UPLB Ch 11

The man, who had exhaled in the middle, produced a lot of saliva again and sucked with a noise. At the joop, joop sucking sounds and the sensation that only brought on excitement, he placed a hand on the back of his head. He grabbed his hair, not enough to be unpleasant, and tilted his head back. Yang Juwon looked up with dazed eyes.

“Change your position. Come to the side.”

Yang Juwon crawled over on his knees. He readjusted his position at an angle and buried his head again. Anyone watching would think he was moving his head in excitement as if he wanted to be the one sucking. He placed a hand on the ass of the man who was sucking with muffled sounds of geok, ggeok.

“Oop……!”

A startled sound escaped. Choi Sungbin cupped his buttock with his palm. He gently rubbed his palm over it. Even when he knelt, the ass that his hand touched was flat.

He caressed the ass of a man who had clearly never worked out and had the body he was born with. He had seen the penis several times, so he had no aversion. He felt it would be okay even if it was this man.

The hand that was gently stroking his buttock traveled up to his waist. When he pulled the waistband of his pants and slipped his hand into the gap, his teeth touched the shaft.

“I told you not to let your teeth touch.”

“Oop, oo-euh.”

The man muttered an excuse-like sound while sucking on the penis. It didn’t come through clearly because of the muffled pronunciation, but he probably said ‘I was surprised’. Choi Sungbin grabbed the man’s hair and made him lift his head. Saliva stretched from the glistening penis.

“Lick it.”

Yang Juwon stuck out his tongue and licked the dangling saliva. His eyes were bloodshot red. When he closed his eyes deeply and opened them, tears had formed.

He wiped away his tears with his thumb. He cupped the cheek that was flushed reddish with his palm. For whatever reason, he leaned his cheek against the palm and closed his eyes gently.

Is he just a gentle person, or is he a fool? Choi Sungbin waited quietly until he opened his eyes.

After some time had passed, the tightly shut eyes opened. His own reflection filled the black pupils that had a hint of brown.

It was not the expressionless face from before. So Choi Sungbin covered his eyes with his palm.

“Sunbae.”

“Yeah.”

“Stop sucking and take off your pants.”

The man flinched his shoulders. He seemed not to have understood the words. Only then did Choi Sungbin remove his hand from his eyes. His pupils, filled with bewilderment, were trembling.

Choi Sungbin gathered saliva in his palm and spat, then rubbed his penis up and down. He had no intention of expecting a condom or gel from him.

“What are you doing. Not taking off your pants.”

“Why the pants…….”

Yang Juwon wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. He awkwardly held onto the waistband of his pants and watched him cautiously. He couldn’t finish his sentence, chewing on his lip repeatedly.

Choi Sungbin said it nonchalantly.

“To see if it’s possible.”

“I mean, what…….”

“Why do you keep making me beat around the bush. I want to have sex. You must have imagined it.”

Choi Sungbin waited for the reaction that would come back.

“Ah…….”

After a short sigh, he soon lifted his hips and pulled down his underwear along with his pants. Yes, that’s right.

He knew he wouldn’t refuse. Even if his ass was torn open, even if he lost his first experience to a man. This man would have done as he was told.

The man couldn’t take off his bottoms properly and only pulled them down to his knees. He covered his crotch with his hands. Choi Sungbin was so dumbfounded that he laughed. He got up from his seat and turned off the light. Only a faint light came in diagonally from outside the window. The building next door blocked it, so only a very small part of the light seeped in.

There was no such thing as a romantic atmosphere. But it suited this man.

“You can stay like that. In any case.”

It’s not like I’m going to do any great foreplay.

Choi Sungbin placed his hands on the man’s back and made him lie on his stomach. He flinched and was stiff, but he was the same as usual. His form was dimly visible. The sight of a sturdy adult male lying face down, not a small figure, did not look very good.

Anyway, is it the same for men? Do I have to loosen him up with foreplay? He thought, looking down at the man lying face down.

He brought his finger to his closed hole. The hole clenched tightly at the foreign sensation. This won’t do.

“Sunbae.”

Yang Juwon, who was trembling with his head buried in the floor, only turned his head diagonally.

“Loosen yourself up.”

“…….”

“And go buy some condoms and gel. That would be better.”

Yang Juwon got up awkwardly. He gathered his knees and sat in a corner. His underwear and pants, which were caught on his knees, obstructed the view. It wasn’t that he wanted to see what was hanging between his legs. Choi Sungbin hooked his finger into the loop of his underwear and pants and pulled them down.

