UPLB Ch 18

He would probably get angry if I asked him how much he spent. Yang Juwon hesitated as he moved the salad to his side plate.

It was obvious that Choi Sungbin would get annoyed even if he did not eat it.

As he was eating hesitantly, women around his age entered the terrace. They were well-dressed and had a glamorous style. They glanced at the menu, then whispered among themselves while sneaking peeks at his table.

They were probably looking at Choi Sungbin. I was a person who did not belong here. Just as he said, I was ugly, and my way of dressing was tacky.

“…….”

Choi Sungbin, who had been staring at me with his chin propped on his hand, leaned his upper body forward. A fierce voice returned.

“Hey. Yang Juwon.”

Yang Juwon met his eyes instead of answering.

“Stop rolling your eyes so much. Don’t look at other people.”

I wonder what upset him. Was he annoyed that I was being so cautious? But I couldn’t help but be like this whenever I was with Choi Sungbin.

Many people looked at Choi Sungbin, and I used to be one of them. He stood out wherever he went. It was natural for one’s gaze to be drawn to something that sparkles.

But what worried me more than their gazes was Choi Sungbin. He was a man who could hit it off with someone else at any moment and act like he used to. For now, he was by my side for some reason, but…….

Instead of a sigh, I let my shoulders slump. Tap, the tip of the man’s foot touched the sole of my shoe and then moved away.

“Sunbae.”

“Yes.”

“You have your work-study starting next week, right?”

“Yeah.”

“And you have to go to your part-time job on the weekends.”

What was he trying to say now.

“Should we go somewhere for a short trip? Cebu is only four or five hours away. If we go home and make a reservation today, we could go tomorrow and rest for about two days. Or we could look for a flight tonight or early tomorrow morning.”

Cough, I choked, even though I had not eaten anything properly. To think that a short trip meant overseas and not domestic. As I coughed several times, the surrounding gazes focused on me.

Phew, Choi Sungbin clicked his tongue and pointed to the cup in front of me. Only then did Yang Juwon grab the water and drink it.

I shook my head from side to side. It was a refusal. After barely catching my breath, I raised my gaze, and a displeased expression greeted me.

“We can just go for a short trip, why do you have to say no.”

“Why would we go?”

“Pardon me?”

“Huh?”

“What is this…….”

I did not want Choi Sungbin to get angry, but I had to hear the answer now. I had no idea why he was suddenly acting this way, so from my perspective, I did not know what to do. And first of all, the money…….

“Don’t you dare mention money.”

Yang Juwon closed his lips that had been about to part.

“I don’t understand why you’re suddenly buying me clothes, and food… eating at a place like this, and why you’re suggesting we go on a trip.”

“Can’t we go since we’re dating?”

“…….”

“Don’t worry about the money. Unlike you, sunbae, I have nowhere to spend it.”

Choi Sungbin pulled out a napkin and handed it to me. Ah, Yang Juwon took the napkin and wiped his mouth. There was salad dressing on it. It was pathetic. I was making one mistake after another.

I crumpled the napkin in my hand.

“But I really can’t go.”

“Why.”

“I don’t have a passport.”

“…….”

In the moment our eyes met, many thoughts seemed to flash through his. It seemed as though they had lost a bit of their light.

Is it strange not to have a passport? I had been on a domestic trip in my previous relationship, but I had never even considered traveling abroad.

I heard it takes some time for a passport to be issued. It was a little embarrassing to admit at this age that I did not have a passport.

“Didn’t you go on a school trip in high school?”

“I did. To Jeju Island.”

“Ah, …is that so.”

Choi Sungbin eventually fell silent and focused on his meal. Since there was no more conversation, Yang Juwon also forced the food down. I shouldn’t have mentioned the passport.

I could have just said that going so suddenly was too much. I almost let out a sigh, but I barely managed to hold it in by biting my lips.

Strangely, only embarrassing and shameful things seemed to happen in front of Choi Sungbin.

After finishing the meal, contrary to my expectation that we would go home, Choi Sungbin drove the car in a different direction. It was the first time I had been to so many places with him like this. Rather than being exciting and fun, the pressure was immense.

