PSS Ch 5

“Are you coming now?”

His voice was as haggard as his face. I couldn’t say anything, just stood there blankly, looking at him appearing so different from my memories. Perhaps because I had received too many shocks during the day, my mind wasn’t functioning properly.

“I heard. You’re working at Mr. Nam’s place.”

Who else could have told him? Suddenly, the friendship between my father and Nam Gichul’s father came to mind. Whichever one of them had contacted the other first, it would have been very easy for the news to reach my father’s ears. I bit my lip bitterly.

“Yes. That’s what happened. I’ll be kicked out of here soon anyway.”

Now, I didn’t even feel resentment. Rather, I felt sorry for my father, who had come to find me looking like this. Still, I was busy finding my own way to survive. I cleaned the floors of a fancy restaurant with a mop to clear my complicated mind, and somehow managed to save some living expenses.

But my father… he didn’t seem to be doing the same. The sight of him, who had coldly abandoned me and ran away with his new family, was pathetic. What had he been doing all this time? How hard and rough could the path he took, abandoning even his own son, have been?

“How have you been?”

“I’ve been staying at a hotel. But I’m about to be kicked out. I have no money left. I can’t even pay the overdue hotel bills.”

I suddenly laughed. The hotel my father was talking about must have been a luxury accommodation costing over a million won per night. No matter what problems his company faced, my father should have had a considerable amount of personal money. It was so absurd that he had already squandered all of it that I almost cried.

“So, Jaegyeong…”

My father called me in a gentle voice I hadn’t heard since my mother passed away. A sense of foreboding crept up my neck. He looked at me with a face that could almost be described as subservient. His expression amplified my anxiety.

“What is it?”

“Do me one favor.”

My father rose from his chair. With that subservient face… with a face so pitiful it was heartbreaking, he shuffled over and plopped down on his knees in front of me.

“What are you doing?!”

I was startled by his wretched behavior. I hurriedly tried to help him up. But he didn’t budge. As if he had to show this pathetic display right in front of me to achieve what that person wanted, so desperately.

“My son, Jaegyeong.”

“Father…?”

“Just once. If you could just go see him once.”

When I realized what my father desperately wanted from me, I withdrew the hand I had extended to help him up.

“Father…”

“Just once. Just, once. Close your eyes just this once and do what he wants, and you, and we, can all live. Okay? Jaegyeong.”

My teeth chattered. The words that man had spat at me today, and the look in his eyes as he looked down at me, came flooding back, bringing a wave of intense shame.

“That will never happen.”

“Jaegyeong, don’t be like that. Just close your eyes this once.”

“It won’t end with just once! You know that! You know what he wants from me!”

I ended up yelling. My father seemed startled by my furious appearance. But only for a moment; he persistently tried to persuade me.

“Jaegyeong, think about it again. It’s not every day someone like him extends a hand. Moreover, he was willing to help even after knowing our company’s situation. It’s not like it’s a shameful thing for an omega to accept an alpha’s body.”

“Father!”

I was dumbfounded by my father’s words, openly forcing his son into prostitution. How, just how… could a father say such a thing to his son? No matter how desperate the situation, a father shouldn’t ask this of his child. It was unthinkable.

“Do you not care what happens to me? As long as you can save your company… as long as you can somehow save your new wife and the child she brought… then that’s all that matters? Do you really not care what some alpha does to your own child?”

Tears welled up in my eyes. Because it was so hard… this situation was so absurd and unbelievable… that’s why I cried.

“Jaegyeong, do you think I’m saying this only for my benefit? I’m saying this for your sake too. Wouldn’t it be good for you if our family recovers? Besides, what a great opportunity it is to catch the eye of Executive Director Jang Taejin. Do you think Executive Director Jang Taejin is the kind of person who will take you and then ignore you? He’ll probably take very good care of you. Whatever it is, I won’t touch it. I’ll give it all to you, so please, just go see him once. Okay?”

No matter how desperately I cried out, my father still had only one thought in his mind. He was determined to sell me off, no matter what. No matter what I said here, my father clearly wouldn’t listen.

Despair washed over me like a wave. I was appalled and lamented this situation where my insignificant convictions were a sin.

“Jaegyeong…”

Suddenly, I saw my father’s form, shrouded in dark shadows because he was backlit. That form of his, old and worn, with wrinkles etched on his face, kneeling subserviently before his son.

I should have felt utter disgust at the sight of him. The moments I had followed him, thinking of him as my father, the only family I had left, felt shameful. Why had I tried so hard to please him? Because he was the man my mother once loved? Because he was the one who brought me into this world?

Whatever the reason, I knew it was time to sever it. The person kneeling in front of me now was no longer my family.

“Alright.”

This will be the end of everything.

“I’ll do as you wish.”