Yang Juwon squeezed his eyes shut and flinched.

“Do I have to tell you how to loosen up?”

Yang Juwon bit his lip instead of answering. It was probably an affirmation.

“Try putting saliva on your middle finger. And, yes, like that. Rub it well in between, and then you should be able to insert it gently.”

There was an all in one lotion for men in the bathroom, but Choi Sungbin deliberately told him to use saliva. There was no big reason. He wanted to see him do it. The sight of him, who knew nothing, with his innocent yet gloomy face, putting his own saliva on his fingers and masturbating from behind.

Yang Juwon did as he was told with his head turned diagonally. He sucked on his middle finger, spread his legs wide, and rubbed. His half erect penis was curved.

Without paying any attention to his penis, he rubbed his rear and then pushed in one knuckle of his finger. He frowned for a moment but couldn’t do anything with just one knuckle inserted.

“W, what do I have to do after this…….”

“You should know. Do I have to help you?”

Choi Sungbin moved closer to the man. He clasped his hand over the back of his. He pulled his finger back and then pushed it in. Every time, Yang Juwon couldn’t stay still and would bite his lip, turn his head sharply, and squeeze his eyes shut.

Choi Sungbin repeated the hand motion. The finger that had barely managed to penetrate one knuckle was now fully engulfed.

“Try moving your finger up and down. While rubbing.”

“Heuu……, eut.”

The hand cupping his rear moved slightly. As told, he was wiggling the inserted middle finger. He let out a hot breath.

“Is it because you like it?”

“Ah, I don’t know.”

“Try putting your index finger in too. We’re not just going to masturbate with fingers, are we.”

He did not move away from the man. While he spat saliva on his index and middle fingers and repeated the same action, a transparent fluid leaked from his half erect penis as if stretching. He looked at the penis once, and then at the man once.

Should I do this much for him? He reached out and wrapped his hand around his penis.

“Ah…….”

A low moan burst from Yang Juwon’s mouth. He’s enjoying it, the nerve. Choi Sungbin sneered inwardly and jerked his penis with an impassive face.

“Choi, Choi Sungbin…….”

“Yes.”

“I don’t think I can, that.”

“Why?”

Only then did he look up at the man. Even in the darkness, he could see the man’s face, flushed bright red. Choi Sungbin felt like he was about to laugh and barely managed to compose his lips.

“What do you mean you can’t. Just bear with it.”

“Ah, no…….”

“Do you think you’re going to cum?”

The man nodded his head quickly. Hmm, swallowing a short sigh, he lifted the hem of the man’s t-shirt.

“Keep it in your mouth.”

A flat chest with small nipples. Choi Sungbin jerked the man’s penis while rubbing his nipple with his thumb. Yang Juwon forgot about loosening his rear and just fidgeted, letting out pained groans.

Choi Sungbin dug his nails into his nipple and scratched. The man leaned his tilted head against the wall. The man who had always pretended to be calm was losing his reason in a fit of excitement.

It was fun.

“Heut, heuu…….”

“Keep loosening your rear. Your hand stopped.”

“Ah, wait, just a moment…….”

“If I fuck you like this, it’ll probably tear. Do you want to see blood?”

Yang Juwon quickly started moving his hand again. His hips lifted and his toes curled inward. He kept trying to close his knees, so he grabbed his legs and spread them apart.

He wanted to tell him to use some adult toys, but there was no way such things would be in this house. What am I doing here.

For a moment, a brief sense of doubt about what he was doing with this man washed over him, but Choi Sungbin looked at his face again. He wrapped his hand around the head of his penis. He stimulated the tip with his palm, rubbing quickly.

“Ah!”

And in that moment, the man came.

“Ah, shit…….”

Choi Sungbin showed his annoyance for all to see. The man’s semen splattered on his hand. The man’s chest heaved as he let out ragged breaths. Haa, haa. His rough breathing spread through the quiet room.

Choi Sungbin brought his hand to the man’s mouth.

“You’re the one who came, so lick it yourself.”

Before he could even catch his breath, the man grabbed his wrist. He stuck out his tongue and meticulously licked the semen. He was good with his tongue, having done it a few times. Choi Sungbin looked down at the man who was frantically licking his hand.

Fuck……. He swallowed a curse.

“Sunbae.”

As he called out to the man, he, who had been licking between his fingers, looked up.

“Stop licking and just suck my cock.”