What is he trying to do this time? He told me not to worry about it, but as someone of the same gender, and older at that, it was both burdensome and apologetic to receive things from him without spending a single penny. It was a situation where there was no need for that.

Choi Sungbin looked to be in a good mood. He hummed along to the flowing music and tapped the steering wheel with both index fingers. Yang Juwon watched him blankly for a while before finally opening his mouth.

“Where are we going?”

“Let’s sleep out for the first time in a while. We can order some delicious food. And drink as much alcohol as you like, sunbae.”

“Where?”

“A hotel.”

Are we going to a hotel again? I thought he had cleared everything out, but was that not the case?

The hotel where he used to live flashed through my mind. It was truly a place just for sleeping together. Yang Juwon clamped his mouth shut.

I do not know how many women Choi Sungbin spent time with there. In that place where they must have pretended to be lovers, as if they couldn’t live without each other, I was the only outsider. I was buried between his legs, with the blanket pulled over me. Naturally, it was not a good memory.

Compared to that, this was a step up. I do not even know how things ended up like this. I just endured, and this day came.

Back then, I never expected a day like this would come. I did not wish for something like this, nor could I have wished for it. It was simply because I wanted it. I wanted to be by Choi Sungbin’s side, using the nonsensical excuse of revenge.

You knew it was all an excuse from the beginning. It was just a rationalization.

If things had gone slightly wrong, I might have become like Yeongran. The reason I did not was because I did not even have any expectations.

“Why that expression?”

Choi Sungbin asked when the car stopped at a signal. Yang Juwon shook his head. The man reached out his hand. He rubbed my cheek with the back of his hand and spoke in a rather affectionate voice.

“We’re going to a different place than the one we usually go to. Don’t you want to go?”

“…….”

“Or is it not fun?”

“What is?”

“The date.”

“Date?”

“Yes. Everyone usually likes this. Eating delicious food, buying clothes, and looking around a department store. Are you still uncomfortable, sunbae? If so, we can just go home.”

Yang Juwon clenched his fists. Unlike Choi Sungbin’s delicate hands, my hands were so rough.

In truth, it was not like I had grown up going through great hardships. I had worked part-time at a factory for about a year before returning to school, but other than that, I had lived a smooth life. The part-time job at a convenience store near my university studio was decent enough, and the on-campus work-study I was starting next week just involved running errands.

Considering he mentioned my part-time job during the meal, was he deliberately being considerate?

There was a day I had asked him for a date. It was the day I first experienced Choi Sungbin’s spending habits. We ate a meal that cost over one hundred thousand won per person, went to a hotel, and did what we always did. I had to bury my head between his legs and pour all my energy into getting him off.

But today was not like that. Like other couples, we ate, picked out clothes, and talked… It did seem like a date.

“No, I want to go.”

“Should we go to your house, sunbae? It won’t take long to turn the car around.”

“…….”

Choi Sungbin gave me a choice. He was asking even though he probably knew everything. His finely curled eyes held a particular amount of playfulness today.

He had always shown this attitude. Even when there was something he wanted, he would turn the answer over to the other person.

You want it too. It wasn’t forced, you wanted it, so why are you acting like this?

Later, he could say this. That he hated getting his own hands dirty.

Whatever his intention, it was the first time he was showing this side to me. Because he had always acted as he pleased, as if nothing mattered. He would act according to his mood, and if even that soured, he would say let’s break up.

Even though music was playing, it strangely felt like a silence was flowing. Choi Sungbin, who was leaning his arm on the console box, wiggled his palm. Yesterday, he had asked to hold hands, but I had refused because the night road was rough.

Why is he being like this? I thought the usual Choi Sungbin would be better. Now, I understand even less.

Yang Juwon puffed up his cheeks greatly, then swallowed a sigh. He stared down at the beckoning palm for a moment, then carefully placed his hand on top of it. Choi Sungbin rubbed the back of my hand with his thumb and tickled my palm with his other fingers.

I wanted to pull my hand away, but I could not. The touch, caressing as if in foreplay, was familiar. I belatedly examined his expression. He, whose eyes had met mine for a moment, shifted his gaze to the opposite lane.