The self-loathing for ruining everything, the longing to be loved by my father, the pity that still lingered for my family, the reproach for my naive past. I decided to shake off all these emotions.

“R-Really, Jaegyeong?!”

My father’s face brightened. The smile of my father, which I had once longed to see, felt bitter today. He grabbed my hand with his gaunt hand and even shed tears. My father was so overjoyed to sell his barely twenty-year-old son to an alpha.

“Yes. You made the right decision. You made the right decision. I’m doing all of this for you, so don’t be disheartened.”

I didn’t want to hear my father’s words anymore, so I tried to leave for my room. But my father wouldn’t let go of my hand and just kept repeating that I had made the right decision.

“Go back now. You have people waiting for you, don’t you?”

I didn’t want to call them family.

“R-Right. I should go.”

But instead of turning around, my father awkwardly scratched his head. His constant coughing seemed even more suspicious than before. He had already achieved his purpose in coming to see me, so I was suspicious of him not leaving.

“Jaegyeong.”

“Do you have anything else to say?”

“Well, that is…”

What other shocking things could he possibly have to say that made him hesitate so much?

“Do you have any money?”

“…Money?”

“Mr. Nam said you got your paycheck in advance.”

“…”

“I’m sorry. I need to pay the hotel bill, but my card is blocked. They’re telling me to leave the hotel right now, and I have nowhere to take your stepmother and your brother. We’re about to be out on the streets.”

I wish he hadn’t said anything. I wish he had just left.

If my father had done so, I might have been a little less miserable. If he hadn’t reached out to his young son so pathetically to save his own skin, I might not have crumbled so completely. The tears that were streaming down my cheeks stopped abruptly. The past days, when I had struggled so much because of this father, felt so resentful.

“Can’t… you?”

I roughly opened my wallet. The ten-million-won check was there, which I had kept to return to Executive Director Jang Taejin if I ever met him again, if I ever ran into him again. I handed it to my father without hesitation. I can’t refuse the dirty money he gave me, not anymore. I’ve just decided to become dirty enough to not be able to.

“Take this and go. And don’t ever look for me again. Don’t contact me either.”

“Jaegyeong, I’m sorry. I’m sorry.”

“Just go.”

I coldly turned my back.

My father hesitated for a moment, then left without a second thought. His footsteps heading downstairs seemed very light. Judging by the lack of any sound in this quiet house.

“Oh, honey, it’s me. Yes. Yes. Of course, it’ll be resolved. Oh, yes. I’ll see you there. Don’t worry about the hotel bill. Eat whatever you want. Yunseo doesn’t look so good either…”

In the silence, I could faintly hear my father’s voice on the phone. I covered my ears, not wanting to hear that voice fading away into the distance. Only after the house was completely enveloped in silence did I remove my hands from my ears. My father seemed to have already left, and the house, plastered with red tags, was no different from yesterday.

I stood still for a long time in the silence. I knew what I had to do now, and that was why my hands wouldn’t move easily. I was afraid. I was afraid of what would happen to me, and I was afraid of myself, who had decided to fall into hell. But I had to overcome it. Because the things that would happen to me in the future would surely be more painful.

“…”

I opened my empty wallet again. I took out a carefully placed business card along with a few unusable cards. Yeo Kyungmin. Looking at the number written alongside the three-character name, I pressed the buttons on my phone.

—Yes, Jaegyeong.

I spoke softly to him, as if he had been waiting for my call.

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I rode for a long time along a dark and gloomy forest path. The taxi, leaving Seoul and heading to the outskirts, took me to a remote place I had never even heard of in my life. I paid the fare on the meter with a little extra and got out of the taxi. Before my eyes appeared a lavishly decorated hotel, unlike the gloomy road I had just passed.

“I’m here to see Executive Director Jang Taejin.”

When I spoke to the receptionist, the staff kindly guided me. Usually, they would just hand over the key, but she insisted on accompanying me in the elevator and leading me to the room.

“You can go in.”

She greeted me with a kind smile. I, too, bowed my head slightly in response. I stared at her retreating figure for a long time before turning my head to look at the door. My heart pounded like crazy. The thought of him waiting for me beyond the door made me dizzy.

—Who is it?

When I rang the doorbell, I heard an unfamiliar voice, not Executive Director Jang Taejin’s.

“My name is Lim Jaegyeong. I’m here to see Executive Director Jang Taejin.”

The door soon opened. I was greeted by a man in a suit with his hair neatly combed back.

“He’s waiting inside.”

He gave off the impression of a secretary. High-ranking people often have multiple secretaries, so I wondered if this person, like Yeo Kyungmin, was also Executive Director Jang Taejin’s secretary. As I followed him inside, I suddenly heard a strange sound.

