IGWNI Ch 23

Slowly, his blurred vision came back into focus and he could breathe again. Like a person who had come out of the water and onto land, Yoon Jaewoo quickly inhaled and exhaled. In between the gasping breaths, a man’s voice continued.

It is alright, it is alright, he said.

As he did so, a sense of relief that it would truly be alright seeped into his heart.

「It is alright. Ramia. Because it is a dream.」

“Haah. …Haah.”

「Ramia. It is alright.」

“…Haah….”

「It is alright.」

Only then did Yoon Jaewoo raise his head and look at the person who was stroking his back. In the darkness, blue eyes were looking down at him with worry. When their eyes met, he whispered, it is alright. Yoon Jaewoo nodded. He looked around, but the black monster that had been rushing toward him was nowhere to be seen.

「What kind of dream are you having?」

Eustace asked, recalling that the young Ramia had had several similar incidents with nightmares.

“…Just.”

Yoon Jaewoo, who was about to speak, firmly closed his mouth.

He did not want to bother telling the story of his accident. He felt like he had told that story to the psychiatrist at the mental hospital a hundred times. The response was always the same.

‘It is because you are unable to accept the reality after the accident that the memory of the day of the accident keeps tormenting you as a nightmare. The reason the car appears in your dream as a monster is that you believe the accident is the main culprit that ruined your life. First, you must start by accepting the accident as reality and embracing it. You must find things you can do in small parts of your daily life and begin to find meaning through them. You should have a grateful heart for having miraculously survived.’

Blah, blah, blah, a series of incomprehensible nonsense, empty words that did not even reach his heart. How could that be a miracle and a blessing in disguise? To me, it is a misfortune in itself.

「What kind of dream are you having.」

Eustace asked again.

“…A stupid dream.”

Yoon Jaewoo said, shaking his head and showing a faint smile. His hair was still damp with a cold sweat. Eustace created a breeze with his hand and cooled Yoon Jaewoo’s sweat. At the pleasant sensation, Yoon Jaewoo slightly closed his eyes.

「You have nightmares in a very dramatic way.」

“I suppose so.”

Yoon Jaewoo laughed. A laugh just came out. He wondered if the god of this world also had nightmares.

Eustace, who was observing Yoon Jaewoo’s expression, asked, why are you laughing.

“…Have you ever had a nightmare?”

「Dweords do not dream often.」

Eustace answered. Because a Dweord’s dream affects the world, they try not to dream if they can help it. Except for the dream he had here a while ago, he could not even remember when he had last dreamt.

“I see.”

Yoon Jaewoo mumbled quietly and nodded his head. Eustace paused for a moment, then opened his mouth.

「I had a dream a while ago.」

“What kind of dream?”

「I do not remember.」

It was a lie. What kind of dream he had, what kind of feeling he had when he opened his eyes, he could still vividly recall, the dream was that unforgettable.

That dream where the black bead he held in his hand shattered into pieces and disappeared between his fingers.

It remained clearly in his memory, making him feel unpleasant.

“Hahaha. So Dweords also forget things. How fascinating.”

「I think you are misunderstanding something.」

A smile lingered on Eustace’s lips.

「Dweords also forget many things.」

“Do they?”

「They also make mistakes. Though Malik would not admit it.」

Thinking of Malik, who was bursting with self-love, Yoon Jaewoo let out a chuckle. Eustace gently caressed Yoon Jaewoo’s face.

「So you should forget too.」

“……?”

「A dream must end as a dream. Because if it starts to affect reality, you get devoured by the dream.」

He remembered hearing something similar from the doctor. Yoon Jaewoo looked at Eustace, who was giving him such advice with a serious face, and swallowed a laugh.

“You sound like a doctor.”

「A doctor? That is a funny thing to say.」

“I know, right. For you to be a doctor, your face is too….”

「……?」

Yoon Jaewoo was about to say it was too much of a waste, but he closed his mouth. He was sure the man knew very well how handsome he was without needing to be told, so he did not want to say such a thing with his own mouth.

“Too scary looking, I mean.”

「Me?」

“Yes. You are scary. Very.”

When he said very, he emphasized it by opening his eyes wide. Eustace laughed softly.

「Go to sleep. The night is still deep.」

Yoon Jaewoo lay down in his spot again. He closed his eyes and stayed still like that for a long while, then Yoon Jaewoo suddenly muttered.