“There’s a lot of traffic.”

He muttered to himself. Yang Juwon rolled his lips in and then released them.

“You don’t have to go that way.”

“Why?”

“The hotel. I want… to go to the hotel. You don’t have to turn back.”

I muttered in a voice that was barely audible.

The man’s gaze turned to me again. He repeatedly caressed from the inside of my palm outward. It was so ticklish I couldn’t stand it. I stared at the ticklish hand, then only lifted my gaze.

“Why do you say you want to go to the hotel so shyly?”

“It’s not that.”

“We could just be going there to rest.”

He was deliberately teasing me. As if we ever just went to a hotel to rest.

The man’s eyes curved like a half-moon.

“You really are a pervert.”

I wanted to make an excuse, but since what I said was indeed with that intention, I ended up dropping my head. A heavy force was applied to my hand and then moved away. Even though it was a brief touch of warmth, I felt a sense of longing.

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It was not that hotel from before. It was a hotel I was visiting for the first time, but Choi Sungbin seemed familiar even with this one. As soon as he arrived, he sat on the sofa and adjusted the air conditioner, and after that, he flipped through the room service menu before tossing it onto the table.

“You’re not hungry, are you, sunbae.”

“No.”

“Should I order some wine to drink? Or we could go to the lounge.”

“Have you been here a lot?”

I could feel the man’s gentle gaze. I had said something foolish again. It was just as I expected.

“You’re really good at ruining the mood, sunbae.”

“…….”

“What are you going to do if I’ve been here a lot. Do you want me to tell you everything in detail? Who I came here with, and what I did?”

Let’s stop, Choi Sungbin ended the conversation as if he couldn’t even be bothered to argue.

“Come next to me.”

I had asked a stupid question. Just as Choi Sungbin said, I had ruined the mood.

Yang Juwon hesitated for a moment before sitting next to him. Outside the window, the cityscape, which could be viewed from a step away, was visible.

When I was in the middle of the city, I too had lived a busy life without a moment to breathe, but looking at it from a distance, there were only tall buildings standing, and not a single one of the worker ants inside them could be seen. The sense of urgency I had felt somehow seemed to subside.

So you can buy things like this with money. Today, with Choi Sungbin, I did all the things I would never be able to do in my lifetime, things I would never even dare to do.

“Sunbae, do you know much about wine? I don’t really know much about alcohol.”

Yang Juwon shook his head. He had tried wine before, but it was not to his taste. Even then, it was Yeongran who had brought a very sweet wine, saying it was for Christmas.

With the already sweet cake, the wine became cloying after a few sips. But I couldn’t possibly tell Choi Sungbin this story.

“Then should I just ask for two bottles of the recommended wine? You’re an alcoholic, sunbae.”

“It’s not like I’m an addict.”

“You drink so much alcohol, but you don’t like being called an alcoholic? Since you said you don’t know much, would sweet be better?”

“Sweet is a bit…”

Choi Sungbin, who was reaching for the room phone, paused. Instead of asking if I had a preference of all things, he just gave me a look. Yang Juwon smiled awkwardly.

“I don’t usually like sweet things.”

“You do seem that way. Are two bottles enough? Should I ask for three?”

“No. I think even two bottles will be too much…….”

“Liar.”

Choi Sungbin laughed again. He’s laughing a lot today. I felt embarrassed for some reason.

I ordered a cheese platter with the wine, but the cheese did not suit my palate. The flavor was strong. I thought to myself that only people who have eaten this kind of thing before should eat it; the square cheese in my parents’ refrigerator was perfect for my taste.

The wine was delicious. It had a lingering bitterness. It went down smoothly without any resistance. It seemed this was more my taste than the sweet kind.

I sipped and drank continuously. Choi Sungbin poured himself just one glass, barely enough to cover the bottom, and did not drink a single sip. At first, he watched me drink as if it were amusing, but at some point, his mood soured and he eventually took the glass away.

“Stop drinking.”

“Why?”

“It’s no fun. It’s not like I came here with a drunkard. Why are you drinking wine like it’s water?”

