SOG Ch 120

Faced with Woo-jin’s pitch-black gaze full of questions, Seon Jae-chan made an excuse.

“Normally, sponsors don’t kiss each other. …It’s a matter of manner.”

There was no such manner. It was just something he made up on the spot. He thought if Woo-jin questioned it later, he could just say that was his personal standard.

“Our wavelengths could get mixed up. I’m sorry for telling you this now. I should have let you know from the beginning, it was my mistake.”

He explained while avoiding Woo-jin’s gaze. He had only expected to get bored with sex with him, but judging from Woo-jin’s actions now, it seemed he would seek him out occasionally. He was willing to oblige.

…Was he really willing though?

Anything he did with Woo-jin was great, but actually, kissing was the best. The frequent passionate kisses created the illusion of being loved.

But it was just an illusion.

Being showered with such fervent kisses only caused the hopes he tried to keep in check to swell uncontrollably.

Until now, he had rationalized being Woo-jin’s sex partner with ‘it’s what he wants’, but this incident was a major wake-up call for Jae-chan. He didn’t trust himself not to develop greater desires for Woo-jin now.

He just refused to kiss as a temporary solution, but maybe he should stop having s3x with him as well. Find a new sponsor… This might be their last s3x.

It was an inevitable choice as long as he couldn’t control his feelings for Woo-jin. Resolving to remain composed while being careful not to accidentally guide him, Jae-chan steeled himself.

“…”

Meanwhile, Go Woo-jin was in shock as if his blood was rushing backward.

Don’t kiss?

However, unlike Woo-jin who was confused, Jae-chan showed no wavering as he apologetically smiled. He was composed as if simply stating a fact. A surge of intense anger began to rage in Woo-jin’s mind.

“We can be plenty satisfied without something as trivial as kissing.”

Seon Jae-chan let his actions speak for him. His slender body slid straight down to the bed. He took his place between Woo-jin’s legs and unfastened the buckle of his pants with a smooth movement.

Faced with a p3nis that was aroused to the point of ridiculousness with a mixture of anger and lust, Jae-chan hesitantly brought his lips to the tip.

“Haa…”

A mocking smile appeared on Woo-jin’s lips. It was so intensely pleasurable that it was infuriating. The lips that had rejected kissing were now readily taking in his manhood. Woo-jin’s mind was in chaos, and his simmering anger took on a tangible form. Woo-jin barely managed to control his grip and pull Jae-chan away.

Woo-jin grabbed him and pulled him up forcefully. Pushing the man he had roughly stood up back onto the bed, Woo-jin’s massive torso loomed over Jae-chan. He moved until their ragged breaths intermingled, noses brushing, as a growl rumbled from his throat.

“From now on, I’ll discard any so-called manner, so brace yourself for whatever I do.”

With this declaration, Woo-jin forcefully pressed their lips together.

He aggressively pinned down Jae-chan as he tried to pull away again, kissing him more roughly than ever before until his teeth clashed. Sex manner? Fvck that sh1t. Woo-jin’s eyes flashed with azure light. He bit and sucked Jae-chan’s unresponsive, docile lips before reaching for the clothes strewn across the bed. With rough movements, he grabbed the clothes scattered on the bed.

Then, in a rather rude manner, he made a fuss and began redressing the nude Jae-chan.

After straightening Jae-chan’s clothes and his own, Woo-jin did not take his eyes off Jae-chan even once during the process. Even a ruffian who rips off clothes wouldn’t have such a menacing gaze. To Jae-chan, it felt as if he was being violated without physical touch by those cold blue eyes. But paradoxically, his clothes ended up properly put back on.

As Woo-jin buttoned up Jae-chan’s shirt to the very top, he recalled the day he had met his stepmother.

The reason Woo-jin felt so desperate that day was because he couldn’t accept the fact that he was merely Jae-chan’s sex partner. He wanted to become a person with a different meaning to Jae-chan.Someone qualified to be involved with the guy who treated himself so carelessly, someone who could have a positive influence on Jae-chan beyond just sharing pleasure. The one special person who could receive Jae-chan’s affection.

And now, Woo-jin had concluded that even if this realization of his feelings ended up as unrequited love, he should accept it wholeheartedly.

“I like you.”

As he had declared earlier, how Jae-chan would deal with this confession was up to him now.

He truly liked Jae-chan to the point of madness. After bluntly confessing like that, Woo-jin caught his breath and stood up. He shoved the abandoned sandwich bag into the mini-fridge and opened Jae-chan’s closet, taking out the warmest-looking long jumper instead of a thin coat. He draped it over the stunned, frozen Jae-chan.

