DI Ch 218

“By the way, you came back quickly.”

“…”

I just asked because he really came back in the blink of an eye, not to be sarcastic, but he’s studying my expression.

“I’m sorry for making you eat alone.”

He pecks my cheek as usual, but my shoulders tensed up. He had been teasing me earlier, but now his voice and demeanor had softened, making my heart flutter. Even though it happened every time, it still made me nervous. I thought about making a joke to hide my embarrassment but decided against it. It was also strange to receive an apology for missing just one meal out of three when we live together. I hugged him tightly to show it was okay, and I heard him pretend to be suffocated in a playful voice above my head. As we held each other and joked around for a while, he asked:

“But you barely ate anything. Why is that? Didn’t like the food?”

It seemed he observed the dining table closely through the phone screen, just as I did. I almost laughed at his comment about me not eating as much as usual. Wasn’t it inconsistent for him to worry about me when he didn’t even touch the food?

“Aren’t you hungry?”

“Don’t change the subject.”

“It’s just that the heat took away my appetite. Oh, but we had galbi for lunch, and I asked them to save some for you. You’ll eat, right? It’s really delicious.”

“You should eat some too.”

Well, maybe about one serving. I nodded and slightly opened the door. I gestured for someone to bring out the food, and they quickly disappeared. I’d gotten used to this routine after doing it a few times.

I moved to watch Hyung eat lunch and take his medicine. It was good to see him eating well without skipping anything, even though he seemed reluctant, but my feelings were quite mixed. I never thought there would come a day when he would take more medicine than me.

After clearing the table, thinking no one was watching, I flopped down on hyung’s thigh. I almost closed my eyes at the immediate gaze and the gentle touch caressing my forehead and hair. I reached out, finding his shadowed face handsome. Come to think of it, he hasn’t been pushing his hair back lately. I like it, and it reminds me of when he was younger, but I worry unnecessarily that others might look down on him for appearing younger.

I lazily stroked Tae Seong-je’s forehead, then rested my fingertips on his cheek. He rubbed his cheek against me without taking his eyes off me, then quickly kissed me and smiled brightly, almost enchanting me. He’s such a fox.

I chuckled to myself, feeling a wave of relief. At least looking up at him like this wasn’t unsettling. When he’s on top of me, though, it brings back flashes of the past, right before I almost died. It’s not that I consciously remember or think about it, but the feeling of being crushed like that makes my stomach churn. I couldn’t shake off how unpleasant it was. Thankfully, aside from that, other positions don’t bother me much.

“If you had only done half, we would have finished by now…”

I muttered while blatantly staring at Hyung’s lower body, turning my head. He chuckled.

“Then let’s do it with only half in.”

“You think I’d believe that?”

“You’re not falling for it, huh.”

We laughed frivolously, but I was actually serious. It’s not that neither of us wants to do it; we would have done it by now if it weren’t for me being the problem. What should we do about this?

“Do you have to go out again?”

“Nothing urgent. I don’t really need to go out, why?”

“If you have time, there’s something I want to see, so I wanted to ask a favor.”

“A movie?”

“No. I want to watch you do it alone. Can I?”

“…You suddenly want to see that after eating?”

Tae Seong-je pressed between his eyebrows while still smiling. As he massaged the back of his neck, I suddenly felt bad for burdening someone who was tired. I wanted to make a bold move to overcome the physiological aversion that was stronger than s3xual desire, but this was indeed too forward.

“Never mind. I was joking.”

“Is that really all you need?”

“No, wait a moment.”

There was no reason to refuse, so I quickly got up, found my bag, and took out my glasses case.

“These are my glasses… I only use them for studying, but could you wear them while doing it?”

“You really want to play with me, don’t you?”

He reached out to take them despite his sarcastic tone. I hurried to hand them over but removed the lenses first. I did that because the prescription was strong and might make him dizzy. Tae Seong-je looked at me as if he couldn’t believe it, took the frames, wrapped his arm around my waist to make me sit on his lap, and put on the glasses with one hand.

“Do you like it?”

Of course, I liked it.

“Can I take a picture of this?”

“Goodness. Go ahead.”

As I excitedly took photos with my phone camera, he said in a dejected voice:

“Sometimes your behavior makes even me feel like I’m still in high school.”

“That’s not true, is it? It’s been ten years for you now.”

“…”

“What’s wrong?”

“I’m not doing it.”

He started to take off the glasses as if offended, so I quickly tried to soothe him.

“I’m kidding. You look like a high school student. Totally like a kid.”

