GHLL Ch 3

“Hide your teeth a little. It hurts like hell.”

He complained but did not stop his thrusting. He did not care even when I started to squeeze out tears in agony and continued his pumping motion.

“If you have two holes, one of them should be loose, how can both of them be so tight?”

He snickered, saying that I would get bitten off at this rate. Then he shut his mouth and moved quickly. Finally, the member lodged deep in my throat reached its limit and burst out with a gush of semen—wolkuk.

“Keut…!”

As his semen shot into my throat, I lost my mind. I was on the verge of choking my airway if I tried to spit out the gurgling semen, so I had no choice but to swallow it all.

I drank his semen along with my tears and snot. Only after he had poured out all his semen did the wet member, caked with saliva and bodily fluids, slowly slip out of my mouth. As soon as his hand let go of my head, I dropped my head and coughed for a good while.

“Kuhuk, ugh… Haa… Ku, kul-luck. Kul-luck kul-luck! Kul-luck kul-luck…!”

As I was coughing my lungs out, he grabbed my chin again and lifted it. He looked at my bright red, wet face with satisfaction and then stroked my wet eyes and lips with his thumb.

“Is it delicious?”

At his question, I unknowingly licked the inside of my mouth. Perhaps because he was a cannibal, his semen was bitter and stinging. I scowled deeply and grumbled, “It is not delicious.”

He helped me up and then stuck out his tongue and licked my wet face clean. Then he sat on the edge of the shelf and placed me on his thighs. And he licked down my neck, collarbone, and chest, then took the nipple that was flat against it into his mouth.

“Euum.”

He diligently licked and sucked the thing that was the size of a red bean, but the stinging sensation in my throat was more bothersome. As I cleared my throat several times with a dry cough, he lightly bit my nipple with his front teeth and chided me.

“Concentrate.”

“On what?”

At my bewildered answer, unable to grasp the context, he let out a frustrated sound, “Ha.” And after looking at my limply lying member, he mumbled to himself, “You were feeling it well. Are you not fully developed yet?” Then, as if to make it stand up, he grabbed my member with his hand. Refusing his hand, I shrugged my shoulders.

“It is cold.”

As I hugged his shoulders, I wrapped my legs around his waist and pressed my body tightly against him. He hugged my cold back in return and asked, “You like this?” I nodded my head, resting my head on his shoulder.

It was nice when he sucked or licked me, but I liked it more like this, pressing our bare skin together and sharing our body heat. I think it was because his body was thicker and his body temperature was higher than my brother’s.

There were times when I hugged my brother with our bare bodies, but his body was too small and thin for me to know if it was good. His gaunt body felt like it would not just snap but crumble like ash if I touched it wrong. It was ephemeral, just like everything else in this world.

But Kim Daesik’s body was different. It was hard and sturdy. It felt like it would stand firm no matter what happened, and the thought that it would be okay to be eaten by him stealthily crept in. Then would it not be the same as becoming his nourishment and living on with him? The idea of my body becoming his body seemed to please me.

“…You must really like it.”

At some point, my member was half-erect. I tensed up and my hips flinched at his fingers probing my rear hole. Each time that happened, my member rubbed against his hot, firm lower abdomen, and I was stimulated. Before long, it was hard and erect, and I panted with mixed-in moans.

“Euht, eung… heu-eung….”

I liked rubbing my whole body against him while hugging him. It felt even better when my member, slick from the secreted fluid, became slippery against his lower abdomen. I kept letting out heated sighs, then stopped moving at the feeling of his fingers, which had been widening my rear, pulling out and something large touching me. As I stiffened my body at the thought that it would hurt, he whispered in my ear.

“I will be gentle, it will not hurt today.”

“…Really?”

“It is true. Thanks to you sucking it with that tiny little mouth of yours, it has become bearable.”

At his words, spoken as he kissed my lips with a peck, I reluctantly rested my forehead on his shoulder. Receiving my unspoken permission, he slowly lowered my hips.

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His words that it would not hurt were a complete lie.

I clutched my numb and aching lower back and returned to the general store. Seeing my waddling gait, Kim Daesik snickered obnoxiously and offered to give me a piggyback ride. But since it was right after I had been tormented by him, I did not even want his fingertips to touch me. His body felt good, but he was overly persistent and did not know when to stop. I shivered with rage at his temperament, which was only satisfied after he had completely worn a person out.