The sound, once started, continued without interruption. Two people, no, three. No, four. The agonizing moans were definitely not from a single person. The strange sound, echoing simultaneously as if several instruments were playing a single note, scratched at my head and stimulated my imagination. I didn’t want to feel anything. Not the irritating sounds piercing my eardrums, nor the nauseatingly tangled pheromones.

“Mr. Lim Jaegyeong?”

Startled, I stopped, and the man walking ahead turned around. I looked up at him with a bewildered expression.

“I’m sorry.”

“It’s alright. Please follow me.”

“Yes…”

The deeper we went down the long hallway and into the room, the thicker the pheromones became. The suffocating scent made it difficult to breathe. Barely enduring, I followed the man, and an unbelievable scene unfolded before my eyes. Numerous alphas and omegas were there. There seemed to be twice as many alphas as omegas, overwhelming them. I couldn’t hide my surprise as I watched them tangled together like animals.

“This way.”

He led me further inside, passing through the people scattered about. Suddenly, I felt something particularly strong among the numerous scents. I followed the scent with my eyes. My gaze met Executive Director Jang Taejin’s, who was sitting on the sofa, looking down at the people as if he were a spectator.

“Then.”

The man who had guided me left. Executive Director Jang Taejin, whom I was facing again after just a few hours, was leaning languidly on the sofa, dressed impeccably, just as he had been before.

He glanced at me sideways, checking my appearance, and with a dry expression, lifted the whiskey glass in front of him.

“We meet again.”

Could those words be called a greeting? It was probably a sarcastic remark about me coming back just a few hours after rejecting his proposal.

“I came to… talk to you.”

I had no time to be wounded by his sarcasm. I gritted my teeth.

He raised an eyebrow in surprise, but soon returned to his usual indifferent face. My neck stiffened. I hadn’t come to beg him. I was only here to make a deal. I had resolved to be confident, but standing before him, my body instinctively recoiled.

“Go ahead.”

He took a sip of his whiskey and put the glass down. The moans of the entangled alphas and omegas still rang loudly in my ears. My lips trembled with tension. His languid gaze slowly swept over me. I hid my trembling hands behind my back and quietly clenched them into fists. Cold sweat made my hands slippery. I felt dizzy, as if I might collapse at any moment.

“I want to… make a deal with you again.”

I finally uttered the words I had repeated countless times in the moving taxi. He looked at me with an ordinary expression, neither surprised nor displeased.

“As you said, I don’t have much time left. Within that time… I want to turn things around. You said I still had a chance.”

Although it was Executive Director Jang Taejin who made the initial offer, he didn’t show any sign of being pleased. It was the opposite of my father’s reaction when I said I would go see him. At this point, I even wondered if his offer to me had been a dream.

“Do you know what I want now?”

He nodded. His gaze shifted away from me. His languid eyes followed the people mindlessly writhing, as if consumed by instinct.

“I do.”

The gasps filling the room grew louder. Their hot body heat enveloped me. The continuous moans echoed in my head.

“It could be worse.”

A scent far stronger than theirs, constricting my throat, penetrated my lungs.

“Worse than you imagine, Mr. Lim Jaegyeong, dirtier than what you see before you. That’s what I’ll do.”

His gaze, returning to me, changed, like a viper stalking its prey. It tightened around me, as if he were about to devour me whole.

“Mr. Lim Jaegyeong.”

I looked him straight in the eye, repeating to myself that nothing would shake my resolve.

“Can you handle it?”

If he was asking about my resolve, I wanted to answer him. I’m not someone you can treat so lightly. I’m not as weak as you think.

I raised my clenched fists and placed them on my coat. I took off my coat right in front of him, as if to show him. As soon as the thick coat fell to the floor, I placed my hands on my shirt again. I unbuttoned each button, all the way up to my neck, without blinking, staring at him.

I had volunteered to fall into the depths of hell. I had made a deal with the devil to sell my body and escape my situation, all for some debt. The chaotic mix of voices from the people in the room struck my ears more sharply as I continued my endless descent. My heart raced. Their moans, celebrating my downfall, heated my body.

“Mr. Lim Jaegyeong.”

He finally spoke, having merely observed me until now. I continued unbuttoning my shirt without stopping. The white shirt that had covered my body came completely undone. I pulled down the collar without hesitation, revealing my intimate skin to him.

“Stop.”

I didn’t listen to him. I would have done more if it meant showing him my resolve.

“I said stop.”

He abruptly stood up. He fiercely grabbed my hands as I was about to take off my shirt, disregarding his words. My wrists burned. He seemed to be burning as hot as I was.

“Let go of me.”

I glared at him, strengthening my gaze, refusing to succumb to the strong scent assailing me.

“Let go of me. Executive Director…Ah!”

