TCOR CH53

Chapter 53：This is Schizophrenia

Life is always about acquiring new knowledge through continuous experience and realizing new experiences within that knowledge.

The first time I learned about “death” was when I was four or five years old, and it was dictated to me by my parents. They told me that one day they would go before me and I would never see them again, and that this was “death”. That day I cried my eyes out and had a premonition of death.

It was when I was twelve years old that I realized the cruelty of death. It was also the year I learned to hate.

I hated the typhoon, I hated my parents who left me in this world, and I hated my sister-in-law who wronged me. ……. But these hatreds are fleeting, almost like a head that I ruthlessly snuff out.

Once indulged in the emotion of hatred, in addition to making themselves look more miserable, no benefit.

Ninety percent of the people walking in the world are not easy, each with their own suffering, at least I am healthy, at least I have met many good people. When I feel sad, I often console myself in this way.

As long as you are alive, there is hope, and there is nothing more important than life and death. So no matter how desperate I am, I can always cry, sleep, and slowly recover.

But now I hate Shen Wunian.

This hatred is so fierce and solid that I can’t put it down, nor can I ignore it.

“Shen Wunian, I am also a human being, can you treat me like a human being? I am not your toy, let alone your pet ……”

I stopped turning around, stopped staying, why in the world does this person still want to disturb my heart and do such hateful things?

Tears blurred my vision, my knees couldn’t hold the strength to fall down softly, this time Shen Wunian didn’t bind me anymore, he released his hands and let me and the knife slide down to the ground.

“Don’t cry. I didn’t treat you like a toy or a pet. Wasn’t it you who said you hated me? If you hate me, why don’t you kill me?” He covered the wound and crouched down, the color of his lips turned pale due to pain or blood loss, but his face still had a look of not caring, “If I hate someone, I definitely want to kill them. Saying this, he used his other hand to wipe away the tears on my chin.

In just two days, he had two new wounds on his body, and he looked more like the man who had been kidnapped and held captive than I did.

“Because you’re just crazy!” I slapped his hand away, unable to bear it, and scolded him, “Who in their right mind would move and scream at the top of their lungs?”

He blinked softly, his eyelashes fluttering in shock, and for a moment he seemed a little frozen.

Once I’d hugged him and told him he would never become a madman like his father. And now I was deliberately stabbing him with the thing that mattered most to him, taking pleasure in his blinking vulnerability. I’m not normal anymore either.

“Oh …… right, I might have gone mad a long time ago.” Blood spilled from his fingers as he smiled almost miserably and staggered to his feet, “Since you can’t kill me, you’ll just have to stay trapped with me.”

Blood dripped onto the floor as he slowly left the bedroom, taking the door with him as he went.

I sat on my knees in front of the door, looked at the bloodstained knife on the floor for a moment, picked it up and threw it away as if to vent my anger.

For the next three days, Shen Wunian and I had no communication and fell into a strange cold war.

Three times a day, he would put a plate of food in front of the door on time, I would finish eating, and then put the plate back as it was, otherwise I would stay in the house to put together a puzzle, not going out and not escaping.

At night he would come and give me nutritional injections while I slept. Sometimes I was awake, but I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep, not wanting to talk to him.

Shen Wunian bought five thousand pieces of jigsaw puzzles, to pass the time is very able to pass the time, is a bit expensive eyes. I put together to the third day, put together dizziness, feel myself astigmatism to spell out.

By the fourth day, Shen Wunian pulled out the retention needle, ended the night hanging water, to this point, we do not even see the face. However, I should not be able to see him, he can still see me through the monitor.

On the sixth day, I was lying on my back on the carpet at night, putting together a jigsaw puzzle, and I had not yet completed the last corner, when suddenly a loud clap of thunder sounded outside, frightening me so much that my scalp exploded.

I immediately got up from the floor and ran to the window to look out. Lightning rolled through the clouds, lighting up the dark night sky, and gusty winds swept through the treetops, signaling the coming storm.

Never a fan of this kind of weather, I pulled the curtains tight, intending to return to my puzzle. As soon as I turned around, darkness unexpectedly fell around me.

After a few moments of staring, I realized that the power was probably out.

My heart raced, my breath caught in my throat, and I wanted to run back to the bed, but I couldn’t move my legs at all. All I could do was crouch down and hold on tight.

It’s okay, I got out …… It’s okay ……

I suddenly felt a kind of unprecedented fear, fear that I had not been rescued at all, that I was actually still in that smelly container, and that all these things in these few days were just a dream I had.

Thinking like this, the end of the nose seems to really be able to smell the heavy stench of a corpse. Liang Weiren’s appearance before his death kept reappearing in front of my eyes, and I was plunged into pure darkness, becoming more and more frightened and terrified.

Just when I was about to give up and cry out for help, the door to the room was gently pushed open.

A blinding light shot straight in, followed by Shen Wunian’s voice from behind the light: “The voltage here isn’t very stable, there are frequent blackouts, are you all right?”

I looked up at him, trying to make my voice sound less useless, “…… I’m fine, don’t worry about it.”

Shen Wunian was silent for a few seconds, then he took big steps towards me and picked me up directly from the floor.