As soon as I returned to the general store, I lay down as if I were sick. But Kim Daesik was busy scheming to enter the underground parking lot. The men showed reluctance at the mention of the underground parking lot, but Kim Daesik’s attitude was firm.

“The gasoline on the ground level is all dried up, so that is the only way. We have to search the cars in the underground parking lot.”

“We do not even know exactly where the gasoline is, how can we check them one by one in a place full of ghouls?”

“If it really does not work out, let’s just abandon the car and walk.”

Despite the men’s continued protests, Kim Daesik shook his head.

“We cannot find food by walking on two feet.”

The food Kim Daesik was talking about meant people. As cannibalism became common due to a lack of food, the population was decreasing day by day. A few years ago, I could see people from a distance once every few months, but recently, that had not happened. I could feel how much the population had decreased.

My brother, who used to go out for days to distant places to find food, also said he never saw people. My brother said that it was only natural, asking how people could remain when people were eating people. And he said that the day when all people would become ghouls was not far off. One would think he would give up on everything then, but he earnestly warned me not to resort to cannibalism, no matter how hungry I was.

What Kim Daesik was worried about was probably the cannibal disease rather than starvation. I did not know exactly how long one had to stop eating human flesh for it to develop, but if they could not find people while traveling without a car, they could not hunt no matter how skilled they were. Then they would turn into ghouls, so he seemed to think they had to find gasoline by any means necessary.

“Let’s use bait.”

“Bait?”

“Since we have plenty of food right now, let’s use that as bait to lure the ghouls in the underground parking lot to the surface. In the meantime, we’ll go into the underground parking lot and look for gasoline.”

“Even if we throw some food, if a horde of ghouls attacks, it will disappear in an instant. Will the luring work?”

“We just have to make it so they cannot eat it easily.”

“Even if we lure them, you said the underground parking lot has three floors. We cannot lure out all the ghouls inside. If we make one wrong move, we will be surrounded and unable to move.”

After thinking for a moment, Kim Daesik started drawing a map on the floor. His memory was so good that he reproduced the map he had seen on the information board exactly. Then he pointed to one of the emergency stairwells connecting the B1, B2, and B3 floors.

“Then let’s do the opposite and place the bait on the B3 floor. The smell of a living person’s blood will make all the ghouls on the B2 and B1 floors run down to the B3 floor. Then we can block the passage between B1 and B2 with the car and search B1.”

Nodding his head at Kim Daesik’s suggestion, Lee Seokhyeon added.

“Still, we need bait just in case a horde of ghouls comes rushing in.”

At the mention of needing more bait, Park Chankyu immediately frowned.

“Damn it, we are going to use up all the food we have painstakingly stored.”

“Let’s take a living, moving bait with us. Then it can run away on its own feet.”

At Lee Seokhyeon’s words, all the men except Kim Daesik looked at me at once. I, who had no intention of entering the underground parking lot, was flabbergasted at the word ‘bait’. Because of that, I swallowed my saliva wrong and started to hiccup.

The sound of hiccup, hiccup, echoed while the men were quiet. It was because Kim Daesik was lost in thought instead of looking at me. Taking his silence as hesitation, the men listed the reasons why I should be used as bait.

“We have to look for gasoline and fight ghouls, so it is right to use that guy as bait.”

“That guy is a lunchbox anyway. It does not matter if he gets bitten a little by the ghouls.”

“We are not saying we should use him as bait from the beginning, but if it comes to that.”

“Yeah. Let’s do that if it really comes to that, if it really comes to that.”

I waited with wide eyes for Kim Daesik to say that it could not be done. But Kim Daesik did not grant my wish. Kim Daesik stroked his chin and slowly nodded his head.

“Alright, though of course, it would be best if we do not have to release the bait.”

Kim Daesik and the men discussed how to go down to the B3 floor to set the bait. While they were making various plans, I did not say anything. I was not in a good mood because I had been chosen for the role of bait.