Choi Sungbin took his first sip of alcohol since the wine arrived. Then, yuck, he immediately scrunched his face and clicked his tongue.

“Why would anyone drink this. Are you drinking it because it’s delicious?”

“It is delicious, why.”

“I don’t understand people who drink.”

“…….”

“But still, should I drink with you sometime?”

Yang Juwon shook his head. He smiled at the man who was frowning ostentatiously. He must be in a bad mood because he did not get the answer he wanted.

“Why are you refusing?”

“You can’t handle your alcohol well.”

At those words, Choi Sungbin’s brow furrowed. He soon launched into a long speech. He did not know why people drank something that was not even good for their bodies, and it was pathetic to see people lose control because they couldn’t restrain themselves.

I was not sure who was saying this to whom, but I knew Choi Sungbin did not drink of his own will, so I let it be.

“But well, doesn’t that not matter for me?”

“Why?”

“You can take care of me, sunbae. Just don’t fuck me like last time.”

Haha, Choi Sungbin laughed out loud again.

I was handed the glass back. Yang Juwon took a sip and put it down. Choi Sungbin, who was lounging on the sofa, grabbed Yang Juwon’s arm with the hand he had on the backrest, then slowly released it.

“Sunbae.”

“Yes.”

“Are you happy that I’m being nice to you today?”

So he is aware of it himself. Laughing a lot, getting angry less. This alone was enough.

Yang Juwon lowered his gaze and nodded his head.

“I can be even nicer in the future. If you don’t annoy me, sunbae.”

“I think I’m doing well.”

“I don’t really like it. It’s annoying.”

“What should I do then?”

“Read the room, read the room.”

“That’s difficult.”

It might have been less difficult if he had completely disliked me. Maybe I would have even left him.

Choi Sungbin would not know the fact that the added false hope was harder.

Choi Sungbin lifted my chin with the back of his fingers. He said my eyes were pointy and ugly, and my lips were small and made me look depressed. Yet he kept smirking.

“Should I get plastic surgery?”

“Pardon me?”

Choi Sungbin, who had been pointing out my flaws one by one, widened his eyes. Did Yeongran feel this way too? Did she fix her appearance after breaking up with Choi Sungbin because he belittled her looks?

He probably would not have told Yeongran she was ugly. He was not the type to be rude to women. If anything, he would compliment someone with low self-esteem about their appearance.

“You said I was ugly.”

“Why would you get plastic surgery. It’s you who is ugly, sunbae.”

“Since I’m ugly, I heard there’s something you can do to your eyes.”

“Forget it. I think you’ll look even uglier then.”

“…….”

“Don’t get plastic surgery. Don’t even think about such things. Got it?”

“I got it—.”

I was not drunk, but the end of my words slurred. Choi Sungbin watched me silently for a moment, then filled my glass with wine.

“I’ll be in bed, so come after you finish all of this.”

Yang Juwon, who was watching the back of the man who got up first, took the glass and gulped it down. He stood up and followed him inside.

I know what we will do next. I had figured it out from the moment he suggested going to the hotel. It was actually stranger that we had talked on the sofa until nightfall.

Choi Sungbin was sitting on the bed, waiting for me.

“Are you going to kiss me?”

Yang Juwon approached instead of answering. Phew, after taking a breath to calm himself, he kissed him without hesitation. Though I was not drunk, my body felt heavy as if I were.

I climbed on top of Choi Sungbin, who had fallen back, and sucked on his lips. I was the one leading, but I was so clumsy. I kissed him so hard that our teeth bumped.

Ah, when I accidentally bit his lip, Choi Sungbin turned his head. Yang Juwon let out a hot breath and leaned his forehead against his shoulder.

“Now that the stage is set, you’re being quite aggressive.”

“…….”

“You kiss so passionately, sunbae, but what’s the point if only I know about it. You haven’t been able to do it with anyone else.”

What did he mean by I had not been able to do it with anyone else. Was he thinking that this was my first kiss? No matter what, considering my age…….

