DI Ch 53

It hurt, but the sex I’d accepted because I wanted it was starting to turn into something else. Good, ah, good. The stars bounced in front of my eyes and floated hazily. My weakened legs involuntarily spread apart, and that place, stretched taut without a single wrinkle, didn’t let go of Tae Seong-je’s penis as if it was so good every time it came in and out.

“Hyung, ah, this is strange… More than this, heung! Heuh, heuk.”

My position kept getting disrupted, but I had to endure with all my strength as Tae Seong-je thrust his hips forcefully multiple times. After a while, the throbbing speed slowed down as the inside felt more stiff, probably because Tae Seong-je had ejaculated. The floor was stained with traces of his semen, making it dirty. Tae Seong-je had never pulled out after penetrating, so why…

“Look at how tightly it’s clenching. Now you can’t be satisfied with anything other than my dick.”

Tae Seong-je let out a rough breath and rubbed his fingertips around the gaping hole filled with his penis.

“Do you know that your hole is gaping just the way my dick likes it?”

“Hah, ah, uh…”

“If you dare wonder whether other bastard dicks can satisfy you just because you’ve tasted being penetrated, you’ll regret it. Got it?”

“Uh…”

When I couldn’t reply because I was whimpering, Tae Seong-je put away his soft voice and spoke firmly.

“Seo Seung-won, answer me.”

“Yes, yes…”

Frightened by the cold voice, I quickly opened my mouth. I nodded my head vigorously, even though I couldn’t hear exactly what he was saying. Right now, all I could think about was not opposing his desires. Nevertheless, Tae Seong-je smiled satisfactorily and ran his fingers along my spine, following the curve of my back. It felt electrifying, and I felt like I could climax at any moment.

“Okay. I know that Seung-won is a good boy and will keep his promise. But it seems like you have quite a curious nature. And there are those who change once they know what a dick tastes like.”

“Huh…”

“Seung-won, do you like dicks? Or do you only like Hyung’s dick?”

“Seong, Seong-je hyung only… I, only like Hyung’s… uh!”

I could feel his penis growing and thickening inside me as I stammered out my answer. I cried out at his raging penis, just like the first time. It was really difficult now… But contrary to my inner thoughts, I nodded my head repeatedly, saying that I only liked Hyung the most. I had to make up for today’s events. But make up for what? What was I trying to compensate for? My mind was occupied by question marks, and I couldn’t think straight.

My eyes were hot, causing my eyelids to feel heavy. The heat seemed to evaporate the moisture in my throat, causing it to become dry. I pursed my lips because I wanted to drink the water in front of me, even if it was tap water. However, Tae Seong-je lifted me, wrapping his hands around my neck and waist.

“Huh, huh… ugh…”

As my waist instinctively arched, his penis penetrated even deeper. I couldn’t move on my own. I wondered if he was going to strangle me with his hands around my neck, but he just held on and supported me until I was short of breath. Ah, Tae Seong-je suddenly bit my back, causing a sharp pain that made me frown. It was uncomfortable how he kept biting and chewing on my body. It’s understandable to have bruises or marks from his strong grip, but… Why does he keep biting? I don’t understand.

When Tae Seong-je ejaculated for the second time, I was afraid that my stomach would explode. Just his thick penis penetrating me without pulling out was already burdensome, but the surging of his semen made it even more unbearable. If he had used a condom or even pulled out when cumming, it would have been somewhat tolerable, but Tae Seong-je’s penis filled me tightly without any intention of leaving.

He began thrusting again. Even on the third round, he lifted me slightly and thrust, causing my feet to barely touch the ground. I was afraid I might fall since I couldn’t maintain a stable posture. Despite his stable and unwavering thrusts, Seung-won’s body was undeniably that of an adult man. Although it was expected that my body wouldn’t feel light, Tae Seong-je calmly held me in place, precisely penetrating where he desired while enjoying the sex.

As he continued with his relentless thrusts, I felt that my legs couldn’t support me any longer. When Tae Seong-je reached his third climax without any pause, he leisurely licked and sucked on my neck, indulging in a lazy pleasure. His soft and sticky tongue made me shudder and sent a chill down my spine.

I thought I might have to wear black turtlenecks for a while. I considered buying several neck shirts. Unlike Tae Seong-je, who seemed so relaxed, I was in such a state that I couldn’t even breathe properly. I couldn’t even let out a moan and simply trembled like a paper doll, barely managing to breathe.

“Hey, wait.”

