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Side Story 2: Sugar Lovey-Dovey Darling

Today, during lunch, I was wandering around the 5-Star area with the Major General when I saw a book about ‘Gratitude Journals’ at a bookstore.

It said that even if it’s something very trivial, you should get into the habit of writing down the happy and grateful things of the day every day.

The Major General hates these kinds of books (self-help books?) so much that I couldn’t show it in front of him (he said they were books written by guys who just talk a good game to desperate people…), but I was quite moved by the book.

So I decided to start a gratitude journal from today.

There are two reasons for this.

In the past, when I wrote important things, I looked up words on my phone… and when I sent messages, it automatically showed me the correct letters, so I didn’t make that many mistakes, but trying to write alone without any help, especially by hand, is too difficult…

Tomorrow, I should secretly buy books about writing and grammar without the Major General knowing.

If I say I’m studying because I started writing a journal, he’ll definitely secretly peek at it… I don’t hide anything from the Major General, but still… I need some privacy.

♥Today’s grateful thing: Hae-rim was eating his favorite snack and suddenly offered it to me and the Major General to try.

The snack was covered in drool, but both me and the Major General accepted it without any complaints.

Hae-rim, happy to share his favorite snack with his dad, smiled brightly with drool all over his mouth. He was so cute.

Hae-rim is still a baby, but how did he have the wonderful thought of sharing something delicious?

How did such a kind baby come to me?

It’s such a grateful thing…!

I want to be a better and cooler dad to Hae-rim.

I need to study hard.

♥Today’s happy thing: I had dinner with the Major General and sat on the terrace for a while, talking about this and that, and the sky was so, so beautiful today.

Usually, when the sun sets, the clouds are dyed orange like paint, but today, pink and light purple were mixed together, which was so amazing!

So I was blankly watching the clouds slowly drift by, and the Major General suddenly rubbed his cheek against mine.

And then he kissed my nose and eyes… anyway, he kissed me a lot of places.

No, can you even call that kissing?

He almost ate me alive, biting and sucking my whole face, so I was a little embarrassed…

I was just looking at the scenery outside, but he kept saying I was pretty, so I felt a little shy.

But I thought I was a little happy… No, actually, I was very happy…

I need to be a cool dad, but when I’m with the Major General, I keep feeling like I’m getting younger, which is a big problem.

A few weeks ago, I bought a writing book and a grammar study book.

Books for adults are too difficult, so I bought ones for children, but even this level seems difficult for me…

Oh, right! I saw in the book earlier that when you want to leave a lingering feeling in a sentence, you should use … instead of …

I don’t know why, but that’s the rule.

It’s too difficult….

And why aren’t the shapes of the letters the same when you speak and when you write?

There are quite a few letters that aren’t written according to their pronunciation, so the more I study, the more confused I get.

I can’t even memorize all the rules of spacing….

When I was sure that I wrote something correctly and didn’t even bother to look it up, and then I found out that it was all wrong… But when I realized it was too late to fix it all… I was so upset….

I wanted to tear up all the diaries I wrote in the past, but this is all a memory, and I decided to leave it so I can see how much I’ve improved later.

♥Today’s grateful thing: Being able to study comfortably in a warm and beautiful house.

Also, being able to buy as many books as I need….

It feels like only a few days ago that I was starving because I was worried about running up debt for food!

It’s still a long way off, but if I can ever open my own store, I want to make a lot of money and help underprivileged children who want to study.

Being in a position to dream this dream is also a very, very grateful thing.

I’m glad I started writing a gratitude journal!

I realize that there are so many things to be grateful for even in an ordinary day, and I feel like I’m getting happier every day.

♥Today’s happy thing: This is just my own thought… but maybe the Major General didn’t tease me for my spelling mistakes because he was worried I’d be embarrassed….

Because today, I looked back at all the messages I sent to the Major General in the past, and it was really… a serious level.

It’s amazing that he didn’t point it out even after seeing this. (Maybe he already noticed that I was forgetting a lot of words?)

I wanted to fix it so badly that my hands were itching….

Of course, the Major General is a bit of a pervert who gets hung up on my clumsy and strange behavior, so he might have secretly liked it a lot every time I messed up a sentence…

Anyway, thinking about the Major General who pretended not to know and just kept saying I was doing well makes my cheeks feel warm for no reason.

And I’m happy.

Yesterday and today were the Major General’s days off, and he said there was something he wanted to check, so we took Hae-rim to the hospital.

He said he was a little worried because Hae-rim, who had a fast physical development speed and babbled well, has been quiet and doesn’t say anything these days….

Of course, I had noticed that too, but I didn’t think it was at a level where he needed to be examined or treated at the hospital.

General Oh Seon-ran also said that, and Captain Na also said that….

But just in case, I decided to follow the Major General’s words.

Thanks to the Officer’s Privilege, we were able to do various tests on the same day, and surprisingly, the result was that Hae-rim is a baby with perfectionist tendencies!

There are often babies who hold back until they can speak with pronunciations and sentences that they can accept, and Hae-rim has that kind of personality….

Anyway, this is just the baby’s personality, so we heard that there doesn’t seem to be a big problem in the development process.

Rather, Hae-rim’s development is significantly better than his peers, and he’s very smart.

Cognitive ability? Reflexes? Anyway, he’s amazing… Anyway, he’s an amazing baby.

I don’t know how you can tell that a baby who isn’t even a year old is smart, but anyway, I felt good when Hae-rim was praised. (Of course, I would have been very proud and loved Hae-rim very much even if he was a little lacking)

But the Major General was a bit… He kept badgering the Military Doctor as if it was natural for Hae-rim to be good, asking him to praise him more, so I was a little embarrassed….

♥Today’s grateful thing: That a kind, smart, and wonderful baby like Hae-rim is my baby….

A smart baby who only wants to show his dad a perfect side of himself… Hae-rim is really so cute and lovely.

♥Today’s happy thing: The Major General hugged me tightly, saying that there wouldn’t be any problems, while we were waiting for the test results….

Hugging the Major General tightly like a koala, like a baby kangaroo, made all the bad thoughts disappear.

And after the test, the Major General said that Hae-rim is smart because he takes after me….

He definitely didn’t take after me in that aspect, but I was grateful for the Major General’s heart for saying that even if it wasn’t true.

Oh, now that I’ve written it, I wonder if I should have written this in the ‘grateful things’ section instead of the ‘happy things’ section.

But I really felt tingly and happy at each of those moments….

Maybe gratitude and happiness are very close to each other.