Should I deny it or not. While I was contemplating, Choi Sungbin, who was lying disheveled on the bed, grabbed my cheek and lifted it. Recently, Choi Sungbin had been constantly bringing his hand to my cheek. Either way, it seemed like it would become a habit.

“Sunbae, but I think I’m a little drunk. Can you get drunk from a kiss?”

The hand that started at my cheek and delved into the nape of my neck slowly pulled me towards him. I do not know. I did not want to think about it right now.

Was there a need to bring up a first kiss when the mood was so good. Pulled by his strength, I pressed my lips against his again. The hand that traveled up my neckline grabbed my hair. I entrusted my body to the hand that delved between my hair and messed it up.

It was an undeniable fact that Choi Sungbin had a lot of experience. His skinship and his attitude towards women were always skilled. To say it was because I was a man, we had gone through various processes.

Today, he was not like the usual Choi Sungbin. Unlike usual, our bodies were stuck excessively close together. It was only yesterday that we kissed sober, but now he was burying his lips in my neck. The act was awkward, and I stiffened.

Eup, because I clamped my lips shut, I exhaled a short breath through my nose.

The hand that slipped under my shirt touched the protruding nipple with its fingertips.

The breath moistening my neck was hot. He stuck out his tongue and licked upwards, then bit the flesh without causing pain. His hand grabbed my torso. Yang Juwon groaned in awkwardness and twisted his shoulders. His shirt was naturally pulled up.

“…….”

In order to take off the clothes, we had no choice but to move apart for a moment. Choi Sungbin, who had been rubbing his lips deep into my neck, sat up. Yang Juwon lifted his back and finally took off his shirt. He placed his awkward hands neatly on the bedsheet.

I understand why Choi Sungbin was frustrated. I was not being proactive. Maybe I would get an earful this time too.

While I was clenching and unclenching my fists, not knowing what to do, Choi Sungbin grabbed my wrist and made me wrap it around his waist to hold him.

“Don’t people usually hug?”

Unlike his chiding words, he was smiling. I wanted to ask why he kept smiling, but there was no time for that. Yang Juwon, with a more awkward gesture than Choi Sungbin had used, slowly moved down from his latissimus dorsi to his lower back. When I grabbed the hem of his shirt and lifted it, Choi Sungbin looked at me with a dumbfounded expression.

“Why are you taking it off so awkwardly. It’s not like you’re trying to show off how clumsy you are.”

He came closer and brushed his nose against mine. He moved it gently from side to side, tickling the tip of my nose. It was the kind of skinship that only lovers, very close lovers, would do, so I inadvertently pulled my head back.

He must have done this with other people too. It’s awkward.

Forcibly suppressing my emotions, I placed my palm on the man’s back. When I turned my head back to its original position, our lips met. He carefully placed his upper lip on mine and then slowly sucked on it.

Choi Sungbin sucked on my lips as if he were caressing them. It was not just a passing process; just the rubbing of our lips seemed to release the tension in my body.

Still, I must be doing it because I do not dislike it. I, too, mustered up my courage. I slowly pulled up the hem of his shirt.

Choi Sungbin continued to kiss while taking off his shirt. Even in the process of briefly separating to pull his face away, he pressed his lips against my cheek, finally throwing off his clothes and kissing me again. Suck, ssuuck, the sucking sounds were lewd.

His fingertips touched my nipple. He repeatedly rubbed the nipple that was hard with excitement, then twisted it slightly as if to push it in. I heaved my chest and let out a short breath.

“Heut…….”

Choi Sungbin tilted his head. As if the gentle caress from a moment ago had never happened, he pushed his tongue deep between my parted lips. The tongue that delved in so deeply it was suffocating stirred every corner of my mouth. Saliva trickled down from the parted gap.

I wrapped my arms around his waist and gripped his back tightly. I pressed our bodies closer. My mind was in a whirl.

Our tongues tangled messily, and the wet sounds were ceaselessly sticky. It was hard to breathe. I had never kissed like this before.

Heat rose all over my body. It was not just the act of rubbing lips and tongues; it was so suffocating that my head was spinning. My erect member below felt burdensome.

