DI Ch 25

Tae Seong-je, who appeared to be embarrassed, ran his tongue across his lips and blinked when I asked as I held my throbbing shoulder in bewilderment.

“Uh, sorry?”

I was taken aback by the insincere apology, but I decided to let it slide as it was probably a mistake made in the heat of the moment. Tae Seong-je, who must have noticed that I had relaxed, hugged me tightly. I hold still as if I’ve been defeated, but suddenly he swallows my ear in one bite and starts rolling his tongue around.

“Hick.”

The sticky, erotic sound of his saliva reached my ears, and whether it was due to my sensitivity or the unfamiliarity of his slick tongue against them, I felt a strange sensation that gave me goosebumps. I had cleaned every inch of my body, including behind my ears, but not for something like this. I felt like a feast, ready to be devoured as I was teased by his tongue.

It seemed that my lower body was losing power at the same time. On the other hand, my upper body was flailing in an unfamiliar pain as he grabbed my nipple and wouldn’t let go. A place that had never been touched before was touched mercilessly, and I felt embarrassed. I pushed his hand away, but he didn’t let go and instead just pressed it playfully.

Tae Seong-je put his mouth close to my wet ear and spoke as if coaxing me.

“Don’t think of anything else. Close your eyes and focus on my hands.”

Tae Seong-je’s voice, which had been lowered to its lowest pitch, felt damp. My body became increasingly sensitive, to the point where even his lips brushing against my ears felt hot. No, because I was already sensitive, it didn’t seem to take long for my body to heat up.

“Ah, h-hand…”

“Don’t be nervous, relax.”

“Relax…”

“Why do you keep repeating my words?”

“What? Oh, uh, sorry. I’m a bit nervous… No, I won’t do it anymore.”

As soon as I finished speaking, he laughed and immediately kissed me. It was the second kiss. Unlike the first time, it was more relaxed and more sticky. The kiss was so long and intense that it seemed like my lips would melt.

Being tenacious was his nature, so he held onto me so tightly that I couldn’t back down even a little bit, and dug deep into my mouth. I couldn’t breathe properly, so I just tried to hold my breath as much as possible. When the tip of Tae Seong-je’s tongue scratched the soft to the hard roof of my mouth, the thrill made me tremble, and I let out a gasp and a heavy breath.

Taking that as a cue, we locked lips and mingled our tongues, just like our first kiss. I could feel a lot of heat in his mouth and tongue. I hugged his neck and rubbed my body against him. It became increasingly insanely good. I’d never felt so good in my life, and I thought I was going insane. I’d been down to earth and out of my mind before, but I’d never felt so good that I felt like I could go to heaven.

We got tangled up like lovers or as if we were one body. I didn’t feel any rejection, which put my concerns about whether I could kiss a man to rest. The feeling that I just wanted this time to last forever grew stronger and stronger.

It was just nice. I just liked him and wanted to get hooked on the act. The room was filled with rough breathing, obscene sounds of saliva coming and going, and unbearable bursts of satisfied moaning. Tae Seong-je stood up, and I took a slow step back, pushed by his strength.

When we reached the end of the bed, we collapsed onto the mattress. We frantically nuzzled each other’s faces until our hair was disheveled. I had bought a large bed so that I wouldn’t be uncomfortable, but it felt cramped with a man who was bigger and heavier than me. Tae Seong-je placed a pillow between my back and the wall and made me lean on it.

“Ha… ha…”

Tae Seong-je smiled at me again. Tae Seong-je moved closer to me as I reached out and touched his cheek. I kissed him again, unable to stop his hand from naturally taking off my pants. I placed my hand on the nape of Tae Seong-je’s neck, who leaned his upper body while holding my thighs and caressed his head. It felt good to stroke the back of his head, which was neatly shaved.

“Seung-won-a.”

I blinked dazedly as I reached for his chest, which was rapidly rising and falling. I hated it when anyone called me Seung-won. Because it isn’t my name. But I couldn’t just ignore it, so I just kept answering and reacting with a “Yes, I’m Seo Seung-won” attitude.

But why… why didn’t I feel bad about being called Seo Seung-won by Tae Seong-je? Ah, I don’t know. I really don’t know… My head felt like it was in a jar of jelly, and the scene in front of me was surreal. My thighs, which were in Tae Seong-je’s grip, looked especially pale. When I couldn’t close my numb mouth as if I was anesthetized, saliva wet my chin.