They did not have sex. It was difficult to insert because Yang Juwon couldn’t seem to loosen his rear. If he had helped with foreplay, it might have been possible even without gel, but he didn’t particularly want to do that for this man. If he had forced it open and put it in, he could have, but that kind of coercive relationship was not his preference.

Choi Sungbin leaned against the wall and fiddled with his phone. The sound of water falling could be heard from beyond the bathroom. There was nothing to do since he had already washed up and come out.

He never thought he would be washing here again, but it ended up that way. A shabby bathroom where the shower head was attached to the sink, and you had to stand perfectly still in one spot to get wet without any room to move your feet. The broken tiles had been crudely repaired, and one of the lights was out, making it dark.

Although he had washed and come out, he felt just as grimy. Washing while facing the toilet was not a particularly refreshing experience.

The house, which didn’t even have a television, was frighteningly quiet. Occasionally, there were signs of life from the house next door, but for houses packed together like a beehive, the soundproofing was quite good.

He wore the underwear and pants that were given to him, but he didn’t put on a top. He held his breath quietly in the dark room. A faint light seeped through the crack under the bathroom door, which was directly in front of him.

Choi Sungbin stared at the firmly closed door. He had told Yang Juwon beforehand, before he went in to wash.

‘Next time we do it, I’m going to put it in. So loosen yourself up on your own.’

‘…….’

‘You’re going to masturbate, aren’t you. Try to practice a bit then. I have no intention of loosening you up.’

‘……I understand.’

He suddenly thought of Yang Juwon, who would be groaning and masturbating alone in this shabby house.

What would Yang Juwon do? By rubbing his thighs? Unlike in front of me, would he hold back his sounds normally, or would he let out suppressed breaths? Would he pant and do it unattractively?

This is the problem. The fact that he doesn’t feel much aversion to it. Perhaps he’s not in his right mind.

Fuck……. Choi Sungbin finally swallowed a curse.

The sound of water, which had been going on for a while, stopped. Not long after, Yang Juwon came out. Unlike him, who had come out without even wearing underwear, he had changed into neat clothes. Where did he put his clothes when there was no place to put them? When you shower, even the towel rack gets all wet, so there’s not even a space to hang a towel.

Choi Sungbin, who was leaning against the wall, looked up at Yang Juwon, who was silhouetted against the light.

“Are you going to dry your hair?”

“Yeah.”

Yang Juwon sat down in front of the refrigerator. He picked up the hair dryer that he had left out haphazardly and plugged it into the outlet. Whirring—, the dryer made a weak sound, just as it looked. The wind was also weak and just needlessly hot.

He roughly patted his hair dry and then turned off the dryer not long after. Then he immediately unplugged it, wound the cord, and put it in a small basket. It seemed he didn’t dry his hair completely. That suited the man.

He could roughly feel that it was now time to sleep. Fatigue washed over Choi Sungbin. The day had been too long. His eyes were dry, and he felt floaty, as if he had taken a sleeping pill.

He wanted to sleep, but…… it felt like a waste to sleep just like this.

He wanted to feel the strange feeling he had felt a few days ago one more time. The hand that had carefully caressed his cheek and the whisper to sleep well. It was only a few days ago, but it felt like the distant past. He wanted to confirm whether the sensation he had felt then was a lie or a delusion.

Perhaps he had returned to this house for this very reason. What was the big deal about not sleeping for a few days that he would have contacted him?

Choi Sungbin, who lay down first, pressed his body close to the wall.

“Sunbae.”

“Yeah.”

“Don’t sleep on the floor, lie down next to me.”

Yang Juwon scratched his cheek with an awkward face. He sat on the edge of the blanket with clumsy movements, like someone who had just had their first experience. It was frustrating, but he decided to understand this much. It must be his first time being touched by anyone, so how awkward must it be.

“……Why?”

Yang Juwon pretended to tidy up the bedding by patting it with his hands. Even if he pretended to tidy it, it wasn’t noticeable. It was pointless to tidy a blanket with loose threads sticking out.

“Come closer.”

When he patted the spot next to him, he dragged his ass over like a cow being sold off. Ah, this is annoying. Tsk, Choi Sungbin, who had clicked his tongue shortly, finally got annoyed.

“Is someone going to eat you? Why are you coming over like that.”

“……Do I have to lie down too?”

The man who let out a short breath asked. He didn’t particularly like the way his voice dragged.

“Then are you just going to sit there and watch me sleep?”

“That’s not it, but.”

It seems he will have to buy a blanket tomorrow. It looked like the time he would spend in this room would not be short. No matter how much he was given the spot, this blanket was also old and had lost its fluff. It was so thin that he could feel the floor. It felt like he would get muscle aches if he slept wrong.