Every time I tossed and turned, the man pressed closer. I was not the only one who was excited.

It was so hard to breathe that I unknowingly whipped my head to the other side. Haah, ha, I gasped for breath loudly. Choi Sungbin tidied his mouth.

“Why do you kiss so messily.”

“You were the one…….”

*You were the one who did it, why are you blaming me……. *

“Are you blaming me?”

“It’s not that.”

Choi Sungbin took out his thumb and gently wiped away the saliva on my mouth. The gesture of touching around my mouth was awkward, but I remained still.

Soon, a finger pushed into my mouth. It pressed down on my tongue with force and then pulled out. I did not know what he was doing this time, so Yang Juwon just stared at him, unable to swallow his saliva.

“…….”

The mischievous playfulness that had been on his face had vanished. The man, whose expression had suddenly hardened, spoke in a low, sunken voice.

“Try swallowing your saliva.”

Yang Juwon swallowed his saliva with his mouth slightly open. Choi Sungbin stared blankly at the Adam’s apple that bobbed as it went down.

Saliva pooled under my tongue again. The finger that came out of my mouth touched my nipple. There was a faint pain from being touched throughout the kiss. I frowned.

“Does it hurt?”

“Yes.”

“Should I suck it for you?”

At the out-of-the-blue words, Yang Juwon bit his lip. This is not like Choi Sungbin. He had been like this since yesterday.

“Tell me to suck it with your words.”

Why does he keep telling me to say it in words.

The man who had come closer savored my mumbling lips once more and then moved away. Yang Juwon swallowed dryly. His voice, wet with excitement, was lower than usual.

“……Suck it for me.”

“Okay.”

Choi Sungbin lowered his head. He came down, rubbing his lips on my chest. He traced the round shape of my nipple with his tongue and then covered it with his lips.

He sucked hard while gently rolling the other one between his fingers. Yang Juwon unknowingly pressed his thighs together and let out a short breath. The wet inside of his mouth sucked on the nipple.

His lips quivered as he rolled his tongue up and down. Hot breath spread around the nipple.

“Heut, eu, ah…….”

Choi Sungbin was persistent. He caressed me ceaselessly even while rolling around naked on the bed. It was different from what we had done before. He rubbed my lips, grabbed my forearms or tickled my torso, and sometimes even delved into my armpits. When I thought that was too much and twisted my shoulders, Choi Sungbin would bite the place where he had been rubbing his lips.

The area around my genitals was a mess. Even without being touched, the long strands of precum were soaking my thighs. Yang Juwon reached his hand between his legs. He could feel the man’s penis on the back of his hand.

The heavy penis was rubbed against the back of my hand. I tried to grab my own, but I turned my palm over and carefully gripped his instead. Choi Sungbin, who was sucking my ear while rubbing my nipple, lifted his head at an angle.

“Are you going to touch it for me?”

“Ah, wait a minute…….”

He soon lifted his upper body. The man filled the space between my naturally parted legs. Yang Juwon placed both his legs on the thighs of the man who was kneeling.

The tip of the menacingly erect penis was wet and shiny. Choi Sungbin wiped his mouth with his hand and licked it. With his wet hand, he grabbed Yang Juwon’s penis.

“Ah…….”

Yang Juwon let out a short breath. When his already heated penis was grabbed by the hot hand, a feeling of wanting to ejaculate washed over him. I wanted to hold it in, so I squeezed my eyes shut, but I had no choice but to be helpless against the hand that was gripping the shaft and gently caressing it.

“Heut……, euk, waiit, a moment.”

I gasped for breath loudly. My butt tensed up, and my lower body heaved.

I can’t, I can’t…….

Did I say it out loud or just think it. My mind went blank, and I just shook my head quickly. My toes curled inward on their own.

Squish, squish, the sound echoed repeatedly. A force was concentrated on the soles of my feet as if they were about to cramp. The hand shaking my penis became even faster.

“Ah, ah, ah, heuuut…….”

The hand that was scratching the bedsheet clenched into a tight fist. With the surge of the urge to ejaculate, I ended up spewing semen onto the man’s hand not long after. Yang Juwon looked at him with a pale face.

