NFS 2.12

He didn’t want to admit it, but there had been a moment in the past when that pain had turned into pleasure. At first, he might have been pretending to enjoy it. As if to show Seo Ahn-jae how much he loved him, saying, “I like whatever you do to me.” And maybe he had come to accept it as fact.

But at the time, he had tried not to acknowledge this abnormal pleasure. He portrayed his love as nothing more than tragedy, saying that the sex was nothing but pain. Only after everything was over and he was left alone, having discarded that poignant love, did this sexual desire clearly reveal itself. Seo Ahn-jae’s words, mocking him during sex and asking if he liked it, were true. Truly, goddamn.

And even now, this goddamn body began to race as if his whole body had become a heart in response to the other man’s rough actions. Seo Ahn-jae’s hand pressed and rubbed against Joo Seung-ha’s pleasure point several more times, and all thoughts disappeared from Joo Seung-ha’s mind then and there.

“Huht! Haa…”

Each time fluid spurted from the tip of his cock, he held his breath and trembled with dizziness. So, he belatedly realized that the fingers had been removed from his rear and a round glans was being rubbed against his wrinkled entrance. Seo Ahn-jae moistened the entrance again with his own dripping fluid, pressing his lips tightly. He held his breath and furrowed his brow as if the act needed his undivided attention.

“Stick your ass out.”

Despite Seo Ahn-jae’s command, Joo Seung-ha couldn’t move easily this time. As the high from the orgasm faded, realistic fear washed over him right. Unlike the lie he had told Seo Ahn-jae, it had been too long since he had had sex, and the pain it brought belatedly came to mind.

“Seung-ha-ya.”

Unlike the gentle way Seo Ahn-jae called his name, he grabbed Joo Seung-ha’s waist with a hand that swept down from his shoulder and pulled him closer. Joo Seung-ha stopped breathing, feeling unfamiliar and ashamed about the position he was in. At the moment, he was sticking his ass out while clinging to the wall.

Fortunately, he didn’t have to show his face to the other man. So, he bit his lip, preparing for what was about to happen. Actually, he wanted to hide the slight trembling of his body even more. But he couldn’t exert any strength to even move.

Seo Ahn-jae’s large cock suddenly thrust its round tip inside. It was only the glans that had entered, but Joo Seung-ha felt an unbearable pressure compared to the fingers, so he clenched his hands and lowered his head. From behind, Seo Ahn-jae swallowed a short curse between his teeth and commanded hoarsely.

“Breathe through your mouth, deeply.”

Joo Seung-ha faithfully followed his words, trying to breathe through his open mouth. But even as he tried to relax, all his nerves were focused on his rear. He could feel the entrance that had received the other man throbbing like a pulse. Seo Ahn-jae, with only the glans inserted, reached forward and grabbed Joo Seung-ha’s cock. Joo Seung-ha flinched and tightened his rear again, causing Seo Ahn-jae to squint his eyes.

“Fucking hell, stop chewing on my cock.”

As he spoke, he put strength into his waist and pushed his cock in further. Only half of it had entered, but it felt as if his cock was filling the other man’s entire belly. 

Joo Seung-ha bit his lip hard at the pressure and pain that suddenly enveloped his body.

“Is it your first time doing this in a while? Tell me honestly if you don’t want to get hurt.”

Seo Ahn-jae asked, standing still and barely resisting the urge to thrust and pump his cock. Joo Seung-ha barely let out a short breath as the pain subsided somewhat, and he reached out and clasped Seo Ahn-jae’s hand that was holding his cock.

“What about you, sunbae? Why are you rushing like such a novice?”

“Ha.” A short, dumbfounded laugh escaped from the other man’s mouth. He wondered if another curse would follow, but he didn’t say anything, instead gripping Joo Seung-ha’s hips tightly and pushing his waist forward. Seo Ahn-jae’s cock was completely buried inside Joo Seung-ha’s body, and a squelching sound was heard as Seo Ahn-jae’s groin collided with Joo Seung-ha’s buttocks.

Joo Seung-ha’s soft inner walls, receiving the large cock, tightened around Seo Ahn-jae’s cock. The stimulation was so intense that Seo Ahn-jae almost came instantly. Instead, he closed his eyes, tilted his head back, and thought it was hard to argue with Joo Seung-ha’s words.

It was the first time since he had first discovered the stimulation of sex that his thighs were trembling and he was going crazy with the urge to come just from inserting it. But he also vaguely felt that this novice-like excitement would continue to repeat itself whenever he held Joo Seung-ha, whether it was for a year or a hundred years. The reason was simple.

His emotions were deeply intertwined with the sexual excitement he was feeling now. Seo Ahn-jae opened his eyes and looked down at Joo Seung-ha’s body. He couldn’t help but find the man who was leaning against the wall with his ass stuck out, holding his large cock in his rear, so incredibly lovable. Yeah, I’m going crazy with love. Fucking hell, I’m going crazy with how much I love him.

Thwack!

Seo Ahn-jae slowly pulled his cock out and then thrust it in quickly.

