NFS 4.10

It wasn’t easy to move because the muscles inside Joo Seung-ha grabbed his cock as if he was gripping it tightly with his hands. Seo Ahn-jae continued to thrust with force, and when he plunged his cock deep inside, he pressed Joo Seung-ha’s lower abdomen with his hand. Joo Seung-ha opened his eyes wide and inhaled. Thanks to that, the inside, which had shrunk sharply, loosened the next moment.

“Haa, you’re doing well.”

Seo Ahn-jae praised and began to insert his cock more flexibly. As he quickly found the rhythm and moved his hips, the tickling pleasure inside Joo Seung-ha pushed away the dull pain. The sensation of a hard, veined, thick cock sweeping up the inner wall was electrifying.

“Ah…haa…”

As Joo Seung-ha let out a pleasant sigh, Seo Ahn-jae bent his upper body and bit Joo Seung-ha’s lips. And he thrust powerfully, as if wanting to see his reaction on purpose.

“Ugh!”

A moan that couldn’t come out was leaked from his mouth blocked by Seo Ahn-jae. Joo Seung-ha was now excited and shook his hips as if urging him to match his movements. Seo Ahn-jae couldn’t take it anymore and started thrusting briefly, picking up speed. Clearly, the stimulated part was in one place, but every time the entire cock swept the inner wall and went out, the entire rear was tingling as if it were a cock, and his lower abdomen rang. The faster Seo Ahn-jae’s speed, the greater the tingling sensation became.

“Hiss! Ah! Ugh! Hyung! Haa…”

“Haa, Seung-ha…”

Seo Ahn-jae kissed Joo Seung-ha’s eyes and various parts of his face as if sucking them and called out Joo Seung-ha’s name.

“Heung, faster, a little faster…Haat!”

Joo Seung-ha’s desperate request pleased Seo Ahn-jae to no end. An undisguised joy spread across his face. He straightened his elbows and raised his upper body, focusing on moving his hips. As he changed his posture and lifted Joo Seung-ha’s legs, causing his cock to stab in a different direction, Joo Seung-ha’s moans grew louder.

The rear, which held the hot cock, now felt like it was engulfed in flames. Without realizing it, he twitched his rear, trying to grab the tingling pleasure every time his cock came out. Seo Ahn-jae was the one moving, and he was just being shaken by his strength, but he couldn’t help but pant as if he was in the middle of a sprint.

“Ugh…Ahh! Ah!”

“How is it? Haa, should I stab you all the way in? Huk, huk…”

Joo Seung-ha’s answer didn’t come out, but Seo Ahn-jae looked at Joo Seung-ha’s tearful, trembling eyes and, as promised, pulled his hips back and suddenly plunged all the way in.

“Ah-heut!”

Joo Seung-ha’s cock squirted from the great stimulation. His mind was as chaotic as a tangled thread. He became dazed as if he was drunk with the pleasure rising within him. Even as he powerfully stabbed Joo Seung-ha’s body as if he were going to tear it apart, Seo Ahn-jae stubbornly stared at him, not wanting to miss a single detail of Joo Seung-ha’s appearance.

His reddened eyes, trembling eyelids, flushed skin, and lips wet with saliva were both mesmerizing and so arousing. Seo Ahn-jae’s eyes grew more and more lustful, and he grabbed Joo Seung-ha’s knees and pushed him up so that his back was bent.

When the time came for the final spurt, where he stabbed down from above, Joo Seung-ha could only grab anything to support his body, which felt like it was going to break any second now. The mattress, which had been swaying greatly with a creaking sound due to the force of Seo Ahn-jae’s large physique, currently swayed like a ship in a storm. Joo Seung-ha reached out his hand to support the precariously shaking bed and his own body, which was being pushed more dangerously, but all he could grab was the blanket.

“Hiss, stop, a little softer…Ah!”