In an instant, his lips covered mine. Just like that night, in the moonlit study, just like he had done to me then. Today, once again…

His kiss was rough, sharp, and fierce. His tongue entangled mine painfully, as if a blade was piercing my body. His large hands wrapped around my waist, and my body fell back softly against him.

“I don’t have the habit of showing off what’s mine in front of others.”

He whispered, briefly parting his lips. I stared at him, inhaling his overwhelming scent.

“Do you understand?”

He lifted me up. Held in his arms, I was carried somewhere.

“Ah!”

Arriving in an empty room, he threw me onto the bed. I was practically half-naked, buried in the soft bed. He roughly loosened his tie. He took off his jacket, unbuttoned his shirt, and approached me.

He covered me as I lay on the bed, looking up at the ceiling. His wet, parted lips pressed against mine. We exchanged a kiss much hotter than the one before. He sucked on my lower lip and rubbed his groin against my thigh.

I felt a soft, fleshy mass against my thigh. I squeezed my eyes shut, feeling it grow and harden against me. His hand slid down, caressing my core. The movements of his hand, too fast for me to follow, brought to mind the words I hadn’t yet been able to convey.

“W-Wait!”

I pushed his firm shoulders with both hands, using all my strength.

“…What is it now?”

He lifted his face, his breath hot. Just looking at him up close made my heart race even faster.

“I’d like you to change the terms of the agreement.”

I was panting by now. His neatly furrowed brows deepened.

“I want you… to pay off all of our family’s debt in exchange for me doing what you want.”

Executive Director Jang Taejin seemed momentarily surprised, but then looked at me with an intrigued expression. His sharp eyes seemed to pierce right through me, but I met his gaze head-on. Seeing my unwavering gaze, he lifted the corners of his lips.

“I don’t understand what you’re saying. That’s not part of our agreement.”

“No one will trust a collaboration that has already been overturned once. The same goes for the financial institutions demanding repayment. There’s no time to change their minds. Everything we own will be auctioned off.”

I knew how audacious my words were. Signing an agreement and paying off all the debt were worlds apart. Yet, I was making this demand to get my due. I had already decided to fall into the depths of hell. If I was going to be ruined anyway, I wanted to be fully compensated. He might scoff, but this was incredibly precious to me. If I absolutely had to sell the convictions I had held onto my entire life, I wanted to receive the proper price.

“Mr. Lim Jaegyeong, you’re quite bold. Do you really think you’re worth that much?”

Despite his clear mockery, I didn’t back down.

“Didn’t you say before, Executive Director Jang Taejin, that you would give me a better price than the only son of Chairman Kim Sangjin of Jaewon Group?”

My lips trembled, but I didn’t avert my eyes from his. He stared at me for a long time, as if greatly intrigued. A brief silence fell, and a faint chuckle escaped Executive Director Jang Taejin’s lips.

“Cunning.”

“…”

“I thought you were naive.”

Now, all I had left was defiance. I lifted my chin, afraid that he might refuse, but showing no sign of it.

“You’re saying this now because you know I can’t refuse a deal like this at a time like this, aren’t you?”

I just stared at him without answering. His gaze seemed to penetrate my body and reach my heart. Thump-thump. My heart pounded as if it might explode, and my head spun. I was anxious that his lips might utter words of refusal. He merely remained silent, his expression unreadable. The short time waiting for his answer felt unbearably long.

“You better do it right.”

My eyes widened at his words.

“If you want the price you named, Mr. Lim Jaegyeong.”

He roughly tore off the clothes I was wearing. I squirmed helplessly as he manhandled me. It didn’t take him long to strip me naked. In an instant, I was laid bare before him. His eyes gleamed like a beast facing its freshly caught prey. His eyes, scanning my naked body, were disgusting. His gaze, full of lust, slithered over my skin like a snake.

“Ah!”

After looking for me over for a long time, he suddenly thrust his hand between my legs. He started to poke and prod inside, without any lubrication. The rough act, which I was experiencing for the first time, brought a terrible foreign sensation along with pain. He inserted his middle and ring fingers all the way in and moved them inside. His knuckles felt rough and bumpy. Every time he rummaged and stretched inside me, I gasped for breath, and strange sounds I had never made before escaped my lips. Tears welled up involuntarily. Even though I didn’t want to cry, tears kept forming in my eyes, betraying my will.

“Ahh!”

His fingers, as they withdrew, left a stinging sensation as intense as when they entered. He forced the fingers he had thrust inside me into my mouth.

“Ugh!”

Nausea surged, unable to bear the disgust. Even as I retched continuously as if I were about to die, he relentlessly rubbed his fingers against my tongue. The fingers that had been in and out of my hole tasted sour and musty. After tormenting my mouth for a while, he withdrew his fingers and then inserted them into my rear.

“Haa…!”