It also smelled like Yang Juwon. It wasn’t particularly pleasant. If he buys a blanket tomorrow, he should take everything to the coin laundry nearby and wash it. Clean and fluffy. Not a blanket that smells of people like this.

Nevertheless, Choi Sungbin closed his eyes. It was a truly strange thing that everything in this room helped him sleep.

Even with his eyes closed, he slowly opened them at the shadow that was cast. His eyes met with the man who was looking down at him. I told you to lie down, but you’re resisting to the end.

No matter how much he thought about it, he didn’t like this man. He acted submissively, as if he would do everything he was told, but in the end, he was stubborn.

Choi Sungbin let out a sigh. If you’re going to be like that.

“Sunbae.”

“Yeah.”

“It’s not because I like you that I told you to sleep next to me.”

“Then?”

“Like last time.”

For some reason, it was nauseating to say. He lightly swept his lips with his tongue. The man’s gaze went to his lips and then quickly rolled his eyes away. He’s horny, alright.

For a moment, he wanted to call out this perverted man, but he held it in. There were more important things to say.

“Just touch my cheek like last time.”

“…….”

“And tell me to sleep well.”

He was sleepy. He was tired, and it felt like he could fall asleep at any moment. Choi Sungbin concluded that his own rambling voice was just him being grumpy from sleepiness.

Yang Juwon stared at him blankly instead of answering. Choi Sungbin closed his eyes deeply and then opened them. His throat felt tight. After a short, dry cough, he mumbled softly.

“Do it quickly.”

“…….”

“Touch me gently. Like you did then.”

“You…… you knew?”

The man’s voice trembled slightly. He was just asking back instead of doing what he was told.

Normally, he would have gotten annoyed with frustration, but he was already overcome with sleep. It was an environment where he could fall asleep even if he didn’t touch him, even if he didn’t whisper for him to sleep well.

But. Because he wanted to feel it one more time. He needed confirmation.

“Yes, do it like that.”

Hoo, the first thing that touched him was the man’s breath. A moderately heavy breath dug into the shell of his ear and tickled it.

Soon, the back of his fingers touched his cheek. Gently, as if barely touching, he carefully caressed his cheek. Choi Sungbin felt the touch with his eyes closed. His breathing gradually slowed. At any moment, it felt like he would fall asleep.

“I like it when someone does this for me too.”

The man’s voice was lower than usual. He was already an impassive, if not blunt, man, but because it was late at night, it had sunk even deeper.

Choi Sungbin nodded his head with his eyes closed. Who did this kind of cringey thing for you?

As if reading his mind, Yang Juwon continued.

“When I was young, if I was sleeping, my dad would do this for me. I liked it so much that there were times I even pretended to be asleep.”

He did not reply to the rambling words. He could get the answer quickly, but his mood was just so so.

He didn’t want to admit that Yang Juwon’s gentleness originated from his family environment. Then did that mean that because he was far from having a harmonious family, he had to live like this for the rest of his life?

Did he have to spend the night with anyone he clicked with that day, and wander the vast ocean without being able to settle down?

In fact, until now, he had thought that was comfortable. His heart was also at ease. He didn’t have to meet the other person’s expectations, and he didn’t have to soothe them if they were disappointed. He hated bothersome things.

But, with this kind of person in front of him. For some reason, it was a little……. He felt pathetic. He didn’t want to feel these emotions because of Yang Juwon.

“Choi Sungbin.”

“Yes.”

Choi Sungbin answered with his eyes closed. It was better to accept his nonsense than to get lost in thought.

“I want to know about you.”

“What is there to know. Just. ……This is me.”

“Then tell me about your family.”

This is annoying. He opened his closed eyes wide. He was one step further away from the sleep that had been delicately seeping in. Does Yang Juwon, I mean, does that bastard, naturally think that everyone has a harmonious family like him?

Choi Sungbin sat up with a start. A startled Yang Juwon pulled back. Knowing that an inferiority complex stems from a lack, he tried his best not to argue.

“Can’t we just not talk about family?”

But it wasn’t easy.

“Not everyone grows up with gentle parents like you, sunbae. They could be from a single parent family, or they might not have parents at all, or their guardian might not be their parent. Why can’t you think of that?”

Fuck. In the end, he ended up arguing.

Yang Juwon’s lips parted in a surprised face.

“Ah……, that’s right. I’m sorry.”