“…If I said I was going to go out for a walk and come back, you would not let me go, would you?”

「Why ask when you already know?」

“I asked just in case.”

Yoon Jaewoo said, turning his body to lie on his side. Even when he closed his eyes and tried to go back to sleep, the sleep that had been disturbed would not easily return. In the past, at times like this, if he had a glass of soju, his body would get warm and sleep would come easily.

“By any chance.”

Yoon Jaewoo suddenly spoke again.

Eustace did not answer, but knowing he was awake, he continued speaking.

“Could I have a drink?”

「A drink?」

“Yes. …Because I cannot sleep.”

「A young thing like you says the darnedest things. If you want to drink, live another hundred years and then talk.」

Eustace’s scolding came back immediately. Yoon Jaewoo knew that even if he said he was an adult who could drink, it would be useless in this world, so he obediently shut his mouth, saying, I understand.

Still, sleep does not come. After tossing and turning a few more times, Eustace quietly called him, Ramia.

“What is it?”

「If you wish, I can get you intoxicated.」

“Huh? Really?”

When you feel this awful, there is nothing better than having a drink. Yoon Jaewoo’s eyes sparkled as he turned his body around.

Eustace smiled and caressed Yoon Jaewoo’s jaw with his fingertips. At the touch that went from his jaw to his cheek, to his earlobe, Yoon Jaewoo said, uh, and parted his lips. The movement of the hand strangely veered off course.

“…Why do you keep touching me.”

「Did I not say I would get you intoxicated.」

“Then you should just give me a drink, why do you keep….”

Having said that much, Yoon Jaewoo swallowed dryly. Eustace’s finger entered his mouth, gently touched his tongue, and retreated. He felt like he was getting hotter wherever Eustace’s fingertips touched.

「The Rith you drink every morning has an ingredient mixed in it that makes you feel good.」

Rith was a bodily fluid mixed with a substance that Dweords produce when they are aroused.

「Even a trace amount makes you feel languid and relaxes your body.」

No wonder.

The saliva had been unbelievably sweet. While kissing, Yoon Jaewoo had found himself unconsciously opening his mouth to get even one more drop of that saliva, and he had been in the midst of feeling a deep despair that he might have become a pervert.

“Isn’t that something like a drug? Aren’t you trying to get me addicted?”

When Yoon Jaewoo asked with a face full of suspicion, Eustace flicked Yoon Jaewoo’s nose bridge hard with his finger.

「You insolent thing. You babble carelessly just because you have a mouth.」

“What do I do if I get addicted!”

When Eustace asked, why, Yoon Jaewoo scowled deeply and answered.

“Once you get addicted to something like that, it is so hard to quit.”

Eustace looked at Yoon Jaewoo with a face that said, I have never seen such an audacious thing.

“Let us be clear. I will not get addicted, right?”

Yoon Jaewoo asked again. Eustace, with a slightly displeased expression, answered, that is right. Only then did Yoon Jaewoo sigh in relief and nod his head.

“But, …if I drink that, will I really feel good?”

「That is why you are in that state every morning.」

“……”

He could not think of a rebuttal.

Every time they kissed before he left the door, Yoon Jaewoo would go to the verge of fainting. His legs would give out to the point where he could not stand on the ground without Eustace holding him, and his mind would become blank. To think it was all because of the aphrodisiac properties of Rith, he felt a little wronged.

In fact, he had been feeling a sense of inferiority towards Eustace as a fellow man. There was a man who could make a person half-faint with just a single kiss, so he had even felt a sense of guilt, wondering if he even deserved to hear that he was a good kisser.

“What the. I was tricked.”

Yoon Jaewoo grumbled sulkily.

「About what?」

“I naturally thought it was all….”

「All?」

“…technique….”

Eustace stared at Yoon Jaewoo as if he were completely dumbfounded for a long moment, then opened his mouth.

「So, everything is because of Rith?」

“That is right. Of course. Is there any other reason?”

Yoon Jaewoo’s body was pulled abruptly. Eustace climbed on top of him and sat down. Yoon Jaewoo, surprised, said, uh, and looked up at the man with his mouth open.

Looking up from below, his face is even more perfect and beautiful.