Squish, squish. He prodded inside me with his wet fingers. As the wet touch reached my dry inner walls, my body flinched, and the entrance twitched. He spread and closed his fingers like scissors, repeatedly scratching and rubbing my inner walls. Because he had only used saliva, the burning sensation was intense wherever his touch landed.

“Hsss!”

He pulled his fingers out again. Instead, he grabbed my thighs and lifted them. He bent my waist until it folded, gripped the area near my buttocks, and pulled it to the side. He spat into the slightly opened hole, revealing the flesh inside. The viscous saliva pooled in the dry opening. I would have become wet quickly if he had just released his pheromones, but he was perfectly controlling them, only using saliva to wet me. That made it even harder to bear, more agonizing.

The saliva he spat gradually flowed down my inner walls. The fact that I was exposing my rear to an alpha, the fact that he was spitting on my genitals, was utterly humiliating. He continued to repeat this until the hole was filled with saliva. Then, he threw my body carelessly onto the bed.

“Ugh…”

I squirmed like a crushed insect, reaching out to cover my shameful lower body. Executive Director Jang Taejin leisurely undressed, sneering at me. With only his shirt on, he pulled down his trousers and underwear completely, and a long, fleshy thing dangled between his thighs.

He grabbed his long flesh and climbed on top of me. He positioned my face between his legs and stood with his knees bent. Looking at my face, he stroked his cock as if to show off. Veins, like the stems of a climbing plant, were tangled around the crimson, swollen shaft. The bluish veins looked even more grotesque against the overall reddish hue. The transparent fluid oozing from the hole at the tip made it look utterly vile.

“Ha…”

His gaze, fixed on my face, was strange. His eyes, filled with lust, were mostly hidden by his lowered eyelids, making it seem even more so. Tap, tap, tap. The rapid movement of his hand made an obscene sound. His hot breath, exhaled as he stroked himself, washed over me.

“Ugh!”

He nudged my face with his stiff cock. Because of his large size and the hardness filling him, it felt blunt, like being hit by a hand. After hitting me several times with his cock, which was longer than my face, he rubbed the tip against my cheek. The fluid leaking from the hole at the tip wet my cheek.

“Do you know when an alpha gets most excited?”

He moved slowly, inserting himself between my legs.

“When he puts it inside an omega’s hole for the first time.”

He grabbed himself again, slowly shaking the long, elastic piece of flesh.

“When he sees the omega’s expression.”

The head of his cock, jostled by his hand, touched the entrance of my hole. He pushed the large head into the dry, tight space, where not a drop of fluid had seeped out.

“Hsss…!”

With a short scream, my movements ceased.

As if time had stopped, all my senses shut down, and only his presence remained. The flesh, filled and hard, pushed roughly inside, filling the tightly closed space.

“Huu…”

He knew nothing of consideration. He shoved his entire length inside roughly and exhaled as if in ecstasy. I looked up at him, writhing in pain as if I were about to die. My tear-filled eyes blurred my vision. Amidst the dizzying afterimages, I suddenly felt his scent. The scent, caressing me with a warmth as intense as the flesh he held, made tears stream down my cheeks. Inside me, his cock was growing even larger, as if what he had just put in was merely a joke. Just like that.

“Haa!”

Executive Director Jang Taejin pulled his hips back. The tip scraped against my inner walls. My sensitive body gasped in shock, and I screamed. Hearing my scream, which was close to a shriek, Executive Director Jang Taejin moved his hips. The flesh, slowly withdrawing and quickly thrusting back in, stabbed at my stomach. I froze, feeling as if my stomach would burst.

Intense sensations spread from deep inside my stomach, paralyzing my limbs. I shook my head involuntarily at his increasingly rough movements. His enraged cock pierced quickly inside, burying the head deep and rubbing it against me. My insides, not sufficiently lubricated, were pulled out every time the flesh withdrew, only to be pulled back in with it.

It was agonizing. Although I could feel a faint trace of his scent, it wasn’t enough. My insides were too narrow for his enormous cock. Due to the lack of fluids, the friction of our genitals was excruciating, as if I were being burned alive. I felt like I was dying, but he rampaged on, oblivious. Not only his thrusting and withdrawing cock, but also the movement of his hips grew more violent. Obscene sounds erupted from our genitals, slapping and separating chaotically, filling my eardrums. Wanting to die, I bit my lip and frantically clawed at the sheets.

“Make some noise. Do you think I’m fucking a sex toy?”

His demanding voice made my body tremble involuntarily. He was forcing me to make a sound, but my last remaining pride wouldn’t allow it.

“Fuck, open your mouth.”

Thwack.

His cock slammed hard inside. A piercing moan escaped me, along with the terrifying feeling that my womb was being pierced. I forgot my pride and sobbed loudly. My insides, being pounded by the alpha’s cock, were excruciatingly painful.

