DI Ch 219

“Do you think I want to see you do it for no reason? It’s because I want to do it with you. But when I finally muster up the courage, you just push me away. What am I supposed to do?”

“Are you going to keep this up?”

Was he scolding me for rambling on?

“So, you’re saying you’re not going to let me watch?”

As I frowned in frustration, he gave a subtle glance with a suggestive nuance, so I replied firmly.

“I’m going to watch.”

He turned away with a light chuckle at my undisguised desire. Suddenly, time seemed to slow down. The way he casually shook his wet hair was highly seductive, immediately making my breath hitch. The water droplets trailing down his skin, wetting the floor and leaving traces, seemed like deliberate attempts to drive me crazy.

The sight of his back with the dragon tattoo writhing and his buttocks was enough to draw out even an innocent person’s lust, making me feel like I couldn’t afford to even blink. Just as I was wondering when we’d finally move to the bed, he turned back to me and lightly hooked my leg. I lost my balance but managed to steady myself on the dining table. However, this time he pushed my shoulder, causing me to awkwardly perch on the edge of the table, and I realized his intention.

“The side dishes should be on the table.”

He teased with a playful tone and a mischievous smile. Tae Seong-je was the one sitting naked in the chair with his legs spread wide, yet I was the one feeling embarrassed. I awkwardly positioned myself, slowly lowering my gaze. In fact, “dropping” my gaze would be more accurate. From his head tilted at an angle while wearing glasses, which was already making me feel strange, to his collarbones pooled with water, his damp chest, and the moisture trailing down his sculpted abdomen to more intimate areas – it all left me breathless.  I was so glad I’d made that request. I should’ve asked for this earlier. Next time, I’ll have to ask him to wear something else too.

“If you get a nosebleed, I’m not doing it.”

“I’ll be careful.”

I rubbed my eyes as my vision blurred from excessive excitement, which must have been noticeable as he immediately warned me. I held my nose and mouth, promising to be careful, but judging by how hot my face and the back of my hands felt, it was worryingly uncertain. I thought all the heat in my body had gone down, but it seemed to be surging through my entire body, making my skin feel flushed. I felt I should calm down as the stimulation was becoming too much, but how could I maintain composure when he was provocatively stroking and rubbing his hard d1ck between those spread legs?

I was so aroused that my underwear felt painfully tight, and I felt like I could overcome my physiological aversion if we did it now. Still, I had to keep my composure. I lifted my trembling leg and brushed my toes against his thigh. Just watching was too much of a waste. As I relished the cold, firm muscles of his thigh beneath my foot, his hand never stopped moving, and neither did his gaze, which was fixed on my face.

That explicit sight caught the edge of my vision, but I couldn’t pay attention to it as I was busy thinking about how far I needed to go to make him want to do it with me right away. I placed my foot flat against his thigh and gently rubbed, feeling our bare skin slide against the moisture. I slipped it to the inside of his thigh, caressing with the top of my foot and playfully tapping, about to “accidentally” brush against that area when my ankle was caught.

“You should make up your mind to do it.”

“I’m serious right now.”

“Ah.”

He made a short sound of admiration at my words, which were playful yet serious and nodded. It was literal. I was more than ready to have sex. He too was ready enough to be a side dish on the table. Of course, it would be better for both of us to quietly move to the bed unless we planned to break the perfectly good table. But he was still holding back, standing there with his resolve firmly in place. If he actually didn’t plan to go through with it, I was prepared to pounce on him when he fell asleep later.

As I slightly lowered my waistband with these intense thoughts, he pressed his cheek against my knee and smiled crookedly. His words were also provocative.

“Think you can do it?”

It was a gentlemanly provocation. Instead of crudely asking if I could widen the h0le enough for him to enter, he spoke in roundabout terms. Sometimes his occasional vulgar remarks in the past were shocking, but not unpleasant. Now he probably won’t say such things anymore. I slightly missed this drawback brought on by overprotection.

I was about to nod but hesitated, clenching and unclenching my hands that were covered in cold sweat. I raised my trembling hand to caress his dimpled cheek, noticed it deepening, tapped the arm of his glasses with my finger, and lightly grasped his wet hair. Holding his head in place so he couldn’t turn away, I let out a quiet sigh along with my rapid breathing. I need to be able to do this.