I sat behind them and listened to their conversation, but then I thought, what is the point of listening, and just went up to the second floor. Then I picked up a doll and sat down in the narrow gap between a shelf and the window, using it as a cushion. Sitting with my knees up, I looked out at the outside, which was blurry from the stains on the glass, and saw a gray world that stretched on endlessly. As I looked up at the sky, which was ready to sprinkle ash at any moment, I unfolded the page from the cookbook that I had torn out at the bookstore.

“The powder… mix it well until no white powder is seen… and pre… prepare the deca? decoration… First, the butter and… cream cheese and sugar powder… 1 and… 2 and… 3?”

As I struggled, not knowing how to read the symbols between the numbers, a presence loomed over my head and a meddling voice was heard.

“It means to put them in a 1 to 2 to 3 ratio.”

I stuck out my lips and folded the page I was looking at back up. Then I was about to put it in my bosom, but it was snatched away by Kim Daesik, who had followed me at some point. When I waved my hand, saying, “Give it here,” Kim Daesik avoided it and fluttered the page.

“Are you sulking?”

“What are you talking about. Just give that here. It is mine!”

“What is yours here? You yourself are mine. So this is mine too.”

I got angry at Kim Daesik’s nonchalant reply.

“I never said I would be yours. I brought it, so it is mine. Give it back!”

“I am asking if you are mad at me.”

I got up from my spot and tried to get the chocolate cupcake recipe back from him. But no matter how much I stood on tiptoe and jumped on the spot, I could not retrieve my belonging from the hand of Kim Daesik, who was a head taller than me. I got annoyed and stomped on his instep with my foot.

“Ouch!”

As he staggered, I snatched the page. Then I quickly hid it in my bosom and glared.

“I am mad! You took my thing without permission and would not give it back, how can I not be mad?”

“Not about that… Are you mad because I agreed to use you as bait?”

“What are you talking about?”

Since I was annoyed, I did not want to think deeply about his words. I spat out curtly and turned my body away from him, crawling into the tent. Kim Daesik, who followed me inside, lay down next to me as I lay down and said.

“Do not worry, the ghouls will not be able to lay a single fingertip on you.”

He slid his hand into my clothes and fiddled with the nipple on my chest.

“I cannot hand over something this delicious to ghouls who do not even know what is delicious and what is not.”

It hurt because he was doing all sorts of things with my nipple. When I said it was prickly and pulled his hand down, that hand rubbed my soft lower abdomen and then stealthily crawled into my pants. And it played with my pubic hair. I sighed, pulled his hand back up, and said.

“Worry about yourself. An underground parking lot is no different from a ghoul’s den, and you are going to go in there?”

Hearing me mumble, “You must be crazy to want to die,” he buried his lips in the crown of my head. Then he rubbed his face in my hair and said.

“I will not die until I eat you.”

“Do not die even after you eat me.”

“Huh?”

“Live a long, long life even after you eat me. That way, there will be a point in being eaten.”

I do not know what was so strange about my words, but he made a “Hmm?” sound and then snickered and laughed. Then he pressed his lips to the back of my neck and started to feel me up here and there. I grimaced and protested that we had done it plenty earlier, but it was no use.

“Come up here.”

I had to get on top of him and stroke both my thing and his together. Every time I stopped, saying my arm hurt, he would move his hips as if to urge me on, which was truly tiring.

In the end, his hand held both my hand and our two members together and stroked them. I could feel his member throbbing as if it would cum several times, but he stubbornly held out until I came. Only after he made me cum did he cum himself.

“Ah-heuk!”

“Heut…!”

Completely drained of energy, I could not be bothered with the semen splattered on his chest and collapsed on his chest. As I panted and grumbled, “I am hungry because I am wasting all my energy on useless things,” Kim Daesik reached out and took out the biscuits from my backpack for me.

I had been eating them little by little, and now there were not many left of that large quantity of biscuits. Looking at the emptying backpack, Kim Daesik wiped the corner of my mouth as I was eating a biscuit on his chest and said.

“Once we get gasoline, we should look for something for you to eat first.”

“I hope it is something other than biscuits.”

“Why, are you sick of biscuits now?”

I nodded my head. As disappointing as the dwindling biscuits was my dulling palate. At first, the biscuits were unbelievably delicious, but perhaps because I kept eating the same thing, the excitement was less. Now, even if I put one in my mouth and chewed, it felt like I was chewing on cardboard, with no sensation.

