BB Ch 16

As soon as I arrived at work, the section chief bastard approached me and asked if I had a good time with my heat. Even when I told him to stop, he persisted, so I activated the recording function on my cell phone and pushed it to him. Only then did he stop. The other employees did not openly ask. That’s right… If you can’t work, you have to be polite.

Before lunch, the section chief came to my seat.

“Last week, Park Jin-cheol, who was at ○○ C&T, visited and he was looking for Seo-yu ssi. He moved to △△ C&T.”

“Oh, really? Who was Park Jin-cheol?”

“Don’t you remember the tall guy who looked like a sheepdog?”

“Oh, yeah, I think I know.”

“It’s strange. He talked about where Seo-yu ssi went to as if you were close.”

We were close… We were very close… 

I prepared lunch after the confused section chief returned to his seat.

I was in good shape because I had rested at home all day on Sunday. However, due to the heavy workload, it was not expected to be good again. My lunch today is coffee.

“Oh… you came today.”

When the cafe owner noticed me, he greeted me warmly. It’s been a week since we came out with each other last Monday. That was the last time the owner greeted me awkwardly because he exhibited a great deal of awkwardness.

I thought I should’ve gone somewhere else, but I already came in here. He greeted me with a smile on the outside, so I responded with a bright smile.

“It’s been a while. I keep thinking of the coffee here while I’m taking a break.”

“Thank you, Seo-yu ssi. I kept thinking about Seo-yu ssi, too.” 

I don’t know what the owner’s name was, but he naturally called my name several times. It seems that he heard it when I came with other people. Besides, he smiled brightly and said that he thought of me. I would have misunderstood him if he hadn’t been Omega.

“It’s Americano, right? Please wait a little bit.”

There was no time to reconcile and stay because the order line was so long. Because it was lunchtime, there were a lot of people in the cafe. It was crowded in the small cafe with only five tables. The owner took an order, and the part-timer hurriedly made a drink.

I sat in the first seat by the window when my phone vibrate. While waiting, I was accustomed to checking my phone.

Won-jo [Did he contact you today?]

Won-jo would ask about the contact between the dominant Alpha and me yesterday, today, and every day in the future. I simply sent a message saying [No].

Subsequently, I looked through the messages of my ex-lover.

[At my…wedding… I wish I had you…]

Why the hell would I be at your wedding…

[I heard someone going to meet an attribution in “Police station” this winter. Is it “you” by any chance^ ^]

Maybe I should change my number…

[Seo-yu-ah~ What are you doing these days ~ It’s Christmas soon]

[Hi… It’s Christmas soon.  I contacted you because I thought of you.]

[For Christmas, I’m going to go on a business trip to Seoul and stay at ○○ hotel. What is Seo-yu doing?]

There was a lot of talk about Christmas, but I read and chewed them all.

I’ve never spent Christmas alone. Of course, it’s the same this year. 

Come to think of it, I haven’t even seen my partner’s pictures yet. 

He’s most likely seen it. My uncle should have shown the other side a photo of me in high school. My Uncle probably said I’ve grown taller and my skeleton has grown larger since then, but he has no choice but to lie because the other won’t meet me if I send pictures of me these days.

Since earlier, a Christmas medley has been playing in the cafe. Brightly arranged songs ranging from “Silent Night” to “Jingle Bell.” The number of baby angel dolls has increased.

It would be great if there was a cafe like this near my house. A friendly owner, delicious coffee, and a cozy atmosphere…

Vibrate vibrate vibrate

I was awakened by a brief vibrating sound. While I was listening to the song, the number of customers decreased, leaving only table customers. He seemed to have purposefully delayed my order.

The owner sent the part-timer inside the kitchen and was waiting alone with a slightly aware expression on his face.

When I approached him, he smiled kindly, which relieved me. As expected, he’s a nice person.

“I was worried because you hadn’t come the past few days… When I asked the staff, they said that you had taken sick leave.”

“Ah. yes. I took a heat vacation.”

“… Wasn’t it over then?”

After pausing a beat, the owner asked. This one beat seemed to indicate that the owner’s disdain for me had not yet been completely suppressed.

“I thought it was over at that time… but it wasn’t. It’s completely over now.”

“Who did you spend the heat cycle with?”

The owner’s eyes sharpened quickly. His tone of voice rose by one tone. The guests at the table were taken aback and stopped talking.

“With whom? Who did you spend the day with?”

“Oh, that…”

“Is he your lover?”

If I say he wasn’t my lover here, it means I’m only admitting to having a one-night stand.

Although I like the owner, ‘who did you spend the heat with?’ was a very personal question. So I responded generically.

“Haha, well… I’ll just have a good drink.”

“…” 

The owner didn’t ask anymore. As expected, he was a person who has a personality.

“Excuse me… Seo-yu ssi.”

“Ah, yes.”

As I was about to turn around with an Americano, the owner called me.

“That…”

“…”

“So… I… that…”

I thought he was going to keep asking who my heat cycle partner was, but the owner hesitated to say it and had a guilty expression on his face.

Obviously, he had something to say to me.

I looked down at him as he was two fingers smaller than me and waited humbly.

“…”

But the owner couldn’t say what he was going to say in the end.

He just said, “Come again tomorrow,” with eyes full of despair.

*** 

The daily life of work-home, work-home cycle has returned, but it was not completely the same as before. This was because the number of people who send me messages nonstop has increased.