He did not carry me to the bed, but held me close to sit on the side of the sofa. He sat on the sofa and I sat on his legs.

This was too ambiguous for the two people looking at each other.

“You put me down ……” The words were not finished and were interrupted by a shocking thunder outside the window.

That rumbling thunder sound seems to be close to the ears, giving a person a kind of illusion that the next moment will be split to the head.

I all of a sudden the whole person to Shen Wunian body snuggle over, what ambiguous not ambiguous, are thrown to the back of the head.

“When will …… this electricity be repaired?” I asked with a trembling voice.

“Generally one or two hours can call.” Shen Wunian let me sit sideways on his lap, his arms wrapped around the back of my shoulders, wrapping me completely in his arms, “If you’re afraid, there are still a few candles stored in the basement, I can light them all for you, so the room should be a little brighter.”

“It’s easy to catch fire.” That was too much of a lack of fire safety sense.

“Then it would be nice if we both burned.”

It was like the broken window effect, where one excessive thing was contrasted with another even more excessive thing, and the former wouldn’t stand out. Shen Wunian’s words startled me so much that I suddenly froze, and even the darkness around me seemed less frightening.

He wasn’t really crazy, was he?

I hastily digressed, “Is this the house …… you bought? This is not Jiang City, is it?”

Jiang City is not a big blackout, at least in the two years I went to school there, I did not encounter it even once.

He patted my back gently, and the light of the flashlight followed, “No, on the outskirts of Jiang City. I’ve been buying it for a few years now, I wanted to tie you up here if it was discovered halfway through, or if you didn’t fall in love with me, and have you supply me with bodily fluids for the rest of your life.”

Beast.

I secretly cursed in my heart, once again digressing from this dangerous topic, “I …… I haven’t worn anything underneath for the past few days, I feel very uncomfortable, can …… you prepare some normal clothes for me? “

“Normal point?”

“At least don’t move to show half of your ass, right?”

He laughed softly, “Good.”

The torrential rain poured down with thunder and lightning, hitting the windows and creating a natural white noise that blocked out the light and, briefly, the love and hate. The light from the flashlight didn’t last long, only half an hour before it was so dark that it was almost impossible to see, but this time, with Shen Wunian there, I was no longer afraid of Liang Weiren’s appearance.

“The nutrient injection seems to be useful after all.” In his drowsiness, Shen Wunian pinched my arm and then pinched my waist on the side, “When you were first rescued, you were so skinny that you only had a handful of bones left, and you’ve grown back quite a bit these days.”

“Don’t touch me indiscriminately.”

I dodged his hand and accidentally elbowed him, and he stifled a grunt that sounded quite painful.

I staggered, realizing that I had hit his wound, and tried to get off him again, being completely immobilized for a moment as he pulled his arm around his chest to hold his form in place.

“I’m not touching you anymore, let me hold you a little longer.”

The light from the flashlight was completely extinguished and fell to the carpet with a thud. Now just let me move, I dare not move.

“I have been annoyed with all the voices in my ears for the last few days. But when I hugged you, all those voices disappeared.” Shen Wunian said, tightening his hug, “It seems less annoying.

It’s over, it’s schizophrenia.

I didn’t dare to ask him what those voices were saying, I always felt it wasn’t good.

Honestly down, I quietly let him hold, when to fall asleep do not know, the next day when I woke up already lying in bed, outside the blue sky, like last night’s rainstorm washed all the dirt in the sky.

Shen Wunian really prepared new clothes for me, is a few men’s robe, plaid pattern, the middle has a row of buttons, can be buttoned from head to toe, but still no underwear.

No matter, it was better than showing my ass, it was much safer.

After a few days of being bored out of my mind in my room, and now that the puzzle was finished, I had nothing better to do than to explore the interior of the villa again.

This time, it was the only remaining second floor that hadn’t been explored yet.

On the second floor, besides my bedroom, there were two other doors, and I guessed that one of them must be the room where Shen Wunian lived, because there were several nights when I could hear the sound of the door opening and closing next door.

What was the other room?

Holding the doorknob, I had even expected it to be a torture room with red lights or some kind of gruesome murder weapon display room, but when I pushed the door open, what was inside still shocked me to the point that I lost my breath.

The not-so-large room looked a bit dim with the curtains drawn, there were boxes of information piled on the floor, and the mosaic wall of investigations that often appeared in TV dramas was also present here, except that the subject of the investigation was me.

The intricate red lines on the entire wall curved around, eventually converging on a photograph in the center. It was a photo of me in high school, in my school uniform, turning without thinking as I crossed the street, just in time to be caught red-handed, and I didn’t even know anyone was following me.

Underneath the photo, taped to it, were a number of yellow sticky notes, one on top of the other, some with proper handwriting, some with scribbles, but all from the same person.

“Great, my cure is a minor, I’d rather die,” “This is the person who causes me so much pain,” “Why am I the only one in pain?” ……

“Stupid”, “Stupid with no vision”, “Eats everything”, “Like a stray cat”, “Little poor thing” ……

“too skinny”, “butt meat is quite a lot”, “crybaby”, “good boy”, “I can’t hold on, but I can’t die yet” ……