EDR Ch 42

Side Story 2: There is a Gap Between Exploration and Reality Part 1 

It’s a relaxing weekend morning. I prepare Wonsik’s meal and make a cup of coffee for myself. I can’t see Wonsik, who has been whimpering since earlier. These days, Wonsik keeps going into the crevices of the sofa or under the bed. This time, he put his buttocks under the sofa and looked for something lying on his stomach, but I pulled him out.

“Kim Wonsik. Don’t go into strange places.”

“…”

“Okay, I didn’t know. Hey, don’t you open your eyes? Hey, are you yawning now?”

Wonsik is still young, so he has no morals. When the owner speaks, he barks and makes eye contact, and he yawns every day. With two more weeks left until I go to work at Dongwoo Foods, my only job these days is to feed Kim Wonsik. Wonsik, who only knows how to eat, and the owner, who has nothing to do but feed his dog, are living with nothing to do.

I placed Kim Wonsik in front of his food bowl. In any case, it is right to do what one is good at, whether a person or a dog. However, Wonsik lay down and went to sleep. That’s work negligence.

There is one person sleeping in my room right now. It’s Director Lee. Director Lee has something in common with Wonsik. Both sleep like the dead. Earlier, I put my finger under his nose to see if Director Lee died from overwork.

Director Lee has been suffering from overwork these days. I had a lot of free time, but I couldn’t go on dates because Director Lee was busy. These were the days when I only checked whether Director Lee was alive or not during the phone calls I made intermittently during his breaks.

As our dating time dwindled, we did anything quickly to avoid missing a chance once we met. Kissing and sex. The short time we had was used in a flash. Actually, I wasn’t satisfied. Director Lee was almost like a zombie at every moment. Director Lee, who was about to faint after sex, laid down on the bed, stretched out his arm, and bit my neck. Whether weak or strong, Director Lee always bit me, and I gave up my neck willingly. And Director Lee fell asleep. I was wondering if I was abusing Director Lee.

Meanwhile, Kim Wonsik, who was one month old, kept barking for food, and Director Lee’s phone continued to ring.

As this life repeats itself, we are a little bit frustrated. When I start working, obviously, my dating time will be shorter. I had to play my heart out before that.

And yesterday, one of Director Lee’s projects was finally finished.

Director Lee, who had been on a business trip until yesterday, came to my house right after work. As soon as I got a phone call from Director Lee, saying that he was coming this way, I took a quick shower, cleaned the house, and bustled around. On the bed, condoms purchased directly from overseas for this moment and gel with good product reviews were also placed on top of the bed. It was the heart of a fisherman who set up a fishing ground. Together with Kim Wonsik, I quietly waited for Director Lee. Soon after, Director Lee rushed through the front door as if he was about to arrest a criminal.

As soon as Director Lee came in, he took off his tie and unbuttoned his shirt. I placed Wonsik on the sofa and grabbed Director Lee’s shoulder.

‘Pick up your tie. You left it like that last time, so Director Lee’s tie at my house…’

Okay. Director Lee hugged my waist and quickly kissed me. I did not intend to protest but grabbed Director Lee’s head with my hand. I don’t mean to pester. I learned that the last time we kissed, and if I hold my posture well, I can feel Director Lee’s pulse on my fingertips. It felt strange, so I got into this strange habit. I often check with my hands how excited Lee Si-hyun is.

‘Are you in a rut?’

‘No, not yet.’

Lee Si-hyun rubbed my ass and slipped his hand into my pants. The hand holding my ass was stronger than usual. I stopped Lee Si-hyun, who pushed me to the sofa.

‘Wonsik is behind me.’

Wonsik, the size of Lee Si-hyun’s palm, will die instantly if he gets squashed under my ass. Lee Si-hyun’s eyes flashed and he supported my buttocks with his hands. He used the momentum to lift me up. I stopped Lee Si-hyun.

‘Sofa, sofa.’

‘Let’s go to bed.’

‘Wait, he can’t fall off the sofa.’

I moved away from Lee Si-hyun. Lee Si-hyun wrinkled his expression. I kissed Lee Si-hyun on the cheek, moved Kim Wonsik to the cushion, and hugged Si-hyun again. Lee Si-hyun lifted my chin and kissed my lips. I bit Lee Si-hyun’s lips and let go, then unbuckled his pants. His already swollen penis brushed my hand. I pushed Lee Si-hyun into the room and laid him on the bed.

‘Are you going to sleep?’

‘I don’t know. I’m very sleepy.’

I pulled down Si-hyun’s underwear. The sleepy man’s penis was already twitching. Lee Si-hyun threw his shirt and took my clothes off. It felt like he was going to rip my shirt. He took off my shirt and threw off my pants. Well, tomorrow I’ll wash them.