Truly, this world must have chosen its gods based on their faces. A filthy lookism must be ruling all worlds.

「I will prove to you that not everything is because of Rith.」

“No, thank you.”

Yoon Jaewoo laughed and tried to sit up, but Eustace made him lie back down on the bed. A sense of anxiety slowly crept in.

“What are you proving. You do not have to.”

Eustace covered Yoon Jaewoo’s chattering mouth with his hand. Then he brought his lips to the nape of his neck. Yoon Jaewoo’s body shot up with a start. The lips that had been fumbling around his neck moved up and took Yoon Jaewoo’s earlobe into his mouth. Yoon Jaewoo squirmed, asking to be let go. A smile formed on the lips that held his earlobe. He increased the sucking force of his lips.

The squirming from below intensified. Eustace swept his hand down Yoon Jaewoo’s body. Every time the cool hand touched his body, a small, startled tremor was transmitted. Eustace let go of the hand that was covering Yoon Jaewoo’s mouth. Yoon Jaewoo gasped for breath and glared at Eustace with a flushed face, hot with a fever.

“Do not joke around, …eut.”

Yoon Jaewoo bit his lip. Eustace’s hand fumbled below Yoon Jaewoo’s waist.

「Joking?」

Eustace asks.

It was also a self-deprecating question. A question he was asking himself, about what he was doing with this young Ramia.

“D-don’t, touch, there…, eut.”

It was an ambiguous statement, unclear whether he was asking to be touched there or not to be touched. Eustace swept his palm down Yoon Jaewoo’s leg. In the darkness, the sound of skin brushing against skin could be heard. Yoon Jaewoo pushed Eustace’s shoulder with his hands. The more he did, the more Eustace lowered his body, pressing his own body tightly against Yoon Jaewoo’s.

As the large, hard body pressed down from above, it became increasingly difficult for Yoon Jaewoo to breathe. His breathing had started to become ragged since a while ago.

“Eut…, I told you not to….”

In between his words, hot breaths escaped. The memory of properly relieving himself down there since coming here was faint. After being utterly humiliated in front of Jinsu hyung in the forest before, he had not even thought of trying again. Lately, because he had been having near-fainting kisses every morning to ingest Rith, he was in a gradually dangerous state.

“…Let go. Of this.”

The air was gradually getting hotter. Yoon Jaewoo struggled to push Eustace away. Eustace brushed Yoon Jaewoo’s hair back and asks.

「Should I let you go?」

His lips bit Yoon Jaewoo’s lip and let go. Yoon Jaewoo flinched, his shoulders trembling. Even without swallowing Eustace’s saliva, his toes trembled in anticipation.

「I am asking if you wish for me to let you go just like this.」

Eustace’s lips slowly brushed against Yoon Jaewoo’s lips. His tongue moved over them, as if it would touch, but not quite. Yoon Jaewoo’s lips parted and moved. In his head, he thought, no, this is dangerous, but his lips were slowly opening.

Damn it. The tragic desires of a man.

Yoon Jaewoo squeezed his eyes shut and parted his lips. He heard Eustace’s laughter above his lips.

“Do not laugh….”

He could not finish the next word. Eustace swallowed Yoon Jaewoo’s lips. As their tongues tangled and their lips locked, Yoon Jaewoo swallowed the sweet saliva that entered his mouth and swore inwardly.

Even if he tried to kiss in a calm and gentle manner, it was not possible. When he kissed Eustace, he would find himself clinging like a drowning person, gasping for breath.

“Ha…, Ahh, …eut.”

Eustace bit Yoon Jaewoo’s lower lip and let go. Yoon Jaewoo felt a thirst like someone who had not had a drop of water for three days.

Just a little more, just a little more.

His mind was filled only with the thought of wanting to taste Eustace’s Rith somehow. Like a person with his lips under a faucet that dripped one drop at a time, waiting for the stream of water to come out, Yoon Jaewoo bit Eustace’s lips, pleading.

「Ramia. What should I do for you.」

Eustace asked. Stroking Yoon Jaewoo’s waist with his hand, he spoke in a subtly coaxing tone, as if soothing a child.

「Tell me what you would like me to do.」

“…What.”

「You tell me. I will do it for you.」

Yoon Jaewoo hated the man in front of him. Why was he so talkative when he could just shut up and kiss him?