“Do you think I should pay a hefty price just to fuck a sex toy?”

He pulled his hips back again. Leaving only the head inside, he pulled out the shaft completely and then quickly thrust back in.

“Ahh!”

“If you want your price, then get fucked properly.”

My entrance, stretched around the massive object, twitched involuntarily. The flesh, which seemed to be growing ever larger, throbbed inside me. I wanted to die. A sensation close to death violently shook my body.

“Fuck.”

He moved his hips again. I screamed helplessly as his cock, withdrawing momentarily, thrust back in forcefully.

That single movement triggered a series of rough actions. My body shook uncontrollably under his merciless movements, as if I were struggling between life and death. My legs spread无力地, and he leaned down, covering my body. His breathing was as rough as his movements. The hot air he exhaled repeatedly washed over my face. My stiff body began to move slightly, accepting him. My waist bent so far back that my thighs were pressed against his groin. The tears that had been trickling down now formed trails on my skin. I sobbed pathetically at the painfully hard thrusts and prods.

“Hss!”

Executive Director Jang Taejin’s cock buried itself deep inside.

“Ahh, Ahh…!”

He rotated his hips, rubbing against the sensitive flesh inside. The sensation of the grinding head was so vivid that a moan escaped me involuntarily. The head, rubbing and grinding, lubricated by the slick fluids, was incredibly lewd.

“Stop, stop it! It hurts, it hurts!”

“What do you want me to stop? Your hole is overflowing.”

Executive Director Jang Taejin’s panting breath and low growl made me cry even more. Just hearing his voice made me want to cry. He, who was taking away something precious and crushing it with that monstrous flesh, was no different from a ruthless butcher to me.

“Have you been hiding it behind that innocent face? That hole of yours, gaping open, sucking on alpha cocks?”

His insulting words made me shake my head involuntarily. I shook my head frantically, hating the words he spat, hating the flesh that was tearing me apart inside.

“Can’t you hear it now? Your hole, Mr. Lim Jaegyeong, devouring my cock. Do you like alpha cocks that much? Are you so thrilled at the sight of an alpha cock because you’re a slut?”

He deliberately bucked his hips. A loud, squishing sound erupted from my hole, which had started to leak fluids at some point. The sound of the flesh slapping against and pulling away from my inner walls pierced my eardrums. I wanted to deny it. I just wanted to deny that it wasn’t true, that it wasn’t the sound coming from me. I wanted to shout that I wasn’t that vulgar, that I wasn’t an omega who made lewd noises while taking an unwanted alpha’s cock.

“Fuck. Don’t suck so hard.”

Thwack.

As if punishing the lewd hole, his flesh slammed in roughly. I flinched and screamed. Intense shame flushed my entire body red. I cried as if I were about to suffocate. Because the hole he had invaded was agonizing, because his words, piercing my heart one by one, were painful, I cried as if I were dying.

He frantically bucked his hips and sucked on my earlobe. Then, he sucked on my lips. My lips, being sucked into his mouth, felt like they were about to rip. Because of the rough thrusting below, I couldn’t even feel the sharp pain anymore. I was being relentlessly shaken, offering both my top and bottom to him. His heavy body completely crushed me, rendering me immobile. His tongue, invading my mouth, frantically sucked on my tongue, and my hole was also sucking on him. The monstrous act, born of instinct, was driving me insane. His movements were turning my body into ruins.

“Fuck.”

He lifted his torso, still sucking on my tongue and thrusting. As if he couldn’t take it anymore, he frowned deeply and grabbed both my ankles with his hands. Holding my legs like handles, he straightened his waist and thrust with only his groin. The muscles decorating every inch of his body twitched. He moved with all his might, his swollen pectoral muscles heaving. Sweat trickled down the lines between his chest and abdominal muscles. His smooth forehead creased. Gritting his teeth so hard that veins stood out on his jaw, he thrust his hips up to the hilt.

“Haa!”

Hot fluid flooded my insides. He spilled his desire inside me, letting out a lewd moan. My entrance, devouring him, stretched taut. I could feel it twitching as if it wanted more. His cock, throbbing inside my stomach, spurted semen. The hot fluid, flowing through my urethra, warmed me from the inside. Feeling the fluid filling my stomach, I screamed like a madwoman.

“Ahh, Ahh! Ugh, Ugh, Ugh, Ah…”

His cock throbbed frantically inside me. Each time he ejaculated, he shuddered, bucking his head. I couldn’t bear the stimulation from his convulsing cock. I sobbed like an animal, begging him to stop. The feeling of the semen, filling my stomach with warmth, was horrifying.

Tears streamed endlessly. Despite my resolve, the excruciatingly painful act had devastated my entire being. My reason had long since vanished, and only the alpha’s release inside my stomach remained vivid. I just wanted to die. My body, ravaged by the act, was nothing but ruins.

