks were intertwined around the pupil, which had shrunk to a point in the centre due to the strong sunlight. It was as if a pair of black suns were burning silently inside him.

I didn’t understand, but nodded out of respect for the atmosphere.

Very good,’ he said, glancing at the clock. ‘Are you going to be late?

Damn it!

I jumped up like my bum was on fire, shoved the bread into my mouth, grabbed my rucksack and ran for the door.

Do you want a lift? Shen Wunian’s voice asked from behind me.

No, the subway’s faster,’ I said, running out of the house in my shoes.

I didn’t pay any attention in class that day. My body was sitting there, but my soul had already flown high into the sky.

What did Shen Wunian mean? I pondered this question and came up with three possibilities.

The first is the literal meaning, that he really didn’t feel anything and didn’t care; the second is that he was lying and felt that I was a pervert, but was too embarrassed to say so; the third is that he was also lying, but not because he was embarrassed, but because he was afraid that I would be embarrassed, so he pretended that he didn’t care.

Whichever way I look at it, the first and third are more likely… But how do I know for sure if it’s the first or the third?

When I looked through my address book, I couldn’t find anyone to discuss it with. Either they weren’t close enough, or they didn’t seem intelligent enough to understand.

Just as I was getting annoyed, Peng Dai sent me a message inviting me to dinner, saying that she had found me an unused tripod and an old torch.

We met in the cafeteria and as soon as she saw me, she looked behind me: ‘Where’s the little mixed-race boy?

He’s sick,’ I said vaguely.

To this day I have not heard from Pei Huanchen and I don’t know when he will be able to return to class.

The weather has been really cold lately,’ Peng Dai said, handing me the bag she was holding.

I asked her what she wanted to eat and if I would pay for it. She thought about it for a while and ordered a bowl of wontons, so I ordered two bowls of wontons.

We sat by the window and ate and chatted. I told her about my participation in the Master Kaner competition, and she said that most of the people in the club had participated, and that she had also entered. She hadn’t dared mention it to me before, but now that I had, she was really happy for me.

That’s great. It’s really great that you haven’t given up on your talent. I could tell she was really happy for me.

It was only then that I realised that she was not unaware of my sensitivity and inferiority complex, she was just being careful not to touch it, like a delicate flower bud.

My heart melted.

Sister, thank you,’ I said, changing my address to thank her sincerely.

She froze for a moment, then smiled even wider.

“You called me that yourself, I didn’t force you to! In the future, if you don’t understand something, just ask your sister, I’ll tell you everything. She said, and then she put two wontons in my bowl: ‘Eat more, eat more.

I was a little touched and a little amused, but when it came to ‘not understanding’…

‘Sister, do you understand men?

Peng Dai stopped her soup drinking and narrowed her eyes: ‘Tell me in detail.

I looked at the dirty pigtail on her head. For some reason, I had an inexplicable trust in her.

‘Foreign men and men…that is, friends…will help each other, or one side will unilaterally help the other…that sort of physiological…uncontrollable…thing…’ I stammered, confused and not sure if I’d made myself clear.

‘You mean between brothers…’ She raised her left hand, forming a hollow cylinder, and waved it back and forth twice, very animatedly. “Is it like this?”

My face suddenly turned red and I nodded silently.

From the extensive ‘data’ I have read, it is indeed possible. Men are creatures who only care about pleasure, etc…’ She reacted, covering her mouth as if she had learned something incredibly secret, “Little Ai, where did you get that foreigner, you’re not going out with Pei Huanchen?”

‘Cough cough cough cough!!’ I choked and almost coughed up my lungs, ‘No, it’s not him!