Realizing that I was being a spoiled brat, I changed my words.

“No, biscuits are fine too.”

“You will never be able to get the same thing twice anyway.”

He wiped the semen from my body and his, and dressed me again. Then, as he got dressed himself, he asked.

“Besides biscuits and chocolate, what else do you want to eat?”

I thought for a moment and then said.

“…Coke?”

“Coke?”

“Yeah. It is a sweet and cool drink, and they say it has a fizzing taste. In the old days, they drank that on Christmas. Do you know polar bears, polar bears? They said polar bears made and sold coke. They are probably Santa’s colleagues. Santa works with reindeer too. They say those reindeers’ noses sparkle. Like car lights.”

He looked at me as I babbled with a smile on his face and then said.

“This is the first time I have seen you talk so much. Seeing as you were going on about carols last time, you must like Christmas, huh?”

“Not me. My brother liked it. He said he was in a shelter when he was young, and he has memories of spending Christmas there. They piled presents under the tree and unwrapped them all together on Christmas morning.”

He sat cross-legged, propped his chin on his hand, and listened to me, then made a promise he could not keep.

“Someday, when Christmas comes, I will let you drink coke. I will make you a chocolate cupcake too.”

I did not ask when that ‘someday’ was. I knew that Christmas was on December 25th, but since I did not know what day it was today, I did not know when Christmas was either.

I did not even know my exact birthday. My brother always celebrated my birthday, but he did not know what day it was either. He just celebrated that day again after 365 days, or one year, had passed from a certain day that was considered my birthday.

It must have been the same for the men. If they knew exactly when Christmas was, they would not say ‘someday’. Therefore, I knew that his words were just words. Of course, I did not have any expectations. But Kim Daesik said something absurd.

“Then what will you do for me?”

I frowned.

“Why should I?”

“If I let you drink coke and make you a chocolate cupcake, of course you should do something for me too.”

“Why do you not ask after you have done it first?”

“I have to know what I will get to feel like doing it.”

“I never asked you to do it. If you do not want to, then do not.”

“What, you are sulking, are you not? You are getting revenge because I agreed to use you as bait, right?”

“No, I am not!”

When I cut him off, saying I had nothing to give, so he should not give me anything either, Kim Daesik answered loudly, “Alright, I got it!” and flopped down on the spot. Then he started to grumble, quite loudly for a monologue.

“There is no reward for pampering you and feeding you delicious things. You never asked for it, so if I do not want to do it, I should just stop? How heartless. I am disappointed, so disappointed!”

I did not know what he was so disappointed about, but Kim Daesik did not stop saying he was disappointed until the men came up to the second floor and everyone went to bed. Having expectations on his own, what did he expect?

When I ignored him and pretended to be asleep, Kim Daesik also quieted down after a short while. But instead of sleeping, he came closer to me, buried his face in the back of my head, and let out a deep sigh.

“Well, what can I expect from you.”

The back of my neck tickled at his whispering voice. I forced myself to resist the urge to toss and turn. It was because I thought he would know I was awake and start complaining again.

“I should be grateful that you just accept it.”

His arms tightened, and I felt a little suffocated. I sucked in a breath, heup, and thought that it was still a relief.

When my brother told me not to do anything, I felt extremely frustrated. It was because I could not do anything for him, for the reason that I was young. I even felt doubtful about why I had to live in this ashen world with no dreams or hope, parasitizing my brother without being of any use.

But now I knew why I was alive. It was to be eaten by Kim Daesik. When I thought that I would be eaten by him someday, his kindness was not burdensome. When my brother starved himself to give me food, I could not swallow it, but it was not like that now. I had no hesitation because I thought that the more I ate well and gained weight, the more delicious I would be for Kim Daesik.

That night, I had a dream. It was a dream where Kim Daesik was making a chocolate cupcake. Amidst the sweet scent of chocolate filling the air, Kim Daesik spread my legs wide and filled my insides with butter left at room temperature, cream cheese, and sugar powder. Then he put me in an oven preheated to 170 degrees.

I was baked to a golden brown in the hot oven. When I was finally taken out of the oven, I felt very appetizing myself. I hoped he would hurry up and eat me, who was decorated with whipped cream and cherries, and that he would find me more delicious than anything else in the world.