RSL Ch 94

Seeing me belatedly moving towards him, did he resent the timing of courage he had stepped aside from? I was always passionate about him in my own way, but the unexpressed feelings of my heart couldn’t become a great force between us. So the recent time I spent moving forward alone was deeply meaningful to myself as well.

“…Actually, I thought it wouldn’t work out, so I deliberately said harsh things and didn’t answer your calls.”

He furrowed his brow as if recalling a painful memory. The cigarette smoke quickly entered his lungs and came out mixed with a sigh.

“Instead, you burned even brighter. That new side of you was both novel and cute. To be honest… I was a bit excited.”

He laughed helplessly as he tapped off the ash, as if even he found it ridiculous.

“I guess so. I tend to have a one-sided love nature.”

I joked back, matching his tone. The breath I lightly blew out dispersed into the air, mixing with the cigarette smoke.

“Yeah, I guess so. It was really tormenting. Clearly, my head was repeating that I should stop, but I found myself starting to desire more. Without realizing, I became curious about your schedule. Making up excuses to spend a little more time together.”

So that’s how it was. Hearing this, I understood his contradictory behaviors.

“So recently, I was in denial. I was holding on, dismissing it as just being swayed by your efforts, weakened by your struggling appearance… But today, I was completely blindsided.”

Han Jae-yi frowned as he quickly puffed on a newly lit cigarette. He exhaled the smoke and inhaled again. He repeated the same action two or three times as if trying to finish and discard it quickly. After putting out the butt in the ashtray, he didn’t take out another cigarette.

He leaned his back against the balcony wall with his hands in his pockets. Bending his upper body forward, he pulled one foot back and slightly lowered his head. Then, as if recalling a very difficult memory, he continued speaking.

“You know? For about 10 seconds after the accident, you didn’t say anything.”

His memory had returned to that chilling moment of today.

“I kept calling your name, but there was no answer. So I thought you were dead.”

Han Jae-yi’s voice, assuming my death, sounded calm and sad.

“But strangely, I felt like I was the one dying. In that brief moment, all the years I’ve lived flashed through my mind like a film, and the feeling was really strange.”

“How was it strange?”

“How should I put it… I thought that if I really followed you like this… it would be okay. Something like that. So just when I was about to really do it, you answered.”

I recalled that Han Jae-yi had been cooking at that time. Thinking that he could have easily acted on it if I had been just a little later, a cold fear swept through my chest. I sighed and extinguished the burned-out cigarette with my finger.

“Why did you have such a ridiculous thought, you fool.”

I placed my cigarette butt on top of the pile in his ashtray. Then Han Jae-yi muttered, looking at the sky, as if stating an insignificant fact.

“Just because. I didn’t want to live alone for even a second.”

For a moment, I felt a heavy weight sink in a corner of my heart. At the same time, it felt like a huge stone had risen and completely blocked my throat, making it hard to breathe. The reality of his confession, wrapped in a light tone, was truly heavy.

Yes, the end that Han Jae-yi had imagined and feared wasn’t the true worst-case scenario. More terrifying than that final moment of despising the one you love is being left alone in a world where that person has disappeared.

He opened his eyes to the truth in this tragic fairy tale, receiving the kiss of a death ending. It seemed we had finally arrived. It was my turn to breathe life into decorating that finale.

“You don’t need to express that you still love me in such a frightening way.”

His eyes, which had been fixed on the void, came down to meet mine. He straightened his back, lifting his body that had been leaning. Standing about three steps apart, we faced each other.

He must know by now too. Stopping doesn’t mean we can go back to being just friends. We had already erased too many lines, and our friendship had been preserved as a memory that couldn’t be revived. If we don’t move forward from here, our story ends right here.

Han Jae-yi slowly started to move. The breath he exhaled reached me warmly. He stepped over the three steps left between us, parting the snow to come to me.

“Yes, I still love you.”

And he took my hand that I had been letting fall limply.

“I’ve never stopped. When I realized you were safe on the other end of the phone, I felt something… Ah, I’m a person who even loves the sound of Seo-jin’s breathing.”

He continued speaking, kissing my fingertips as if melting them with his breath.

“Once I realized that, I felt empty. I became disgusted with myself for doing something so obviously doomed to fail. So, as you said, I’m going to stop torturing myself now.”