As if to heighten Joo Seung-ha’s anxiety, the entire bed frame now creaked loudly and shook. However, contrary to Joo Seung-ha, Seo Ahn-jae pushed even more fiercely. He pushed down with more force, leaving marks on Joo Seung-ha’s buttocks with his pubic hair. The sound of flesh colliding with a squelching sound was mixed with the bed’s creaking noises. As the anxiety that the bed was about to collapse washed over him right then, Joo Seung-ha twisted his body to get away from the other man.

“Wait, ugh! The bed will collapse if we keep doing this…Hngh!”

The small attempt to escape went on to stimulate Seo Ahn-jae even more, and he began to grab and shake Joo Seung-ha’s cock with his hand.

“Ha, it won’t collapse. Heuk, hng.” Joo Seung-ha was so breathless from the stimulation applied from the front and back that he didn’t have the composure to respond to Seo Ahn-jae’s words. All he could do was pant, not knowing what to do with the pleasure that was rising to the top of his head.

“Ah! Heuk…Ugh!”

Finally, cloudy semen spurted from Joo Seung-ha’s shaking cock. Joo Seung-ha squirmed his lower abdomen and made meaningless gestures to push him away. Seo Ahn-jae grabbed Joo Seung-ha’s hand and pressed it down on the bed, spitting out between his panting breaths, “Stay still.”

Even with the ruthless command, Joo Seung-ha tried to escape from the pain of the continued pleasure, so he clicked his tongue and leaned his upper body over Joo Seung-ha. And he continued to move his hips messily, hugging him as if imprisoning him with his whole body.

Slap, slap, slap.

***

Though Joo Seung-ha had stayed at hotels with Seo Ahn-jae many times before, they had never laid together like this after sex, enjoying the lingering fatigue leftover from the sex. It felt like a new layer of comfort was being added over the unpleasant memories of past hotel stays. Hotels had always seemed like cold, disposable spaces to him.

“Aren’t you sleepy?” 

The person holding Joo Seung-ha from behind asked, playing with his ear. Joo Seung-ha quickly denied it, worried he might try to initiate something again.

“I’m very sleepy.”

He tried to sound firm, but his voice came out weak and cracked.

“Then why are you thinking about other things instead of sleeping?”

“I am going to sleep.”

“What were you thinking about just now?”

His persistent questioning was strange to Joo Seung-ha. Are you that curious about me?

“I was just impressed that hotel beds don’t collapse easily.”

“Things you worry about usually don’t happen as easily as you think.”

“Right, that’s true.” 

As Joo Seung-ha was agreeing with him, Seo Ahn-jae whispered in his ear, “So should we test it some more? See if we can make the bed collapse.”

Maybe it was his gentle voice, but his temptation was as sweet as the devil’s. Meanwhile, the hand wrapped around his waist started to move down toward the inside of Joo Seung-ha’s thigh. Joo Seung-ha quickly grabbed the hand to stop it.

“Why would you break someone else’s bed? And I need to go to work.”

“Do you really have to?”

It was ridiculous, but Joo Seung-ha felt somewhat envious that Seo Ahn-jae could be so whimsical since it was his own company.

“Yes. I have to go even if war breaks out.”

“What about nuclear war?”

“…Then I’d have to use a vacation day.”

A short laugh came from behind him. Seo Ahn-jae’s body shook with laughter against Joo Seung-ha’s skin, the vibrations transferring to him. It felt like experiencing Seo Ahn-jae’s laughter with his whole body. He knew Seo Ahn-jae wasn’t the type to laugh at such silly jokes. He probably just laughed because it was something he himself had said.

The fact that Seo Ahn-jae liked him still made him feel awkward, but Joo Seung-ha was starting to get used to it. The warmth of their touching skin and the weight of his embrace, which had felt stifling before, now made Joo Seung-ha’s mind as soft as the hotel room that had become comfortable. So when the sudden question came, he didn’t avoid answering.

“Why did you move?”

“Just to pull myself together because I was pathetic.”

“What’s pathetic about you?”