“…”

While the pout from earlier had been playful, now his eyebrows twitched differently, like he was genuinely annoyed. Whether I said he looked like a high schooler or not, he seemed bothered either way. I wasn’t sure what he wanted from me, but his reactions were amusing, so I just laughed it off. He was cute.

“Ah!”

“You think laughing means it’s over?”

He suddenly bit my cheek hard in retaliation. He scolded me, asking if I thought laughing made everything okay, then trapped me in his arms, biting my lips, ears, and everywhere else so aggressively that I couldn’t stop my body from jolting with surprise. After what felt like thirty minutes of being held down like that, I was finally released, and I let out a deep, exhausted breath. I really can’t win against him with strength.

“…But are you really not going to do it?”

I caught my breath and subtly brought up what I’d been wanting to ask. I should’ve hesitated, but I was impatient, so I couldn’t. I wanted to see it so badly that I blatantly asked, and Tae Seong-je smirked mischievously.

“I’ll do it if you turn me on.”

It was a provocation, but I unconsciously thought, ‘Ah, that’s easy.’ After all, just like I could get excited just by watching him do nothing, it would be the same for him. So, turning Tae Seong-je on isn’t particularly difficult for me, but I figured doing something would be better than really doing nothing. I took back the glasses, put them on, and pushed his shoulders to make him fall back.

He watched me with that same proud look, like he was impressed with whatever I was about to do. Ignoring it, I leaned down and grabbed the part of his shirt near his belt with my teeth. I tugged the shirt out from his pants and slowly crawled up his body. I deliberately moved slowly, and when I reached his chest, I let go of the shirt with my mouth and pressed my cheek against his bare skin. The warmth and solid feel of his body felt nice against my face, making me giggle. Though truthfully, I was laughing because of the stiff look on his face—it was priceless.

As I raised my head and met his eyes while giggling, he asked in an even lower voice than before:

“…Where did you learn this?”

“Who else but you?”

I shifted the responsibility as I licked Tae Seong-je’s chest. As I was savoring this leisurely moment and tasting his body with the tip of my tongue, he suddenly grabbed me.

“Seung-won-ah.”

“Yes?”

“Let’s wash up for a bit.”

“…What?”

Uh, washing up is good. But interrupting things like this—wasn’t I usually the one to do that? It felt strange. Tae Seong-je confidently found the bathroom, as if he already knew its location, despite the numerous doors and rooms in this house. And then, he started what looked like a cold-water rubdown, enough to make the air feel chilly.

“Hyung, you’ll catch a cold.”

“Just a moment.”

I had no idea how long he’d been at it. What’s he trying to do? I love him, but sometimes he does the strangest things. Leaning against the bathroom door, frowning, I caught sight of the mirror. Staring at my reflection, I lifted my shirt. It wasn’t just my imagination—my body looked especially good today. Maybe I had gained some muscle, and it showed more clearly now. As I inspected my shoulders and chest muscles, a cold hand suddenly gripped my thickened side.

“Ah, cold!”

“Didn’t I say we’d do it after summer? Are you going to keep doing this?”

“Huh? What am I doing?”

Why is he getting upset again suddenly? I really love him, but hyung truly has a strange personality. If it’s because of the medication, I don’t mind him being hot and cold with me, but at least rinse off with warm water before coming out. I was startled by how cold his body was, frozen like an ice statue. What if he really catches a cold? As I was worrying about him, Tae Seong-je said with a frown while wiping off the water:

“Take off the glasses. And put your clothes on properly.”

“You should put on clothes too.”

“Why should I? You’re the one who needs to see.”

And then he put on my glasses again… That’s when the visual image hit me shockingly. Not only was his body, which excites me, soaking wet, but he was also wearing glasses he doesn’t usually wear. It was so novel that it made me impulsive.

“I think I can do it now…”

“Seo Seung-won. Didn’t I say we’d do it after summer?”

I approached him from behind and running my hands over his still unfamiliar, cool body. I whispered once more, saying I could do it now. Even though his body was cold, pulling him into a tight embrace didn’t cool me down—instead, it felt refreshing and exciting. A messy desire rose within me, the kind that made me want to heat up his body with mine.

“Let’s do it now.”

“I have work tomorrow.”

“That’s why I’m saying let’s do it now, not tomorrow.”

“That’s why I’m saying I have work tomorrow.”

“No, I mean, forget tomorrow. Let’s do it today! Why do you keep saying weird things?”

Feeling impatient, I tried to kiss him first, and he kissed me back immediately. See? We both want it. A sudden surge of courage came from the sexual tension, and I felt like I could really do it now. But he kept holding me back, and it was driving me crazy. I wasn’t just feeling frustrated; I was at my limit. My head and body both felt like they were about to explode.