HARD 30

But it felt so good, so insanely good, that Go Woonha just let it happen.

“I have to go to work.”

His body was still twitching intermittently.

Cha Gyuwon looked ready to pick Go Woonha up and head straight to the bathroom.

Go Woonha thought that maybe one more time would be okay, but after twitching his fingers, he gave up the idea. He had to go to work, after all. Of course, work came first. But… but the lingering desire… the lingering desire was so damn strong.

“I’m going to wash up alone. Don’t come in.”

Go Woonha practically crawled up and got off the bed. His legs were trembling. After just one time. Seeing Go Woonha, who was letting out an incredulous laugh at his own legs, Cha Gyuwon tried to reach out a hand. But if he did that, he would end up skipping work without permission.

“No. You wait, Mr. Gyuwon. No, go wash up over there. And turn off my alarm on your way out.”

“……”

Cha Gyuwon looked devastated, as if he thought he had done something terribly wrong.

Go Woonha clenched and unclenched his trembling hands and smiled quietly. When he looked at Cha Gyuwon, that smile became even brighter. Even though only one nipple was particularly bright red and swollen, his neck was a mess, and the area between his legs was still wet, Go Woonha was as beautiful as an angel. He held Cha Gyuwon’s cheeks, kissed his forehead, and soothed him.

“I’m not angry, so go wash up and come out. Let’s do the laundry and have breakfast. I’m getting hungry.”

At that one phrase, that one kiss, Cha Gyuwon became a gentle lamb and nodded his head meekly. Thinking that he should wash up quickly and come out to prepare something for Go Woonha, who was terribly mismatched with the kitchen.

While Go Woonha was washing up, Cha Gyuwon had already finished his shower and was preparing breakfast.

Actually, it couldn’t really be called preparing anything. The refrigerator in Go Woonha’s house was seriously meager. No, it was downright destitute. He barely managed to find cheese and pepper to make thick scrambled eggs and brewed some coffee. Even though it looked wonderfully soft and moist, Cha Gyuwon was secretly dissatisfied, thinking there wasn’t enough butter and milk.

“Wow, what is this? Did you buy it from outside?”

“I made it with the ingredients in your house, hyung.”

“My house had the ingredients to make something like this?”

Go Woonha’s eyes sparkled.

Honestly, in terms of his private life, he was a truly uncommitted man. A hedonist who slept with various people in various ways without anyone you could call a regular partner, and then left them. He obviously had no morals and had clearly never made any plans to settle down.

But he could see why, even among the people he had met and broken up with in that way, half of them wished for Go Woonha’s happiness, while the other half gritted their teeth and longed to see him. Go Woonha rejoiced and praised even trivial things as if they were a big deal. Just as he was strict about bestowing favors, he also did not take the favors of others for granted. The only thing Go Woonha was stingy and harsh in accepting was the affection directed at him.

Having more or less figured Go Woonha out during his time with him, Cha Gyuwon found the Go Woonha who genuinely rejoiced at every single thing he did to be lovely.

It was an obvious fact that even if they broke up, he would never be able to forget him. Even more, Go Woonha made him feel like he was not a big deal, ordinary, and at the same time, a special being. He didn’t label him as a weirdo otaku, or a gloomy weirdo whose thoughts you couldn’t read, or a pathetic guy who was just big; even if he saw such things, he was the kind of person who would nonchalantly peel them off and ask what he was doing by his side.

A sinful philanthropist.

He’s a real angel.

Cha Gyuwon felt happy and depressed at the same time.

“You eat too, Mr. Cha Gyuwon. It’s amazing that something like this was made in my house.”

“Actually, I have something to say about that, hyung. You have nothing to eat at home. It’s not good for your body if you only eat food made outside.”

“I get a health checkup every year, and so far, it’s been fine. My family is pretty healthy. Don’t worry. Ah, I also get tested for STDs, should I show you?”

“…No. It’s okay.”

“Alright. If you’re ever curious or worried, just let me know. This is really delicious. Why aren’t you eating, Mr. Cha Gyuwon? Ah. Open your mouth.”

At Go Woonha’s ‘ah,’ Gyuwon opened his mouth. Perhaps because Go Woonha was feeding it to him, it felt especially delicious. No, he corrected himself. It became a special food because Go Woonha ate it with such enjoyment.

“Hyung. But it’s true. If cooking is a bother, how about hiring someone? Or I could make you some side dishes and bring them over.”

“That’s not it. I didn’t bring you over because I wanted you to do work for my house, Mr. Cha Gyuwon, and you don’t need to do that either.”

“But I’m doing it because I want to…. So…”

“No. It’s okay. If there’s something I want to eat, I’ll tell you, Mr. Gyuwon. And I’ll come over to your place to hang out. Is that okay? We still have a game to finish, you know.”

Go Woonha was really, truly, really good at coaxing and soothing. He even mentioned the game they had played before, making it impossible for Cha Gyuwon to refuse, so he had no choice but to give in. Besides, there wasn’t much time left until he had to go to work. Now he had no choice but to let him go.