“I’m not asking for an answer right away. Therefore…”

Woo-jin nervously shook his head. Before his impatience made him pounce on Jae-chan again, he tightly bundled him up in the plush jumper and embraced him. He firmly kissed the startled man’s brow, the tiny mole on his cheek, and finally his lips, pressing their foreheads together as he let out the words he could no longer hold back.

“From now on, go on a date with me.”

*

He didn’t even remember how he had ended up here. Jae-chan suppressed the pounding in his chest as he entered the restaurant, passing through the chandelier lights and elegant music.

They had already been guided through the bustling dining hall to an inner room. Even as Jae-chan sat across from Woo-jin listening to the impeccably dressed server explain the menu, he couldn’t register whether he was ordering meat or seafood.

While eating the carefully plated appetizers of assorted vegetables and cured meat, he didn’t know if the food was entering his mouth or nose. He didn’t even sip the complementary rice wine, dazedly picking at his food with a spaced expression. To the point that when Woo-jin, observing him intently, asked the trivial question “Should I get you water?”, all he could muster was a delayed “Uh…?”

“I hope you eat a lot slowly.”

Woo-jin said as he refilled Jae-chan’s empty glass.

“I know you’re uncomfortable… Still, I want to eat together.”

Of course, it wasn’t a request he could refuse. Jae-chan nodded slightly. He hid his trembling gaze as he chewed on the newly served king oyster mushroom with sea urchin roe.

Honestly, he didn’t understand why Woo-jin had suddenly confessed his feelings. Wasn’t this the same man avoiding him until recently?

However, given Woo-jin’s personality, he had no reason to make a false confession either. Jae-chan emptied his glass of water again and thought about various things, then decided to just ask the person in question honestly.

“Didn’t you hate me?”

And an unexpected reaction came back from Woo-jin.

“…Me?”

The dark eyes widened unusually large as he repeated the question.

“You?”

Woo-jin acted as if the very idea was preposterous. Jae-chan suddenly felt wronged. You, look back on yourself until recently. What about a year ago?

However, it seemed that Woo-jin didn’t dislike him at the moment. Instead of dissatisfaction, there was a moment of relief as Woo-jin’s voice continued.

“That’s impossible.”

Woo-jin flatly denied it, as if it were an absolutely untenable proposition.

“Because I like… so much.”

It was obvious what the omitted object was.

Jae-chan barely managed to close his mouth that was about to gape wide open like a blooming lily. However, there was no way to control his heart that suddenly started pounding rapidly.

“…”

On the other hand, Woo-jin was swallowing a sigh. He didn’t want to burden him, but he ended up confessing again. And… The fact that he liked Jae-chan too much was also a problem.

Woo-jin had never liked someone this much before. Looking back, he wondered why he hadn’t realized it sooner.

Well, it might be natural that his realization was delayed. He had experienced what most people called dating numerous times, but he had never felt romantic feelings in those relationships.

If someone had the courage to confess to him, Woo-jin would accept it. To him, love was just a series of moments when he did not reject the confessions of the opposite sex that approached him.

He just accepted their courage, dated them when they asked, and always broke up after less than a month due to circumstances beyond his control, so naturally those feelings were unfamiliar to him.

Moreover, the person he ended up liking was not only the cause of all those breakups but also someone who now felt like an insurmountable wall was none other than Jae-chan.

Woo-jin pushed aside the dishes. Staring silently at Jae-chan, he asked with a slight unease.

“But why did you think that?”

That he disliked him.

His heart sank upon hearing that Jae-chan had been thinking that way all along.

“…”

Jae-chan could not bear to answer and remained silent. The reasons were too trivial to mention. Rather, it was more embarrassing to point out each and every one of them.

Woo-jin’s eyes narrowed. It seemed he had missed a lot while preoccupied with dealing with his own feelings. He felt he needed to revisit everything thoroughly now.

“Tell me.”

Having asked the server to delay serving the food, Woo-jin straightened his back and prepared to listen intently.

However, it took considerable difficulties to get an answer from Jae-chan. Jae-chan awkwardly smiled and shook his head, and only after Woo-jin gently coaxed him, almost pleading, was he able to hear Jae-chan’s true feelings.

“… For example, the other day when Director Yoon Seo-mi came, you…avoided when we were about to kiss.”

Jae-chan spoke while shifting his gaze restlessly. It was ridiculous. It felt too childish to nitpick like this in front of the 22-year-old Go Woo-jin, but the words had already spilled out.

“Just… because of that.”

He finished his sentence with a mumble as he felt embarrassed.