A tingling sensation spread from the hand held by Han Jae-yi. At the same time, the snow falling between him and me melted, unable to maintain its form. The wall blocking us crumbled, and the curtain obscuring our view was drawn back. Now we can see each other.

“I love you, Seo-jin. If it’s not too late… let’s stay together as long as we’re alive.”

I lowered my head. Unable to answer aloud, I nodded. My toes felt very cold, like someone who had returned from a long journey. The melted snow was slowly soaking into the wooden planks of the balcony floor. Tears fell heavily onto it.

It’s finally over. We’ve paid the price for underestimating love, wrapped in the arrogance of thinking we knew each other better than anyone else. Only after reaching the abyss once each could we burn away all the remnants of distrust.

We’ve come back from such a long journey.

I couldn’t look up because the tears kept pouring down my face. I didn’t know why I was crying. Maybe it was because I had been through so much. Or maybe I hadn’t been in a sentimental mood in a long time. I didn’t think I was crying because I was weak. Maybe it was the snow.

“When you cry, it breaks my heart.”

He hugged me quietly. I could feel his hot heart beating, undeterred by the cold air. Han Jae-yi, alive and well, breathed into me this time. “Don’t cry.” His voice, whispering softly, melted into my body.

I opened the hem of his coat and wrapped it around his back. I buried my face in the nape of his neck, damp from the melting snow, and whispered, “I love you, Jae-yi.”

“I love you, too, Jae-yi.”

He smiled in response to my belated confession.

“Yeah, I know. I know.”

His soft voice was filled with conviction. The snow piled higher and higher. We shared a coat and just held each other for a while. Han Jae-yi touched my dried tears with his hand and soothed me. The pain quickly faded away, and all that remained was tranquility.

I pressed my cheek, chilled by the cold air, to the nape of his neck, warmth radiating through our skin. We felt each other’s faces like mammals in a den, rubbing against each other and sharing body heat.

Our noses and cheeks touched, our ears and cheekbones brushed against each other. And then, naturally, our lips touched. I closed my eyes and opened my mouth. Then a warm t0ngue slipped inside and a gentle kiss began.

Han Jae-yi bit my bottom lip and svcked on it for a second or two. I swallowed deeply in one gulp, unable to resist the teasing movements of his t0ngue as it slid in and out of my mouth, so I opened my lips more aggressively.

Then, as if he’d been waiting for me, he cupped my cheeks and pushed his t0ngue in forcefully. My head leaned back for a moment and I threw my arms around his neck. In the movement of a full-blown kiss, my coat fell from my shoulders to the floor.

I shivered slightly from the cold. Then he pushed his t0ngue deep inside me. The hard flesh coiled around it, twisting and turning, then svcking hard and fast. The kiss became increasingly passionate, and we began to make a wet sounds.

I stroked Han Jae-yi’s broad back with one hand, sliding down past his straight spine and hips to near his legs. I stroked the muscles of his thighs, which were firmly supporting his lower body.

His inner thighs are a little softer, and a little further up, his d1ck is a little thicker. I sized it up with my hand and realized it was already half-erect. I’m hungry for his body.

His d1ck throbbed at my touch and moved in his pants. At the same time, Han Jae-yi’s expression changed as we kissed.

“That’s pretty explicit.”

He pulled his lips away from mine and looked at me with a look that said he didn’t mind.

“I held out for a long time.”

I didn’t hesitate to run my hand over his pants again. I could feel his d1ck, more defined than before, throbbing hard. I lightly bit his lips and released them, and once again his d1ck nodded back and forth.

My thing also couldn’t stay still as it reacted to each of my kisses, and was unable to keep still.  Unable to hold back, I asked him first.

“Do you want to go inside?”

“Where?”

He raised one eyebrow and slowly wrapped his arms around my waist. With one hand, he stroked my erect d1ck over my pants and slid his lower body into mine. Then his d1ck pressed against my inner thigh and showed off its heavy presence. I became a little more urgent.

“Let’s go in.”

I told him, exhaling a little hot breath. Meanwhile, his hand moved lower, skimming my perineum and grazing my hip bone. Then he turned his head and svcked my lips again, rubbing my back h0le.

“Yeah, I want to go inside you.”