I should have told him to take his hand off…….

Choi Sungbin, who was gently touching the hand stained with semen, muttered a low soliloquy.

“At this rate, I’ll end up sucking your dick.”

“Ugh…….”

Even though it had been inserted many times, it was a size I still could not get used to. If I had at least had the dildo I used before, I would have used it to at least get minimally accustomed, but since it had been thrown away long ago, I could not use it. Since Choi Sungbin had thrown it away, he would say something bad if I bought another one.

With nothing to grab, I held onto the corner of the pillow. I buried my face in the pillow and could only let out pained breaths. I lifted only my butt while lying on my stomach.

The penis that filled me completely pulled back and then slammed in. Euk, euuk, a suppressed sound burst out every time he thrust. Puk, Yang Juwon tensed his lower jaw.

“Relax a little, haah, try it.”

Relaxing was not an easy thing to do. I spread my legs a little wider, but that was it. Choi Sungbin cupped his hand, brought it to my buttock, and slowly spread it outward. He was deliberately tickling me.

Ha, I let out a short moan and heaved my butt. The tickling hand gripped my buttock tightly.

“Can’t you wait because you want to shake it?”

“Please…….”

“I’ll let you get on top next time.”

“Ah, aaht, euk.”

“Hold it in. Until then.”

Every time he pushed and pulled, my body heaved greatly, unable to withstand the force. With the force of him pounding in, I just rolled my eyes up and poured out moans.

“Euk, eok……, heueuk…….”

My head felt like it was going to explode from the penis pressing down deep inside me. Choi Sungbin touched the sweat that had formed on my spine with his hand. His upper body leaned forward.

The hand that came up grabbed my hair and turned my head. Yang Juwon showed his messy face to him, then shook his head and buried his face in the pillow again.

Puuuk. The man who pressed down once more asked.

“Why are you avoiding me?”

“Ah……, heueuk, ah.”

It was hard to answer his question. He did not give me a chance to answer and pushed me. My rear felt like it was going to melt from the penis moving in and out quickly.

It was a place I had never expected anything to enter until I met Choi Sungbin. But after a few insertions, it even reached a state of excitement. With the head of the penis pressing and spreading open every corner of the inner wall, Yang Juwon could only barely breathe.

Choi Sungbin lowered his body. He supported his chest with both arms and turned me over without hesitation.

I could see the white ceiling. The night had already darkened, but the city was bright as always. There was not even a need to get used to the darkness. Yang Juwon closed his eyes.

I accepted the man with my legs spread wide. Puk, puk, when the charging force dug deep and pressed down on a certain spot, my thighs would automatically curl inward. Though they were grabbed again and spread wide.

“Yang Juwon.”

“Eut, ah, ah, aheut, heuk, ha…….”

“Why are you avoiding me.”

“Please, ah, slow, slowly…….”

“I don’t want to. I’m annoyed with you, sunbae, so I won’t go slowly.”

You said I was ugly.

I had heard that I was ugly so many times yesterday and today that I could not even count. I had never had low self-esteem due to my appearance in my life. I knew I did not dress stylishly and was not interested in it.

When I was young, I wore whatever my mother bought for me, and even when I grew up, I mostly wore those same clothes or clothes sold at school. I was taller and had a better build than my peers. As for my appearance, I had never heard that I was ugly anywhere.

……I had thought so, but it seemed I did not meet Choi Sungbin’s standards.

That would be right. I know the people Choi Sungbin used to date. They were women who had numerous fans just on social media, and whether they were simple or flashy, they were visually striking. Having dated such people, it was only natural that I would not meet his standards.

That’s why I don’t want to show it.

I think it would have been better when Choi Sungbin just flipped me over and pounded away. Yang Juwon covered his face with both hands. How ugly must my face be right now.

My face must be flushed red and wet with excitement. It was hard to breathe, and I had drooled.

“Let me, see.”

The hands that were holding me were pinned tightly to the sides of my body. A startled Yang Juwon widened his eyes, then bit his lip hard at the deep thrusts of his waist.

“You said… I was ugly……”

“So you don’t want to show your face?”