I climbed on top of Lee Si-hyun, kissed him, and stroked his chest with my hand. It’s been a while since I’ve been able to enjoy it slowly, but neither of us can afford it. Lee Si-hyun bit my neck weakly. When I asked him why he didn’t bite hard, he said that he prefers to bite when knotting. Looking at this person, I had no intention of not knotting these days. I also liked that Lee Si-hyun knotted. I liked the moan that Lee Si-hyun let out when knotting, and the fists he clenched to hide his trembling.

Lee Si-hyun ran his hand on my chest, and I bit Lee Si-hyun’s neck and touched his penis with my butt. Lee Si-hyun put gel on my ass and my penis. While touching Lee Si-hyun’s penis, I loosened my bottom by myself. As the number of times we had sex increased, I got quite used to loosening my bottom.

Lee Si-hyun grabbed his penis and pressed the tip to my ass. His penis slid into me. I slowly lowered my body while hugging Lee Si-hyun. I could feel the sensation of him entering me vividly.

Lee Si-hyun, who had completely buried himself inside me, slowly touched my waist, traced my stomach with his hand, and then moved his waist. Every time Lee Si-hyun slapped his waist against me, a moan broke out. This was really a moan. It felt strange to be in pain. It didn’t feel like I was going to ejaculate right away. I think about it every time we do it—that this is good, but it also feels kind of weird.

‘Ung, heus, heuk, ugh, ah, ahh… ‘

I touched Lee Si-hyun’s stomach. Something slipped out of my ass and then slipped back in. My body trembled without resistance. Lee Si-hyun blinked his eyes slowly. Leaning over, I grabbed Lee Si-hyun’s cheek and kissed him. Lee Si-hyun sucked up my tongue. Every time he moved, my penis touched Lee Si-hyun’s stomach. My very excited penis was sensitive to even the slightest stimuli. I felt something leaking from the end.

Lee Si-hyun quickly rubbed my penis with his hands. My back kept bending inwardly. I was almost lying on Lee Si-hyun’s body.

‘Heuk, uh, uh, u, ah, wait, ah, ah…’

My eyes trembled. I ejaculated into Lee Si-hyun’s hand. There was a long trace of me on his hand. He was so absent-minded that he touched my penis even after ejaculation. I felt weird. It felt like I was going to fly away, and it felt like I was sunk to the ground. Every time he touches my penis, my toes curl up.

‘Hah, hah, haa… Si-hyun hyung.’

‘Joo-hyuk-ah, Kim Joo-hyuk. Neck.’

Lee Si-hyun turned my head to the side. Lee Si-hyun put his mouth on my neck. Lee Si-hyun finally poked his penis deeper into my ass and closed his eyes. Lee Si-hyun gritted his teeth. It was cute, so I kissed him again and tightened my ass. Lee Si-hyun’s knot swelled up.

Lee Si-hyun rubbed my penis while knotting, and I ejaculated a couple more times.

I washed my body after lying on the bed for a while. Lee Si-hyun invited me to join him in the bathroom, but I refused. The bathroom is quite small. While lying on the bed and thinking about Lee Si-hyun, who was regretful, it seemed that he intended to do it again in the bathroom. This time I was regretful.

While Lee Si-hyun was washing up, I was engrossed in one concern.

‘Am I slow at feeling it from behind?’

Slowly reflecting on last night, I sipped my coffee. It’s terribly hot. I turned on my tablet and entered a porn site. I slowly got up and looked around the room. Director Lee is still sleeping soundly.

I went to porn sites and looked for people who orgasm only through penetration. Category selection is important. I have to ejaculate without touching my penis. All keywords were searched. A lot of strange things came up, but I bookmarked the things I was curious about. I’ll watch them when I’m bored.

After looking through the pages for a while, I came across a video I liked. It was a video in which a certain Beta reached its climax with only penetration masturbation. I watched porn with my earphones on reverently.

When Lee Si-hyun moved his penis in and out of me, I definitely felt a strange pleasure. The fact that he touched and rubbed outside of me while his penis did the same inside was itself stimulating. When Lee Si-hyun pulls his waist back, the sensation of brushing inside me is always unfamiliar and sexy. The sensation itself heightened the excitement, but that alone didn’t seem to make me reach my peak. I always ejaculated in Lee Si-hyun’s hands.

No matter how much I think about it, my prostate still seems to be untouched. My goal is to find the prostate in advance when I have a lot of time like these days. I heard it feels really good. It is said that if you stimulate that side, you can ejaculate or orgasm without having to touch the front. I wanted to do it. I think it’ll be no joke if it’s like porn. Are they all acting?

Up to this day, I have continued my research. I also ordered what appears to be a masturbation tool online, but I don’t know how to use it, so I keep it under the bed. Something like that seemed difficult to explain in words. The person who developed this must have majored in contemporary art.

It’s like inserting one of several dildos into the rectum. More than that is difficult to infer. I’ve never seen anything like this in porn. Judging from the battery painted on the cover, it is clear that this is a vibrating instrument. I can’t see the part to put the battery in.