Now our behavior had become too explicit. From a distance, we were in what would appear to be a pseudo-sexual position: clothed, but our lips were locked together, our hands were on each other’s asses and d1cks, and we were lusting without hesitation.

“We need to wash up.”

I said, parting our lips slightly. Han Jae-yi leisurely svcked my tongue in once more and let go, then pressed our forehead together.

“Let’s wash together.”

I nodded, welcoming his t0ngue. I don’t know if he understood or not, but he didn’t respond, just kept kissing me. Then, with one hard squeeze of my ass, he released me and opened the balcony door.

Once inside, I felt the heat of the house on my face, and I quickly removed my top and returned to his lips. Once we were in the enclosed space, we started to get even more impatient, so we immediately stripped off our clothes.

We overlapped our naked bodies and wrapped our arms around each other’s waists and hips. His hands immediately ran over my bare skin. My whole body was tense and sensitive to his touch. Then, as if amused, he slipped his hand between my legs, past my pubic bone. It grazed my d1ck, then skimmed over my abdomen and up to cupping my chests.

“I was wondering about your body.”

His fingers traced my n1pple, then he pulled his lips away and whispered.

“You’re even more gorgeous than I imagined.”

He put his hands on my hips again and pressed his upper body against mine, rubbing my d1ck.

We moved to the bathroom and continued our foreplay. We continued to touch and grope in all the right places, all in the name of cleaning each other’s bodies.

The non-stop kissing and caressing made me extremely aroused. I couldn’t help myself and started to grab my d1ck and rub it, my body reacting faster than usual since I hadn’t even mastvrbated properly during the time I was away from him.

Han Jae-yi gave me a pecking kiss and lowered his gaze. He was watching me as I tried to go off alone. My d1ck, sticking out boldly in front of me, was blocking his view, so he moved it out of the way with one hand. Then he shifted slightly to make room for me.

“Let’s do it together.”

I suggested while kissing him, but he didn’t seem to have any intention of doing so.

“Let me help you.”

He slipped one of his fingers into my mouth, preventing me from closing it, and then stuck his tongue in and svcked on mine. A m0an escaped me at the sudden depth of his kiss, and this time he svcked on my bottom lip, pressing his t0ngue against the finger in my mouth. I stroked my d1ck frantically, enjoying the sensation of the stirring motion.

I felt myself ejaculate, and my head dropped. Seizing the moment, Han Jae-yi pulled his finger out and swallowed my lips in one gulp. I groaned as our t0ngues darted in and out of each other’s mouths, and he kissed me harder, as if he wanted to devour the sound. I ejacvlated right then and there.

“Haa…”

It was a short, strong cl1max. I turned on the shower and washed the cvm off my hands and between my legs. Unlike me, who relaxed, Han Jae-yi leaned forward and licked my earlobe with a more excited expression. I made an excuse while receiving his sticky caress.

“It was a little hard to hold back.”

“Mmm… it was sexy.”

I glanced down and saw his d1ck, erect and ready to burst, poking at my lower abdomen.

“Do you want to?”

I slid my right hand over to grab his, signaling my willingness to take over, but he shook his head.

“Just touching is boring. Let me come inside you.”

He put his t0ngue in my ear. My sensitive hearing could hear the friction of the mucous membrane. His t0ngue flicked in and out of my ear, as if symbolizing the act of penetration. Then, the image of Han Jae-yi frowning and thrusting into my waist was automatically played.

I tingled again, as if a long-forgotten sensation had been awakened. I sucked in my bottom lip and said to him,

“Let’s go to bed.”

I shut off the shower and grabbed a towel. But before I had a chance to dry myself properly, Han Jae-yi hugged me. I could almost hear him as he carried me out of the bathroom and onto the bed. I was thrown onto my stomach and he held my legs.

I could feel his dripping hair near my a$$, and then my legs were spread apart. I could feel his breath for a moment, and then a soft t0ngue began to l1ck the back of my ass, and the sound was quite erotic.

He likes rimming. I don’t know when he developed this preference, but from the first time we decided on a s3x position, he had no qualms about doing it. I’m not sure if he really likes it or if it’s just a sacrifice to turn me on. But it’s clear that he doesn’t mind it because his d1ck hadn’t gone soft after so many repetitions, so it’s always been his favorite way to loosen me up before penetration.