「Does that mean you want nothing?」

Eustace said, kissing the corner of Yoon Jaewoo’s wide-open eyes. As Yoon Jaewoo kept his mouth tightly shut in silence, Eustace said, then, and tried to get up.

Yoon Jaewoo grabbed his arm. His large eyes trembled with anxiety, much like when grabbing the tail of a departing beast. It was as if he was saying not to go. Do not go, stay by my side.

“I….”

Eustace did not listen to the next words. He pulled the back of Ramia’s head and kissed him, leaving not an inch of space between them. Every time a panting moan was heard from between the parted lips, the kiss deepened.

“Eut…, eu, eung….”

Like a baby begging for milk, Yoon Jaewoo moved his tongue and swallowed Eustace’s saliva. One drop, then another, as his Rith accumulated in his body, a reddish heat spread all over him. Yoon Jaewoo clung to Eustace’s arm. Please, do something to me, he wanted to say, but only groaning moans escaped from between his blocked lips.

He had no sensation below his legs. His body had become so hot that he felt like he would really die like this. Yoon Jaewoo started to cry.

“Ah, eut…. Heut…. Ah….”

He had asked for a drink to help him sleep, so what on earth was this? Forget sleep, I am about to die right now!

Eustace’s hand wrapped around the nape of Yoon Jaewoo’s neck. Yoon Jaewoo swallowed a moan. It felt like fire was spreading wherever their bodies touched. It was hot and itchy, and he felt like he was going crazy. He wanted to do something about it, but he was afraid the man would notice the hardened desire below his waist, so all he could do was squirm and receive the kisses.

「Stay still.」

Eustace said, pressing down on Yoon Jaewoo’s knee with his thigh. Because of that, the space between Yoon Jaewoo’s legs ended up touching the inside of Eustace’s thigh.

“……!”

Yoon Jaewoo’s face turned beet red. He heard Eustace’s short laugh by his ear. Eustace kissed his neck, hot from the fever, and whispered.

「Hold me.」

“…Pardon?”

「Hold me tight, so you do not fall.」

Eustace made Yoon Jaewoo wrap his arms around his neck. His hard body collided directly with Yoon Jaewoo’s. Yoon Jaewoo’s desire was rubbed right against Eustace’s thigh.

“Ah, …no, I don’t….”

Yoon Jaewoo shook his head.

I do not want this. This is scary. This is, too…, blatant.

Looking at Yoon Jaewoo’s tearful face, Eustace muttered to himself, what a young thing.

What a young thing, to make such a face.

He began to explore the inside of Yoon Jaewoo’s mouth. Even though Rith would not come from the young and small Ramia, it tasted sweet. When he mixed their tongues and stimulated the mucous membrane of his mouth, the young Ramia let out panting breaths and squirmed. Groaning as if in pain, he soon showed heated movements in between. The small movement of spreading his desperately closed legs and arching his hips made Eustace laugh.

What a young thing, already learning only the lewd things.

“Heuk…, haah….”

The corners of Yoon Jaewoo’s eyes turned red. Every time Eustace moved his body, Yoon Jaewoo’s legs also swayed. Along with them, the desire that had swelled between his legs was frictioned against Eustace’s hard thigh.

Yoon Jaewoo felt like he was going crazy. He wanted to shake his own hips and somehow resolve this heat. Yoon Jaewoo grabbed Eustace’s clothes and gasped for breath. Eustace bit down on Yoon Jaewoo’s earlobe, nibbling it. Then he slowly licks the earlobe and the area below it with his tongue.

“Heuk…, ah, ah, I, …am strange, …I feel.”

「It is alright.」

It was not alright at all. It felt like his lower body was so hot it was going to burst. Yoon Jaewoo grabbed Eustace’s shoulders and, with his lips to his ear, practically cried and begged.

Do something about me, please. I feel like I am going to die, so please…. please…, please do it for me.

The last words were buried in his sobs and were almost inaudible. However, Eustace understood the meaning of Yoon Jaewoo’s words precisely and moved his hand to grasp between his legs.

When the large, cool palm touched him, Yoon Jaewoo’s body shot up with a start. Yoon Jaewoo realized just how hotly he had been aroused through the cool touch of the palm.

Eustace bit Yoon Jaewoo’s cheek. Presently, his hand began to move slowly up and down. Hot breaths were exhaled from Yoon Jaewoo’s mouth.