I don’t think I will be using this product in the future. I don’t know Japanese, and the instruction manual came in Japanese. The product name is also written in Japanese, so I can’t search for it. I received some free gifts, but the description of the gift is all in Japanese. I don’t want to study Japanese just to try masturbating. I won’t go that far.

Still, one thing was for sure. I should think twice before buying something. Wonsik just eats up my savings from just his snacks.

Maybe I just don’t need to find the prostate or whatever. I feel good enough now, and I don’t have to look for more. It’s good enough if Lee Si-hyun feels good.

I’ve been browsing porn sites for hours, and a shadow has fallen on my face. Director Lee, whose head was a mess, was looking down at me when I looked up with my earphones on. Director Lee was wearing only underwear and holding Kim Wonsik in one hand and an unidentified adult product in the other.

“I was taking Wonsik out from under the bed, and I found this.”

Director Lee looked at me with an expression that said he had caught something interesting.

I took out my earphones and turned the tablet over. Director Lee handed me the box of adult products that were completely in Japanese.

“What’s this?”

“Uh…”

It’s an adult product. But he’s not asking because he doesn’t know. I’ve been trying to find a reasonable answer. After only feeding Kim Wonsik for a month, my intelligence seems to have dropped by one level. I don’t know what to say.

I carefully accepted the box of adult products. I don’t even know what this is. Somehow, it has a geometric shape, so it looks like a work of modern art. If I joke that it’s art now, he won’t believe it.

Director Lee grabbed the box. He handed Kim Wonsik over to me, then he opened the box and took out the contents. Director Lee skillfully turned the round part that I didn’t know what to say. A battery slot that was not visible when I held it and twisted it came out. After confirming that there was no battery, Director Lee took Wonsik again.

“I guess you’ve never used it.”

Director Lee asked.

“Why did you buy this?”

“I was just curious…”

I was a little dazed. In fact, it’s not wrong for an adult male to use tools for his own sex life. I have freedom. I can masturbate alone when Director Lee isn’t there. I would do it while thinking about Lee Si-hyun anyway, but what can I do? I didn’t know how to use it in the first place, so I didn’t even try it.

“I’m a little sad. Did you buy something like this while I wasn’t here?”

“So what… I can just buy it. It may or may not be useful…”

There was silence between us. Director Lee looked around at the adult products and was startled and looked back at me.

“Have you been unsatisfied these days?”

“No, it’s not like that…” 

“Oh, we haven’t seen each other a lot lately. Then you have to say it. I told you I’d come any time.”

“No, how can I call someone who is dead tired and to… sleep…” 

“When did you buy it?”

Kim Wonsik, head empty, just wags his tail.

Director Lee bowed his head in front of me. His expressionless face is also handsome. For no reason, I pressed the spot where his dimple was usually with my hand. Director Lee grabbed my hand tightly. Director Lee’s smile was gone. Director Lee had the same expression as when I kicked Department Head Seo in the shin.

“No, I don’t know what you’re thinking, but I really like it whenever I do it with hyung. You’re tired every day. How many times has it– yesterday too, I mean, don’t make me say this… I said I wanted to do it last time, and even after I went on a trip…”

Director Lee straightened his back and walked away from me.

“Do you just say that it feels good without meaning it? Is that why you bought it?”

Oh, I stepped on a landmine.

“I’m going now.”

“No, where are you going? 

“I will take Wonsik.”

“Why are you taking him…”

As I sat on the chair, I hugged Director Lee’s waist. I rubbed his back with my hand and bit his chest.

“Are you mad?”

“Yeah.”

“Why?”

“You bought it without telling me.”

“I’m sorry, I was wrong.”

He raised his arm and grabbed Lee Si-hyun’s head and lowered it. Si-hyun, who came down gently, closed his eyes. I sucked up Lee Si-hyun’s lips. I moved my hand down from Si-hyun’s waist and slowly grabbed his underwear. I think it’ll be fine to do it now…

“What?”

Lee Si-hyun, who had been sucking my lips for some time, moved away from me. His brow was slightly creased. Instead of the box in his hand, Lee Si-hyun had my tablet. Director Lee, who had once looked at me, pulled out the tip of the tablet earphone. The tablet speaker let out an indescribable moan.

I blocked Kim Wonsik’s ears, who was in Director Lee’s arms. It’s already covered with fur, but I closed it again with my fingers. Lee Si-hyun looked at me.

“Did you watch something fun?”

Director Lee, who slapped my hand away from Wonsik, entered the room. He went in and slammed the door. I stood up haphazardly and stared blankly at Director Lee’s back.

Director Lee didn’t kiss me until Sunday evening. No matter how much I begged him, he was immovable. We ate together and went for a walk with the dog twice, but he refused to kiss me. It was pointless to grab his cheeks and poke his mouth. Only Kim Wonsik, who didn’t know anything, kept barking.