Sung-hyun-i [(Photo) Played basketball today]

Sung-hyun-i [I crushed him, haha]

My daily life has shifted slightly from messages from a perv ex-lover to a lively message in which he tells me what sports he enjoyed today and what he ate.

Saying that he was just breathing at home. When I took a picture of a dried-up street tree on the way or a TV that was just left on and sent it to him, he would make a fuss about how boring my life was. He would send a message almost every day that my phone would ring noisily, but I liked the noise, so I changed his name from [Mapo Bridge High School Kid] to [Sung-hyun-i].

[You were amazing to be able to run in this cold weather.] 

Sung-hyun-i [It was cold outside for you. You should stay inside and wrap your arms around your shoulders.] 

Sung-hyun-i [You’re short, so you wouldn’t even be able to do it haha.] 

It was the first time I’ve heard that I’m short. The average male omega height was 170-172, but I am 178.

Does this guy doesn’t know I’m an omega? I don’t think so… he should’ve been aware of it.

Sung-hyun-i [What are you doing now?]

My fingers weren’t slow either, but Sung-hyun was really fast because he sends the message without thinking about it.

[Getting ready to sleep early]

Sung-hyun-i [Ah, aren’t you have an appointment with my Hyung tomorrow.]

[With your Hyung? He doesn’t even contact me. What the hell haha]

Sung-hyun-i [??? What????] 

Even if you ask me why… It was a pity that he doesn’t contact me.

I was not that worthy to contact the extremely dominant Alpha first.

Sung-hyun-i [Then, who was going to meet with my Hyung tomorrow???]

[Why are you asking me that… Haha]

Perhaps he was embarrassed because his quick response stopped. I texted Sung-hyun to let him know I was going to bed first. I turned off the phone screen without waiting for his answer.

I sat on the sofa holding a sheet mask I kept in the refrigerator. Because the boiler was turned on loudly, it didn’t matter if my hands were cold. I carefully turned on an entertainment program on TV and placed it on my face, and then I suddenly became sad.

It’s the first time I’ve ever worn a mask. To get ready for tomorrow’s meeting… My uncle had asked me to look after him, so I put it on.

Should I just ask my uncle to send him the current picture of me…

I felt sorry for that director of the math academy, who was looking forward to my bright and delicate appearance in high school. So I try using face masks, it would be nice if I could cover it with the amount of effort I put in.

I should have married the Alpha, who was my uncle introduced to me when I was younger.

I thought I was going to die this year.

I thought that there would be no life for me after twenty-eight.

Even now, I still don’t know if this is the right choice.

Oh well, whatever. Just… If I continue to live like this and my marriage fails, I would then die.

I’m having trouble with this reality check.

I lay down on the sofa with the sheet mask on my face.

Vibrate vibrate vibrate

The phone vibrated one after another. I thought it was Sung-hyun, but it wasn’t.

Won-jo [Did the Alpha contact you? haha]

[No]

Won-jo [As expected…]

Won-jo [Don’t be fooled. I’m ust worried as a friend.]

[Hmm, don’t worry haha. ​​You should start dating and stop sticking your nose to my business.] 

If you want to end the conversation with Won-jo, you should talk about him. As expected, there was no reply. It was a good read and ignore.

My finger was hovering over the screens of several chat rooms.

While contemplating, I entered a quiet conversation window without a red light.

Choi Sung-hoon [I will contact you later]

There has been no contact since last Saturday’s short message. Only the rabbit emoticon that I sent remained blank and winking.

But he was meeting someone tomorrow…

On Christmas Eve.

Damn it… I let him play with me as long as he put me back in place when he was bored, but he never told me not to… You can play with me… Extremely dominant Alpha.

I should’ve invited him into my home at the time. However, it must have seemed to be a cheap guy who only wanted to play in bed, so any remaining curiosity had cooled.

It was just as I was about to leave the room because my heart felt empty.

Choi Sung-hoon [Yellow or white. Which one do you like better?]

It was a message that had just arrived.

It was probably the last thing on my mind that the read mark would change from 1 to 2 immediately in Choi Sung-chat hoon’s room.

“…”

Argh… Why!

Why!! Why!! Why!! Why are you sending a message now!

It feels like I’ve been waiting for his message in this chat room!

No! It’s not wrong but no!

My face sheet mask was crumpled. I covered my cell phone, controlled my mind, and calmly managed my facial expressions. Why was the mask so hot even though I had cooled it in the refrigerator?

Huu-haa, Huu… 

I took a deep breath and finally regained my composure.

So… What? Which color do I like better, yellow or white?

[It’s purple] 

I was a little grumpy. I was curious about the reaction, but I didn’t get a reply even though the 1 mark was gone…

Three, five, and fifteen minutes passed and there was no answer.

I’d been waiting for the reply the entire time when this thought occurred to me.

Maybe he sent me the wrong message that was meant for someone else…?

It was a plausible assumption.

It was similar to the last time I thought he was talking to me and asked if I liked salmon, but he was actually on the phone with someone else.

I felt goosebumps on my forearms and quickly exited the conversation room.

I put away the sloppy sheet mask and jumped into the bed.

I punched the pillow and kicked the blanket as I recalled embarrassing memories from my past. 

The thought of repeating the embarrassing things I did to Choi Sung-hoon make me feel ashamed.

Ughh, I’ve done this several times already.

I think I should reconsider whether it was the right choice to live like this… damn it.