“Ha…”

His cock, having finished its task, slowly withdrew. From my genitals, which had received an alpha’s cock for the first time, the sticky remnants he left behind flowed out. He reached out and wiped them away. He pushed his fingers back inside, tracing the raw flesh inside the wounded hole.

I lay collapsed, my body limp. I only twitched intermittently as his fingers scraped inside.

“How are you going to earn your price like this?”

His languid voice washed over me. A blurry image of him appeared in my moist eyes.

He rubbed my abdomen with his still-swollen flesh. He flipped over my unresponsive body and inserted the head of his cock back into the entrance where semen was leaking out.

“Ahh!”

The head of his cock plunged into the slick flesh. He moved ferociously inside the hole filled with his semen. I writhed in agonizing pain, clawing at the bedsheets. My already ravaged body was being torn apart again. Pain poured mercilessly over my shattered body.

⋆.˚🦋₊ ⊹

I don’t know how the day passed. When I opened my eyes, I was lying alone on the large bed. The sunlight streaming in was blinding, as if it were already past noon. I raised my wretched body in the empty room. I frowned involuntarily at the dull ache that washed over me.

There wasn’t a single part of my body that wasn’t in pain. I didn’t even have the courage to put my feet on the floor, so I just sat still. The sight of the crumpled bed sheets, stained with sticky fluids, naturally brought back the events that had transpired here. In the fragmented memories, I was crushed beneath his body, relentlessly shaken. He had explored my body endlessly until the faint light of dawn swept away the night, until the morning sun rose. My memory even extended to him taking me to the bathroom and washing me. Recalling his touch as he removed the warm liquid from inside me, I cursed my brain for its unnecessarily detailed record and shook my head violently.

A long sigh escaped me. I had only just taken the first step, and yet, I felt overwhelmed by the thought of how I would endure what was to come. If things continued like this, I would surely crumble soon. I hadn’t known that a relationship with an alpha could be this difficult. No, it would be more accurate to say that it was far more brutal than I had imagined.

“Ugh…”

I forced my broken body up. Thankfully, he had washed me, so my body was clean enough to dress immediately. Feeling the warm air from the heater blowing through the room, I headed to the closet. I couldn’t find the clothes I had carelessly thrown on the floor yesterday, so I wrapped a robe from the closet around myself.

Buzz.

Suddenly, I heard a vibrating sound from the table beside the bed. I trudged over, still in my robe. My phone, neatly placed on the table, displayed an unknown number. I hesitated for a moment before picking it up.

“Hello.”

—Mr. Jaegyeong. Are you awake?

Even though the other person hadn’t identified themselves, I knew who it was. It was Yeo Kyungmin.

“Yes, I’m awake.”

—That’s good. I’ll be there shortly. Please rest for a while.

Yeo Kyungmin, Executive Director Jang Taejin’s diligent secretary, said he would come all the way here, quite a distance from Seoul, to pick me up, and then ended the call. I didn’t want to face him looking like this, but it was probably better than returning to Seoul alone, so I changed my mind.

I showered again before he arrived. Looking at my reflection in the full-length mirror in the bathroom, I almost screamed. Not to mention the red marks all over my body, the bluish bruises and bite marks were enough to horrify anyone. I had never imagined that a day would come when I would carry such marks on my body…

“When did you arrive?”

When I finished showering and came out, Yeo Kyungmin, who had already arrived, was waiting for me.

“Are you feeling alright? It must have been difficult for you.”

It was a remarkably personal greeting, considering we had barely met a few times. I looked away from him, trying to hide my discomfort, and replied.

“You arrived quickly.”

“I was nearby. I couldn’t keep you waiting, Mr. Jaegyeong.”

He rose from his seat and handed me something. I took the shopping bag he offered and asked in a calm voice,

“What is this?”

“Your clothes, Mr. Jaegyeong. Executive Director Jang told me to bring them.”

“…”

The clothes inside the shopping bag weren’t the ones I had worn yesterday. They all had tags on them, as if they had just been purchased. I stared at them blankly, devoid of emotion.

“Please get dressed. Room service will arrive soon.”

Seeing him trying to take care of my meals as well, I shook my head. I had no appetite, and even if I chewed and swallowed something, I didn’t think my stomach would accept it.

“I’m fine without food.”

“It would still be better for you to eat something.”

“I’m fine.”

I emphasized my words once more and turned around. Even though I was wearing a robe, I wanted to quickly cover the red marks that weren’t fully concealed with clothes.

Perhaps knowing what he had done, the clothes Executive Director Jang Taejin had sent were a turtleneck sweater that came up to my neck. Of course, he probably hadn’t chosen them himself; it was likely Yeo Kyungmin’s choice. If he had chosen these clothes to cover up what his boss had done, there couldn’t be a more competent secretary. Come to think of it, hadn’t he answered my call immediately late last night?