“Seo Seung-won.”

Tae Seong-je sat between my legs and said while unbuttoning his sleeves and pulling them up.

“Open your legs.”

As if hypnotized, I slowly spread my legs at his command.  As I pushed my legs apart, the feel of the blanket against the soles of my feet softened. I wasn’t ashamed because I had lost touch with reality. He gently pushed me and positioned me at an angle. I saw Tae Seong-je spit on his hand while I was dazed. It was not dirty, but lewd, and it seemed to turn me on.

It’s funny, but shame suddenly creeps up on me. I was the one who never imagined, never thought, never dreamed of being laid down by a man just last year. Nonetheless, I had to ignore the shame that engulfed me. Shame wasn’t important right now.

I muttered hesitantly at Tae Seong-je’s finger, which had caught my attention.

“Hyung… Put a condom on your finger…”

He has to wear a condom so it doesn’t hurt. I guess he didn’t learn this. I informed him, eager to share my information. Then Tae Seong-je said.

“I went to my brother’s shop and got it trimmed.”

“What?”

“I won’t hurt you, so just relax.”

No, what. Before I could refute him, Tae Seong-je pushed his ring and middle finger firmly into my gel-soaked bottom at the same time.  My back arched and I gritted my teeth. As his fingers swirled around inside me, my breath caught in my throat. It was strange and uncomfortable, but the blanket I was holding mercilessly crumpled to relieve as much endurance as possible.

I grunted and endured, but Tae Seong-je said unconcernedly.

“I came out in the middle of work to do this once. When I went in, everyone looked at me strangely. But, whatever, I have to bear with it. I don’t want my baby to get hurt, right? You can thank me for that.”

“Ugh, ah, uh… Ah, hyung, please take it slow…”

“I’m going really slow right now.”

Tae Seong-je chuckled.

“I’m just holding back the urge to f*ck you, you don’t want to get hurt, do you?”

It’s not don’t want to be in pain… but hurt? I felt like I was being told to just accept the pain, so I trembled and nodded my head. This was already too daunting, but how much harder will that be? Tae Seong-je whispered as he squeezed my butt, probably because I was nervous.

“It’s so damn tight. If you put it like this, my dick will go in and won’t come out. Isn’t that right? Do you want me to stay in you forever? Hmm? Do you want me to spend the rest of my life inside you? Will you live with hyung for the rest of your life? If you don’t want to, just relax.”

He made a vulgar threat. Even if he put it in now as a joke, it would tear and bleed. My eyes welled up with tears, but I forced myself to breathe in and out, trying to keep myself calm. I tried to relax and control my breathing, but his fingers had already increased to four.

I felt like I knew what it felt like to really want to cry. From two to four. The four fingers poking the inside with different movements as if they were playing separately.

“Ah… Ah, hiss. Hyung, hyung, please…”

Squelch, squelch. The erotic sounds echoed through my room. Four was a lot. Especially since his hands were so long and big. It’d be more like that if he put it in. It hurt, so I tensed, I tensed because it hurt. I hurriedly pulled on Tae Seong-je’s clothes as my breathing was disturbed again.

“Hyung, please kiss me…”

His expression seemed to change a little. The room was bright with fluorescent lights, but I felt like prey in a dark forest. It must be because of Tae Seong-je’s beast-like eyes. His pupils dilated and his eyes became clearer, more thrilled, and more excited.

I kissed him as I leaned into his right hand, which cupped my cheek. I pulled on his shirt with both hands and kissed him quickly but softly. To be honest, it felt so good. It was so good that I wished it could always be this way.

When our lips parted, I noticed that his right hand, which had cupped my face, was very close to my lips. I exhaled blankly before opening my mouth and biting Tae Seong-je’s thumb. I sucked hard, rubbing and rolling his fingers with my tongue, which became entangled in his and my saliva. I licked it lightly after biting it. Tae Seong-je’s fingers were moistened by the transparent saliva that filled my mouth.

I didn’t have the confidence to swallow it greedily like in the video I saw the other day, so I just scratched between his fingers with the tip of my tongue and licked it like candy. It was challenging and uncomfortable to widen the bottom, but other than that it felt good, so I wanted him to feel good too.