“Eut, eu, ah……, yes…….”

“That’s not for you to worry about, sunbae. If I tell you to look, you look, and even if I tell you not to look, you look. Even if I tell you to get lost, you should stay by my side.”

Choi Sungbin lowered his body without letting go of my wrists. Ah. Yang Juwon parted his lips. The tongue that rushed in mercilessly again made my already labored breathing even more painful. I unknowingly wrapped my legs around his thighs.

Our tongues tangled stickily. Choi Sungbin parted my lips vertically and rolled his tongue up and down. Then he forcibly pushed his saliva in and sucked my lips hard. It was not an intentional act, but as the kiss deepened, our nipples rubbed against each other wildly.

Yang Juwon heaved his waist greatly at the penis that was thrusting in deeper.

“Heueut, eut, ah, wait a minute.”

Unable to hold it for a moment, I spewed semen once again. If this was sex, I thought it would be scary. I was so intoxicated by sexual desire that I had no choice but to ejaculate several times.

I clenched my fists with the hands that were held by the man. Choi Sungbin had no intention of letting go of my lips. He wedged his tongue into the space between my upper teeth and lip and touched my gums. My philtrum twitched every time his tongue delved in.

The strength that was encircling my wrists slowly faded. Yang Juwon scratched the sheets while Choi Sungbin sucked on his lips. I wanted to grab onto something with my short nails, but there was nothing to grab.

Puk, puk, puk, the speed of his thrusting below gained more force. Choi Sungbin was also panting with the urge to ejaculate, but the kiss continued.

“Ueuk, euk…….”

The penis that I thought was at its limit delved even deeper. I was losing strength and it was hard to endure. My legs trembled from my buttocks down to my toes.

I tried to endure the convulsions, but it was not easy. Choi Sungbin wrapped his arms around Yang Juwon’s back and held his shoulders to fix him in place. Puk, as soon as he pressed down, a gush of semen poured out.

“Ah!”

I eventually let out a short scream. My back arched greatly. As the penis that had delved deep inside came out, semen also poured out with it.

“Heueu, eu, eeuk…….”

Choi Sungbin sat up. Unlike me, who was convulsing, he kissed my ear and rubbed from my chin to my neck with his hand. He massaged my trembling and twisting body all over. Starting from my forearms, he slowly kneaded my body.

Heueup, heueup……, my sharp breathing slowly calmed down.

“Are you really tired?”

The voice that asked was gentle.

Keueung, after catching his breath, Yang Juwon slowly closed his eyes. Every time we did it, it felt like my body was being abused. If this was a climax, it was too overwhelming.

After catching his breath one more time, he barely opened his closed eyes.

Choi Sungbin lay down beside me. He took my arm and made me wrap it around his waist. I was naturally held in his arms.

I rested my head on his arm, but my posture was awkward. It was probably because I was being so stiff. I awkwardly placed my arm on his waist.

Strange…….

It was a different kind of relationship than usual. He had a tendency to push me relentlessly, but knowing the old Choi Sungbin, I knew that he had been considerate of me. Normally, there would not have been any foreplay at all.

Was this one of the things that meant “being nice” from Choi Sungbin’s perspective? Then in the future, are we going to do it… like this? It’s awkward.

“What are you doing. Hurry, hold me tighter.”

Tuk, his palm hit my back. At the moderate impact, Yang Juwon squirmed and snuggled deeper into his embrace. No matter how much I thought about it, it was strange.

I unknowingly frowned in awkwardness. Of course, Choi Sungbin would not be able to see it. I did not want him to see it either. Because I did not want to hear any unnecessary comments.

“Can’t you do it anymore?”

he asked, massaging my forearm and shoulder.

“……I’m tired.”

“Okay. Let’s rest for a bit and then do it. We still have a lot of time.”

In the past, had there ever been a time when he was considerate of me? Even when my lip was burst, he had always done as he pleased regardless of the place.

Yang Juwon lifted his head. Our eyes met. Choi Sungbin’s eyes were strange. They were different from usual.

My heart was pounding. There was no way he would look at me with such eyes.