“Ah! Haht…Slow, slowly…Uht, wa, wait…Haht!”

Joo Seung-ha scratched at the wall with his fingernails as if trying to tear it down, begging Seo Ahn-jae to slow down his movements. But Seo Ahn-jae firmly grabbed his waist, which was moving forward as if trying to escape, and repeatedly pulled his cock out slowly and thrust it in quickly. The speed was actually very slow. This was the most consideration Seo Ahn-jae could give, and he was reaching his limit. Seo Ahn-jae gritted his teeth tightly, looking down at Joo Seung-ha’s hole swallowing his cock.

“I’m a novice. But you’re adapting faster.”

Fortunately, a reaction appeared from Joo Seung-ha before Seo Ahn-jae’s reason could snap. As he slowly pulled his cock out, Joo Seung-ha flinched, moving his waist around as if trying to find the pleasure point. After that, he ejaculated on Seo Ahn-jae’s hand, which was still stroking his cock at the moment.

“Aht! Haa, haa…”

Seo Ahn-jae remembered the exact location and thrust in quickly, then moved his waist in the same way as if getting ready to pull his cock out.

“Euht!…Wa, wait…Ah! Haa, hyung, there…Wait…Ah!!”

A scream-like moan poured from Joo Seung-ha’s mouth. At that moment, a tremendous pressure wrapped around Seo Ahn-jae’s cock that had just invaded, as if constricting it.

“Keu-heut, fucking hell…”

Seo Ahn-jae finally couldn’t hold back and trembled, ejaculating inside Joo Seung-ha. But after panting for a moment while buried inside Joo Seung-ha’s body, Seo Ahn-jae grabbed hold of Joo Seung-ha’s hips with both hands, his eyes blurred with desire, and pulled him toward himself. Even though he had ejaculated, his cock was still rock-hard, and he still craved stimulation to the point of numbness.

He pulled his fluid-soaked cock out and began to thrust again. He thrust himself hard, so hard that his pubic hair was pressed against Joo Seung-ha’s soft buttocks, leaving marks behind. Each collision made a loud, wet sound and the sound of flesh hitting flesh.

“Huk, huk, huk…”

Seo Ahn-jae’s breathing quickened as much as the speed of his waist movements. Joo Seung-ha barely leaned his collapsing body against the wall and swayed with each thrust, but he couldn’t feel the pain anymore. Only the pleasure that continued to explode like fireworks in his head dominated him.

“Haa, aht! Haa…Uht…Haht! Euk…Haa…Ah…The, there…Uht!”

“Huk, huk, here? Fucking hell, Seung-ha-ya, here?”

“Yeah, yeah,” Joo Seung-ha uttered words from within his throat that held no meaning. Soon after, only moans came out. The heart was pounding so loudly in his ears that he wondered if the other man could hear his answer properly. But an answer wasn’t necessary. Seo Ahn-jae slowly pulled out his cock, which hadn’t shrunk, and then twisted his waist and deliberately pressed Joo Seung-ha’s pleasure point again. “Uht.” Joo Seung-ha swallowed a moan and reached back to push Seo Ahn-jae away.

“Get out, sunbae.”

Seo Ahn-jae lightly grabbed Joo Seung-ha’s outstretched arm and kissed his hand. He kissed each finger slowly and carefully, as if they were precious and and licked them with his tongue. Still, the tip of his glans was still inside Joo Seung-ha.

Joo Seung-ha was surprised and tensed his body, pulling his hips back sharply, and only then did Seo Ahn-jae’s cock slip out. As Joo Seung-ha turned around with a scowl on his face, Seo Ahn-jae grabbed him as if he had been waiting all along and kissed him. Joo Seung-ha tried to push him away, but the more he did so, the more Seo Ahn-jae tightened his arms and lifted his body off the ground.

“Huk.” Joo Seung-ha was caught by surprise and tried to push him away with more strength, but as his body floated in the air and swayed, he had to hold onto his shoulders to avoid falling. Seo Ahn-jae lightly lifted Joo Seung-ha’s body and kissed him as he entered the bedroom. And only after laying Joo Seung-ha on the bed did he move away from him.

As soon as the mattress touched his back, Joo Seung-ha immediately braced his hands to try to raise his upper body, but Seo Ahn-jae got on top of him first, preventing him from escaping. Seo Ahn-jae pressed Joo Seung-ha’s chest hard with his hand, laying him back down, and then knelt and looked down at him.

Unlike the many words he said to him outside the bedroom, he closed his mouth and looked down at Joo Seung-ha, slowly throwing off his shirt. It didn’t take long to completely undress, taking off his pants, which were already open, and even his underwear and socks, but strangely, Joo Seung-ha couldn’t take his eyes off the other man’s movements.

Whether he liked it or not, he had to admit that Seo Ahn-jae’s body was admirable. Naked, Seo Ahn-jae climbed on top of Joo Seung-ha in a dog-like position, on all fours, and slowly lowered his head. Another kiss soon ensued. But Joo Seung-ha still felt unfamiliar about everything the other man was doing to him.