“…It’s strange. It’s not my first time, but it feels like it is.”

I didn’t hide the tremor in my voice as I met his steady gaze. I had no intention of backing down anyway, and he would know even if I tried to hide it, so I freely showed how nervous I was.

“I’m suddenly sweating. It’s incredibly hot even though the air conditioning is on. I should have washed up with you.”

I grumbled while caressing hyung’s smiling lips with my free hand. I was so impatient, yet he was laughing – what did he find so amusing? Feeling both irritated and enjoying the soft texture of his lips, I playfully teased them with my fingers. He immediately bit my fingertips. It didn’t hurt, but I felt a sudden thrill in my lower abdomen. Instead of pulling away, I pushed my index and middle fingers deeper into his mouth.

It was meant to be a playful tease, just to see him flustered. But instead, he skillfully wetted and toyed with my fingers while still maintaining his firmness below. I ended up being the one caught off guard. Despite how far I had shoved my fingers, he bit and sucked on them without hesitation, and I found myself dodging his tongue, trying to wriggle my fingers free. Realizing I had challenged a losing game, I suggested we should maintain a regular and consistent intimate schedule to avoid this kind of hassle. He just smirked slyly in response.

That smile was clearly mocking me. No matter how eager I was, my body still resisted, too tense to handle it, and I couldn’t even manage to slide my saliva-coated fingers between his legs. How could this be my fault? His intimidating erection was right there in front of me, and I knew full well how tight and overwhelming the excitement would be when it entered me, but I still remembered all too clearly how painful and difficult the first time had been. How was I supposed to forget that? My hand hesitated, frustration boiling up.

“Can’t do it?”

“Fvck.”

“Hey, no dirty words.”

“Sorry. It’s just… so frustrating.”

“Come here.”

“Okay.”

I answered calmly, but then immediately froze in shock. I nearly kicked him in the face out of sheer surprise. Anyone would’ve agreed I had a good reason. While he was completely naked, I had only pulled down my pants slightly. And then, without warning, he yanked my pants and underwear down to my knees. As I bent my knees in surprise, he grabbed my thighs, causing me to lose balance and tilt over, giving him a completely exposed view of my lower half, right in front of his face.

Damn. I immediately raised my foot. Unable to push his face, I pressed against his broad shoulders and chest, trying to shove him away. Sure, showing intimate parts of your body to your partner isn’t something to panic about. But it wasn’t because he took off my pants or because I pushed him that I freaked out. I shoved him away so desperately because, holy shit, Tae Seong-je spread my ass cheeks and—fvck—tried to bury his face there!

“What are you doing?”

When I warned him in a low voice, his response was embarrassingly ridiculous.

“You won’t let me put it in, and now I can’t even use my tongue here.”

“Don’t say weird things, seriously. Just stop. Really, stop that.”

As he kept trying to bury his face, I tensed my thighs to resist. This kept his head away from my lower parts, but he showed no signs of backing down, so I remained on guard.

“Why are you rejecting me so violently like this? You’re hurting my feelings.”

Just when I thought he might pull away easily, he licked my tense calf with his tongue and questioned me. It seemed he had undressed me for this purpose, as he lasciviously licked with his wet t0ngue, making my waist bend involuntarily. I thought about escaping to the other side of the table, but he held my waist tight, preventing me from avoiding him.

“What’s the big deal? It’s not like it’ll wear out from a little licking. It’s for both our pleasure.”

“If you have time to play with your t0ngue, stop doing weird things and just kiss me.”

Only when I spoke forcefully, gritting my teeth, did he finally stop his sudden behavior and obediently pull me in for a kiss. I also stopped my rigid vigilance and settled onto his thighs, getting off the table. To prevent any distractions, I simultaneously grasped the back of his neck and his erect p3nis, rubbing them up and down with similar hand movements. The kiss was tantalizingly limited to sucking lips, almost but not quite inserting tongues. I could feel the thick arm around my waist tightening.

When we briefly parted after intertwining our tongues and breathing each other’s exhaled breaths, he spoke in a tone that conveyed both satisfaction and dissatisfaction:

“Why are there so many things I’m not allowed to do?”

“Because you’re not allowed, that’s why.”

I answered coldly and kissed him again. I could feel him trying to stifle his laughter, but I ignored it.