“You don’t need to do the dishes. Let’s go. I’ll take you.”

“I brought my car…”

Go Woonha made an ‘oops’ face, as if he had just remembered.

This time, it really wasn’t because Go Woonha was thoughtless. Considering the events of yesterday and this morning, wasn’t it busy enough to forget a few facts? Go Woonha, who had strapped on his watch, moderately tightened and loosened his tie, and approached Cha Gyuwon. He zipped up his hoodie and, standing close, lightly patted Gyuwon’s cheek.

“Sorry. I was out of it.”

“……”

He almost said it was okay right away. Cha Gyuwon, as if putting up a measly bit of pride that he didn’t know he had, bit his tongue hard to stop himself from saying it was okay.

At the entrance, Cha Gyuwon hesitated for a moment as he watched Go Woonha slip his feet into his shoes. Even though it was Go Woonha’s house, the front door was a big wall for Cha Gyuwon. Would it be impossible to step out easily, simply, and naturally unless he got a call that something had happened to Go Woonha? Did he have to wait for something to happen to Go Woonha just to muster up the courage?

“Ah. Mr. Gyuwon.”

Go Woonha looked up, as if a thought had suddenly occurred to him, while hanging the shoehorn on the side.

“Then can you give me a ride to the company? I forgot I left my car at the office.”

As if he had read Cha Gyuwon’s mind, Go Woonha reached out a hand. It was so appropriate and effective. Cha Gyuwon raised his wavering eyes and then nodded his head enthusiastically.

“Of course. But what if I make you late for work? I’m still a beginner…”

Go Woonha grinned.

“Right. As if I knew that would happen, I got ready early. We still have time. Let’s go.”

Go Woonha’s hands were pretty, too. He pulls on his collar with his long, pretty fingers. Cha Gyuwon was pulled as if by a strong gravitational force, and with his feet shoved into his shoes, he ended up outside in the heat of the moment.

Once he was out of the entrance, the rest was instantaneous. In the underground parking lot, he followed Go Woonha, his gaze fixed on his back as he headed for his car.

On the way to the company, Go Woonha calmly gave Gyuwon advice from the passenger seat. His tone was neither too frustrated nor too rushed.

“You’re doing well.”

And then, when they arrived, he finished with a compliment.

“Now you can just go back carefully.”

Go Woonha patted Cha Gyuwon’s thigh and let out a long yawn. He looked very sleepy. But unlike yesterday, it was a languidness that emanated from him, not fatigue.

“You look sleepy, are you okay?”

“Oh, this isn’t because I’m tired…”

Go Woonha yawned again.

“It’s because I had a killer workout this morning.”

He smiled mischievously, but the end of his smile was so languid that it was sexy. Cha Gyuwon’s Adam’s apple bobbed as he gulped. He felt as if he could taste Go Woonha’s hole on his tongue. He wasn’t shocked at himself for thinking such a thing in the car in the morning. His mind was just completely filled with the image of Go Woonha’s naked body from the morning.

“I’m teaching you only bad things, Mr. Gyuwon. Right.”

Go Woonha laughed as he looked at Cha Gyuwon’s growing erection.

“I might not know about on the street, but the company parking lot is a bit… Wow, Mr. Gyuwon. I need to get another cup of coffee, so I have to go. Thanks for the ride. I would have gotten into an accident if I had driven.”

“Your car was here anyway.”

“I had another one… Ah, darn it.”

Go Woonha, who had confessed without realizing it in his sleepy state, winked as if to cover it up.

A surprised Cha Gyuwon blinked his eyes. Go Woonha grabbed his bag and opened the door.

“Drive carefully on your way back. You went through a lot of trouble coming out because of me, so go get some rest.”

“Hyung… did you do that on purpose, by any chance?”

Gyuwon grabbed Go Woonha and asked.

“Earlier, I was having a hard time going outside…”

“You did well. I’m proud of you.”

Go Woonha spoke as if everything was because Cha Gyuwon had done well. There was not a hint of hypocrisy. As always, he was nonchalant, considerate in a way that wasn’t a big deal, and yet he drew a line and stepped back behind it.

“Drive carefully. Bye.”

Cha Gyuwon bit his lip at the sight of Go Woonha’s back as he walked away, waving, and then turned around. Then he folded his arms over the steering wheel and slumped over.

“He’s really the worst.”

Go Woonha was really the worst. He was the same on the inside as he was on the outside. Even if there were times when he made him upset, he didn’t make him confused. He didn’t create chaos. So it wasn’t his fault that he was like this all by himself right now, but he loved him unbearably and hated him at the same time.

Even though you won’t date me. You won’t do things like relationships, you don’t have feelings like love, and you always draw a line, saying younger guys are annoying, and yet you act like that.

For the first time, Cha Gyuwon liked Go Woonha so much that he hated him. Was he this kind to other people too? I’m probably not special, but he makes me feel special. Did other people experience this too? How were they able to go back to their daily lives after being with Go Woonha? I don’t have the confidence to do that. My daily life is already filled with Go Woonha.