He soon offered a short apology. This man probably doesn’t know that that is even more annoying. Choi Sungbin momentarily clenched his jaw and then relaxed it.

“If you’re that curious, I’ll tell you.”

“…….”

“My stepmom and I are six years apart. Are you satisfied? Just stop with the talk about parents, it’s annoying.”

Choi Sungbin was about to turn to face the wall and lie down, but he stayed where he was. He looked at the man who was fidgeting with a sorry face. In fact, he was the one who had taken his anger out on him. He knew. So, when he met those eyes now, a slightly uneasy feeling lingered. He was human too. He couldn’t just throw a fit and be done with it.

His energy drained. What’s the point of getting angry? In the end, he was the only one who would get worked up and then it would be over.

In the end, it was the same as revealing a weakness. He let out a deep sigh and hung his head. Why did I even talk about this? He could have just ignored it.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t think of that.”

Yang Juwon apologized once more. The hand that had been caressing his own cheek was now repeatedly clenching and unclenching into a fist. This wasn’t what he wanted. He didn’t like the atmosphere. This shabby room was the problem. It was making him not be himself.

Choi Sungbin opened his mouth, his voice a tone lower.

“What about you, Sunbae.”

“Yes.”

“Am I not annoying to you?”

“Why?”

“Because I act however I want.”

Honestly, it was understandable if he was annoyed. Yang Juwon was the only person with whom he acted however he pleased. He would get irritated if he was irritated, show it if he was bothered, and at most, he would act favorably only once or twice out of ten times. So he became curious. No matter how much he was humbling his pride, could he really not be annoyed.

A normal human being would have every right to be annoyed. Was he that much of a psycho.

“…….”

The man did not answer. Their eyes met for a moment, then slowly drifted down to the floor.

Slowly, his eyes started to gain strength. Even if he was the one who asked…….

You said you liked me. You said you could endure it because you liked me. When you were acting like you would pluck the stars from the night sky if I just dated you, and now…….

As soon as his heart had begun to soften, it was already seething again.

“Why aren’t you answering? You should say that I’m not annoying.”

“Ah, you’re not annoying. I’m sorry.”

“This is like getting a bow after forcing someone to their knees. ……What are you trying to do?”

“Pfft.”

As soon as he grumbled, a small laugh was heard. At the sound of the laugh mixed with air that burst out after being held back, Choi Sungbin’s eyes widened.

Yang Juwon was laughing. It was the first time he had seen him laugh out loud. He had smiled from time to time, but even that was a rare occurrence. But now, he had even laughed out loud.

The man, who had rolled his lips into his mouth, straightened up his laughter with a shrug of his shoulders.

Choi Sungbin stared blankly at the sight.

“……Why are you laughing?”

“Ah, it’s just…….”

“I asked why you’re laughing.”

“Uh, because you’re cute.”

When he deliberately lowered his voice to sound fierce, an uncharacteristic excuse came back.

A wrinkle formed between his quiet brows. Cute. He thought it was a ridiculous thing to say. He did smooth over many situations with his charm, but that was limited to women, and he had definitely never shown that side of himself to Yang Juwon.

But he kept his mouth firmly shut. In any case, it was a compliment, so he had no intention of denying it. The guys who would furiously deny being called cute were pitiful souls who had never heard such a compliment in their lives.

He was a person who was used to compliments. He had never refused the goodwill of others. He would use it, if anything.

Should I do him a little service. He placed a hand on the man’s knee.

He felt the atmosphere loosen. There had to be times like this too. He couldn’t be prickly all the time.

“Sunbae.”

“Yes.”

He could feel a vibration in the man’s voice.

“Can I give you a peck on the cheek.”

“Why?”

“Because it seemed like you wanted me to.”

If he could even shake him like that, why couldn’t he give him a peck. He didn’t think his lips were expensive. Lips were things that met when the mood was right.

The man remained in his spot for a moment. In truth, it seemed he hadn’t even thought about a kiss. The line—because it seemed like you wanted me to—was purely his own insistence.

Hoo, after taking a deep breath to calm himself, Yang Juwon quietly came closer. And he pressed his lips to his cheek.

The lips that touched him without a sound were unfittingly soft. The lips that had been letting out pained breaths just a moment ago had now silently come to rest on him.

It was a strange feeling. A discomfort different from revulsion and filthiness seized him.

Choi Sungbin stayed still for a moment, then lay back down on the duvet as he was before. He nudged the thigh of the man who was fumbling to find a spot to lie down next to him.

“Just go sleep over there. I want to sleep alone.”