“Do you like them?”

“Yes.”

“Good. Shall we leave for Seoul then?”

Yeo Kyungmin was remarkably courteous to me. I got into the car he had brought and we retraced the route we had taken the previous night. The car drove smoothly along the road lined with bare branches awaiting spring. After passing through the Seoul tollgate, he headed towards Executive Director Jang Taejin’s house.

“We’ve arrived.”

He kindly got out first and even opened the passenger door for me. Why was he being so nice to me…? A small question popped into my head.

“Shall I have them prepare a meal?”

“No, I don’t have any appetite.”

“Then please rest a little longer. That might be best.”

As I entered the house with him again, the eyes of the employees working in their respective positions widened. They probably all knew that I had run away from this house. The thought of how I must appear to them made me feel a little embarrassed.

I barely acknowledged their greetings, bowing my head slightly, and hurried to my room. Yeo Kyungmin followed me, carrying a familiar suitcase.

“I’ll leave your luggage here, Mr. Jaegyeong. I contacted President Lim Junsu, and he sent it over.”

It was ironic that my father, who had left home and was staying at a hotel, had packed and sent the luggage of his son who was being sold off.

“Then, please rest.”

“Wait a moment, Secretary Yeo.”

I hurriedly stopped him as he was about to leave the room. He turned around to look at me.

“Is there something you’d like to say?”

“Were you waiting for my call yesterday?”

“Pardon?”

“You answered so quickly… right away.”

I asked the question that had been lingering in my mind. Pure curiosity. I wanted to know how loyal this person was to Executive Director Jang Taejin.

“Yes, I was waiting.”

Ha. I let out a short breath. How could he have been waiting, knowing when I would call? How could he have known when I would agree to come to this house?

“Executive Director Jang said yesterday that you would contact me soon.”

In an instant, my face, which had been tinged with cynicism, hardened. I stared up at him blankly.

“Then, please rest.”

Yeo Kyungmin simply smiled. I was so stunned that I remained dazed even after he left the room.

I collapsed onto the bed. I rubbed my face with my hands for a long time, trying to clear my head and piece together the situation. He had come to find me yesterday. He had provoked me, calling me a cheap omega. And he had offered me the deal again, but I hadn’t answered. He hadn’t forced or rushed me for an answer either. But then he had told Yeo Kyungmin that I would contact him soon.

Had he done it on purpose? Had he deliberately provoked me? Knowing that I would get upset. Knowing that if he kept poking at my sore spot, I would act out of spite…

Suddenly, I felt my phone vibrate in my pants pocket.

“…”

I took out my phone and checked the screen. The caller was Nam Gichul. Only then did I remember that I hadn’t gone to work at Epicure today.

“Hello…?”

— Hey! Lim Jaegyeong! Where are you! Where are you?!

Nam Gichul shouted urgently before I could even finish my greeting. I chewed on my lip a few times before responding to him with a sigh.

“I’m sorry. Something came up.”

—What? Are you okay? Why does your voice sound like that?

“Yeah, I’m fine.”

—No, what is it? What happened that you’re absent from work without any notice?

“I’m sorry. I couldn’t contact you beforehand.”

—What is it? I’m worried. I even went to your house. I rang the doorbell so many times, but there was no answer.

“I’m not at home right now. I’m away.”

—Where are you? I’ll come pick you up. Let’s meet and talk.

Listening to his words, fatigue washed over me. I pressed my fingers against my throbbing temples and waited for him to finish speaking.

—Hey, hey. Lim Jaegyeong. Are you listening?

“I’m listening.”

I was probably being a bit shameless. Considering how coldly I was treating him, after all the kindness he had shown me.

—I’m asking where you are. Let’s meet and talk.

“Gichul.”

Nam Gichul, who had been talking incessantly, stopped at my tired, irritated voice.

“I’m sorry. I can’t see you right now. And there’s nothing to talk about.”

—Lim Jaegyeong…

“I can’t work at Epicure anymore. I’m sorry.”

—No. That’s not important right now.

“I’ll return the money I received in advance. Please tell your father I’m sorry.”

—No, who cares about the money right now? Hey, I’m worried about you…

“I’m hanging up.”

I pressed the end call button. My phone rang again, so I turned it off completely. I felt bad for him, but I didn’t have the energy left to express it kindly. Everything was tiring and irritating. I was too exhausted to respond to anything.

I collapsed face down on the bed, still in my robe. My exhausted body went limp as soon as it touched the bed. I slowly drifted off to sleep in the brightly lit room, bathed in sunlight. The warm sunlight settled comfortably on the cashmere knit.