He realized it when Seo Ahn-jae completely shifted his weight onto him. He had never done missionary with him on top, facing him. Seo Ahn-jae used his hands to push Joo Seung-ha’s thighs apart and whispered against his lips.

“Spread your legs.”

With the command, sex began again.

Joo Seung-ha opened his eyes with a start as an ice-cold liquid entered his mouth, having been submerged in such deep darkness that he felt like he had lost consciousness just now. But he couldn’t see anything immediately. Seo Ahn-jae was kissing him while he was unconscious, and liquid was indeed flowing into his mouth. Only after Seo Ahn-jae pulled away did he realize that what he had passed through his lips through the kiss was cold water.

Joo Seung-ha unconsciously swallowed the water and looked around. First, he realized this was Seo Ahn-jae’s house, and second, he remembered what they had done together. They had climaxed countless times, and he had received Seo Ahn-jae’s release inside him.

“What time is it?”

His voice sounded unfamiliar, hoarse from moaning all night.

“You don’t need to know.”

Unlike Joo Seung-ha, Seo Ahn-jae’s voice was normal, and while Joo Seung-ha looked up at him in disbelief, his exhausted body wouldn’t let him move a finger—all he could do was turn his eyes to search for a clock. But there was no clock in this room. How long have I slept? Is it Sunday? Joo Seung-ha was about to ask these questions when Seo Ahn-jae sat beside him and pressed a bottle to his lips, making him forget about everything.

“Drink more water.”

At the word ‘water,’ he realized he was parched.

“I can drink…”

Joo Seung-ha tried to grab the water bottle himself, but Seo Ahn-jae held him with one arm and personally fed him the water. His touch while giving water was as gentle as handling a newborn baby. Though Joo Seung-ha felt embarrassed by this treatment, he had no strength to push him away.

Only after confirming Joo Seung-ha had drunk enough water did Seo Ahn-jae stand up and gulp down water himself. Joo Seung-ha vacantly watched him drink the water. Though naked, his well-balanced and muscular body was beautiful enough to make observers forget their shame and simply appreciate it. Watching him finish the water in the bottle, Joo Seung-ha mumbled with a sigh, “I’m not cold anymore.”

Seo Ahn-jae removed the empty bottle from his mouth and turned to look at Joo Seung-ha. Crack. The plastic bottle crumpled in his hand. He casually tossed the bottle onto the table and picked up the remote instead.

“You’ll be cold soon.”

Seo Ahn-jae lowered the air conditioner temperature to 10 degrees and climbed back on top of Joo Seung-ha.

***

Though Seo Ahn-jae was fully dressed and ready to go out, he couldn’t take his eyes off the bed while putting on his clothes, and even now when he needed to leave, his gaze remained fixed on it. Joo Seung-ha lay dead asleep in the bed, half-buried under the blanket with his face curled up.

He wanted to pull back the blanket and see all of him, but he knew he wouldn’t be able to control himself if he did. After staring down at Joo Seung-ha for a few more minutes, Seo Ahn-jae finally looked away when his smartphone briefly vibrated in his hand. Despite it being the weekend, his smartphone was filled with messages. Most were work-related, with some from acquaintances.

But nothing was urgent to Seo Ahn-jae, even if the world was ending. If it wasn’t related to Joo Seung-ha, he would have postponed everything until tomorrow. Should I really postpone it? It’s not that urgent…Only after feeling himself getting aroused again while thinking and watching Joo Seung-ha did Seo Ahn-jae turn away. He should be able to finish his business within an hour and a half.

As he left the house, he quickly planned what needed to be done. While he doubted Joo Seung-ha would wake up during that time, he still wanted to return quickly. His mind was now filled with thoughts about what food to prepare for Joo Seung-ha when he woke up. Though it was the first time in his life he’d worried about someone else’s meals, he found it to be quite enjoyable.

***

A loud, steady sound touched Joo Seung-ha’s consciousness like a distant ship’s horn. What could this sound be? As his foggy consciousness gradually focused, the sound became clearer in reality. The mechanical beeping wasn’t from his smartphone. It seemed to be coming from outside.

Barely opening his eyes, Joo Seung-ha realized it was coming from the living room. He vaguely thought it sounded like the intercom. However, he didn’t hear the homeowner’s voice who should have answered it, and the sound stopped. Only then did Joo Seung-ha realize Seo Ahn-jae wasn’t home.

Though his body felt as heavy as lead and his barely-opened eyes threatened to close again, Joo Seung-ha forced himself to get up. However, halfway through getting up, he froze mid-breath at the pain that shot from his spine down to his pelvis. 

“Haa, fuck. Should’ve taken it easier.”

Joo Seung-ha grimaced, internally cursing Seo Ahn-jae as he fully raised his body. The cycle had repeated countless times: falling unconscious, waking to stimulation, clinging to him for sex again. That was why he was most curious about the time. But the room was dark despite the blinds being only halfway down. It was completely dark outside.