“Ah, …haah, …eut…ah, ah!”

Eustace bared his teeth and bit Yoon Jaewoo’s nose and lips in succession. He kissed him again. Inside the tightly locked mouths, moans melted into breaths and scattered. Under Eustace’s palm, his desire swelled more and more fiercely. His head was dizzy and the tips of his toes tingled.

He was aroused all the way to the back of his throat where Eustace’s saliva flowed in. Yoon Jaewoo cried as he spread his legs and hugged Eustace’s waist. He did not know how to handle this maddening desire, and he was at a loss like a child.

Whenever Eustace’s lips moved away even for a moment, Yoon Jaewoo would gasp for breath and plead. Please, please, please…, please.

Eustace frowned slightly as if displeased and bit his lip. He wanted to ask where on earth he had learned to plead with such a face at such a young age.

Eustace hugged Yoon Jaewoo like that and bit and licked the nape of his neck. When he added strength to his hand and stroked him up quickly, Ramia’s body momentarily tensed with a sharp intake of breath. Something wet gushed out into Eustace’s palm. Releasing like that three or four more times, Yoon Jaewoo’s body trembled violently.

“Haah…, haah….”

After releasing everything, Yoon Jaewoo hung limp in Eustace’s arms, exhaling his breath. His vision was spinning, and he could not even recognize what had just happened.

「Ramia.」

A calm, settled voice called him. Yoon Jaewoo lifted his head, blinked his eyes, and looked at the man who was calling him.

「Ramia.」

He called Yoon Jaewoo again. The quiet voice brought Yoon Jaewoo back to reality. Eustace swept the sweat-soaked hair off Yoon Jaewoo’s forehead with his hand.

“…It feels cool.”

At the cool sensation on his forehead, Yoon Jaewoo suddenly blurted out and mumbled just that. Eustace, hearing this, let out a pleasant laugh.

「Which side is cool?」

“Pardon?”

「The top or the bottom.」

“Well, of course it is…!”

Only then realizing the intention of the question, Yoon Jaewoo’s face flushed hotly. Even at a glance, he had released a tremendous amount, enough to not only cover Eustace’s palm but also to drip down his forearm.

「It seems you have not touched yourself at all since that time. To this extent.」

“…….”

Every time he opened his lips to speak, the words he intended to say died away. Yoon Jaewoo eventually exhaled and closed his eyes.

…You bastard. To bewitch a person with Rith and make them like this. You are not supposed to lead people into temptation. For a being who is a god to personally lead someone into temptation while biting his lips.

「It is fine to do it yourself sometimes. It is not good for your body to hold it in too much.」

“I know! …From now on, I will take care of it myself in secret.”

He wondered if he would ever have the chance, but he answered like that for now. Eustace smiled and pulled Yoon Jaewoo’s body into an embrace.

“…I need to wash up.”

His sweat-soaked body was one thing, but Eustace’s one hand was drenched in the sticky fluid he had ejaculated.

「It is a bother.」

At the words that even a god found things bothersome, a slight smile appeared on Yoon Jaewoo’s face.

When Eustace flicked his finger, small droplets of water began to swirl and move around their bodies. Right after the droplets cleanly washed away the sweat and bodily fluids from their bodies, a warm breeze blew and dried the moisture.

Having finished everything from showering to drying without lifting a single finger while lying down, Yoon Jaewoo swallowed a curse, damn it.

Damn it. …This is so comfortable and nice.

On days when he came back from training and did not want to lift a single finger, he had often imagined it would be nice if someone would wash him while he lay on the sofa. That fantasy had become a reality.

As the sheets also became refreshingly dry in an instant, Yoon Jaewoo came to truly appreciate how convenient and good the things this man bestowed upon him were.

Eustace slowly stroked Yoon Jaewoo’s back with his palm. At the regular and cool touch, Yoon Jaewoo’s eyes began to flutter shut. His body became languidly limp.

「Now close your eyes and sleep.」

Eustace whispered to Yoon Jaewoo. Yoon Jaewoo moved his lips and answered, yes, and closed his eyes. That is right, a voice coaxing him followed.

That voice, like an aphrodisiac that had spread through his body, led Yoon Jaewoo into a state of sweet slumber.