His cold voice seemed to be getting angry on Joo Seung-ha’s behalf, which made him feel good. Joo Seung-ha voiced his shame that couldn’t have been brought up right then,  if not for this atmosphere. He had seen malicious comments and they had bothered him. Of course, he was fine now. He had truly forgotten about it and didn’t care anymore. Really. Despite emphasizing it several times, the embarrassment didn’t fade away. It was truly pathetic to have curled up for over a week because of some mere hate comments. Fortunately, Seo Ahn-jae didn’t say anything. He just stroked Joo Seung-ha’s head once and said, “Go to sleep now.”

When Seo Ahn-jae treated it as insignificant, those hate comments really did seem like nothing. Joo Seung-ha closed his eyes and felt relieved internally. He was glad he had spoken about it.

On his way home from work, Joo Seung-ha called Seo Ahn-jae first since he planned to stop by Dallae’s cafe. Seo Ahn-jae’s voice sounded quite cheerful when he answered, which made Joo Seung-ha ask curiously, “Did something good happen at work?”

–No.

“Then why does your voice sound so excited?”

–I’m just happy you called first.

Just for that? Instead of criticizing, Joo Seung-ha praised him.

“It’s nice to see you finding joy in small things.”

–Come see for yourself.

“Maybe later. I feel like I might end up being your designated driver if I go to your company.”

–It’s not the company.

Is he working outside? As Joo Seung-ha was checking the time, Seo Ahn-jae’s light voice came through.

–I found a house. I’m heading to the office after looking at it.

Although Dallae’s cafe was visible just across the street, Joo Seung-ha stood frozen in place, unable to go inside for a while.

Today was the day they were supposed to meet a guardian who wanted to return their dog to the shelter for long-term foster care. When Joo Seung-ha left work, he had firmly resolved to thoroughly investigate the fostering reasons on behalf of soft-hearted Jjang Nuna and Dallae. But after talking with Seo Ahn-jae before entering Dallae’s cafe, he had forgotten about it.

There’s a large garden where five dogs can run around like crazy.

Joo Seung-ha felt slightly ashamed that what Seo Ahn-jae had thrown out as temptation was truly a huge temptation for him. So when Doram’s guardian appeared, his resolve was already half gone. And within less than a minute of the early-40s female guardian sitting down, the other half disappeared completely.

“It’s cancer. It’s small but has metastasized a bit, so I need to start treatment quickly.”

She said it so matter-of-factly that the three listeners could only gape wordlessly. Doram’s guardian took a sip of the warm tea in front of her and calmly explained the situation.

“I’ve cut ties with my family so I don’t have anywhere to leave Doram long-term. I have acquaintances who could take him short-term, but honestly, I don’t have many close friends, so even making such requests is difficult for me. Since I’ll need to frequently travel to Seoul for treatment, I think long-term fostering would be better. I’ll need to be hospitalized, and if I want to keep working, I definitely won’t have enough time to take care of Doram. I’m also worried because Doram still has good stamina, and I might not be able to walk him properly.”

The three listeners still couldn’t say anything, while Doram’s guardian added casually, “Including radiation therapy, I’m thinking of requesting fostering for up to six months maximum, but I’ll come get him right away if my condition improves before then based on the treatment progress.”

Doram’s guardian looked at the three unresponsive people and carefully asked, “Would it be possible to foster Doram?”

Joo Seung-ha was the one who finally answered, seeing that sister Jjang Nuna and Dallae beside him seemed too shaken to speak.

“I’m concerned that Doram has been living indoors continuously. As you know, large dogs stay in outdoor kennels at the shelter. Wouldn’t it be better to look for a private home for long-term fostering?”

She hesitated before shaking her head.

“I don’t know where to post about fostering. Well, I could find bulletin boards, but honestly, I’m anxious about leaving him with someone I don’t know well. I’m worried they might abuse Doram. And also…”

She paused briefly and lowered her gaze.

“If a situation arises where the fostering can’t end, we’ll need to find another place for Doram. I won’t be there then, and I’m afraid he might be abandoned while in an unstable living situation.”

A situation where the fostering can’t end. None of those sitting before her could speak about this situation. Joo Seung-ha barely managed to open his mouth with difficulty.

“Let’s think about the worst case later. We can post about fostering for you. And there aren’t that many bad people. I’ve found there are actually more good people in the world. Still, if you’re worried, we can thoroughly check their fostering experience and home situation. Since Doram might show anxiety symptoms if suddenly separated from you, we should look for someone who can care for him indoors…”

Joo Seung-ha trailed off mid-explanation and looked to the side. For some time now, he had been hearing sniffling sounds. When he turned, he saw Jjang Nuna and Dallae sobbing heavily with their shoulders shaking, trying to hold back their tears. Joo Seung-ha nervously glanced at Doram’s guardian, but fortunately, she remained composed. Or so he thought, until he looked again and saw her eyes were also glistening with tears.

“Um, Nuna…”

Joo Seung-ha carefully called out to Jjang Nuna, meaning to tell her to stop crying, but instead, she opened her mouth and let out a sob while suddenly grabbing Doram’s guardian’s hands.

“Sniff I’m sorry for crying, but I can’t help feeling like this is my own story…Jjang is my only real family too. My other family members only cause trouble and contact me for money, sob. I’m only living well like this because Jjajang  is by my side. Guardian, sniff, you have to overcome this because you have Doram. Waaah.”

Next to her, Dallae joined in the crying while blowing her nose with tissues.

“Oh geez, I have a good-for-nothing who causes financial trouble in my family too, that’s why I’m put off marriage and only live for Dalsu and Rae-rae. Especially Dalsu… sniff Dalsu only knows me…sob. We absolutely have to live longer than our kids. Even if the earth is destroyed, I absolutely can’t die before my kids. Guardian, you absolutely must live longer than Doram too.”

Joo Seung-ha worriedly looked at Doram’s guardian, concerned that crying like this might be disrespectful to someone who was ill. But she too was now quietly crying with her head bowed. The three of them continued crying until they used up an entire box of tissues. After the unstoppable storm of sorrow passed, the atmosphere became as quiet as the atmosphere after a storm. Then Doram’s guardian spoke with a hoarse voice.

“Thank you…for crying with me. I couldn’t cry alone because I was afraid I’d fall apart…Ah, crying always makes me feel better.”

Though she wiped her eyes again with a tissue, her face definitely looked more relaxed than before.

“You’re right. I have to live longer than Doram, so I’ll get treatment and get better no matter what. If I had known this would happen, I should have traveled more with Doram, let him make more friends… I regret it.”

“You can do that later.”

Jjang Nuna grabbed her hand again but then shook her head.

“No, do it now. Travel with Doram now, and do anything else you want to do now. Now, it has to be now.”

Just like that, the three women suddenly joined forces and immediately planned a two-day trip. They kept shouting “now” like it was some kind of slogan, and eventually, they were laughing as if they had never shed any tears in the first place. Joo Seung-ha couldn’t help but envy their transformation, which might seem foolish in others’ eyes.

People who might have been strangers just 30 minutes ago were now sharing their innermost feelings that they might not even show to their close ones. And with that brief cry, they seemed healed and found their reason for living again. The sight filled Joo Seung-ha’s heart with warmth.

This felt similar to the comfort he felt reading fairy tales as a child. Though he knew such miracles wouldn’t happen to him, he could support the protagonist unconditionally and find solace in their happiness. And now, the fairy tale before his eyes showed him: It’s okay not to have family. There’s no need to be afraid just because there’s no one around. You can live even when you’re lonely.

Although he was surprised when hearing Doram’s guardian’s story, he hadn’t been moved to tears like Jjang Nuna and Dallae, but now seeing the three of them so cheerful after everything, Joo Seung-ha felt like crying himself. He said goodbye to the excited trio and went outside. There was someone he suddenly wanted to call, so he took out his phone.

However, he changed his mind about making the call and put it back in his pocket. Instead, he stopped by a store to buy dinner boxes. He wanted to be the one to give food to Seo Ahn-jae who was working late tonight. Going to his company would remind him of being a designated driver, but he didn’t mind driving. Would Seo Ahn-jae be surprised by this unusual behavior? The anticipation of his reaction made Joo Seung-ha feel a bit excited about going to meet him. But as it turned out, the person who would be happy to receive the dinner box wasn’t in the office.