Tae Seong-je suddenly grabbed my cheek and turned my face towards him. Through my blurred vision, I could see his face ashen as if he’d been doused in cold water.

“Are you sick? Look at me. Oh, fuck. You are.”

Tae Seong-je hastily pulled out his penis. Everything flashed before my eyes for a moment. My waist involuntarily arched due to the intense pleasure that shot through my spine. I vaguely remembered screaming in ecstasy, but I wasn’t sure. It was all so confusing.

“…?”

When I opened my eyes, I was lying in his arms. I slowly blinked, trying to adjust to the sudden change in my vision. The sink drawer and the floor were a mess. Drops of semen were falling from the drawer handle. That… Wait, did I do that? Semen… No, was it really semen? The sensation I just felt was very different from my usual ejaculation. Above all, I hadn’t touched myself, so I couldn’t understand why there was semen in front of me. My head was spinning with confusion. Did I really ejaculate? I was too caught up in the heat of the moment, and my memory was hazy.

The view from looking at the dirty kitchen floor suddenly increased. Tae Seong-je lifted me up. It was very convenient to be able to move even when I was limping. I could see why people would build cars and design them better. I wanted to fall asleep in his arms.

“I did it again. I said it was okay even though I knew I did something wrong… It’s because I’m not in my right mind.”

Tae Seong-je licked his lips as if regretting something, then laid me down on the bed. He straightened his hunched back and stood up. It felt like he was gradually moving away from me, so without realizing it, I propped myself up.

“Don’t move, just stay still.”

I flinched at the resolutely commanding tone and quickly returned to my laying position. He went into the bathroom and stood in front of the sink. Every time he wrung the towel, his back moved with a vivid motion. I couldn’t feel anything below and my face felt too hot, making my mind hazy.

Around the time I was distracted by the lingering pleasure that did not go away easily, Tae Seong-je came and sat on the edge of the bed. He lifted my shirt so that my chest was clearly visible and pulled down my pants to my calves, then began to wipe my body with a damp towel.

He awkwardly wiped my body as if he had never taken care of someone before. His clumsy hand movements were rough and lacking delicacy, no matter how careful he tried to be. However, he was meticulous and caring, and unknowingly, I chuckled foolishly. It was simply because he was cute and lovable.

Then, as if Tae Seong-je was dumbfounded, he asked me if I was laughing right now.

“If you’re sick, you should tell me.”

He criticized me for not mentioning that I was sick. He scolded me, asking how many times we did it without even realizing who I was doing it with. It was only later that I realized I had caught a cold. I thought it was just a bit worse than the usual pain, but I didn’t even know if it was really painful.

“I did not know…”

“Why didn’t you know you were in pain? Are you smart or just plain stupid… You should have taken medicine, not me.”

No, to call someone stupid to their face… I gave him medicine too… As I listened, I felt a sense of sadness. When my fever gets bad, I usually take antipyretics, but they never really helped. Still, even if I hadn’t been like this, he should have noticed right away that I had a cold. Well, I appreciated his concern, but it was so unfair to scold me for doing everything I had to do. Besides, I hadn’t seen his face in a long time, and he didn’t even ask if I was feeling better now. Of course, I’m not really sick… From the outside, it doesn’t look painful anywhere, but… but…

“Why are you crying again? Does it hurt?”

I shook my head helplessly. Why would an adult cry over catching a cold? Tae Seong-je tends to see me as somewhat childish.

“Then why are you crying?”

He gently wiped away my tears with his large hand. His warm hand caressed my cheek. Strangely, tears kept flowing uncontrollably. It was embarrassing. I wanted to cover my crying face, but I had no strength, so I simply closed my eyes and sniffled. Tae Seong-je pressed his thumb against my eyebrow, gently stroking it. It was such a small gesture, but it made me inexplicably emotional, and my hand instinctively reached out to grasp Tae Seong-je’s clothing.

“Don’t go, hyung…”

“…”

It was a small voice that wouldn’t be heard unless you listened carefully. Tae Seong-je remained silent, just staring down at me. I knew that many people were looking for Tae Seong-je. His phone had been ringing incessantly, so even if I pretended not to know, I couldn’t.

I felt bitter. I also needed him right now, but I couldn’t be his priority. I knew that. I knew he was not free enough to give me his full attention. But why did tears keep welling up? He wasn’t my priority either, but I was so sad and lonely. It’s all because of the cold. I feel this way because of the terrible cold.

“…”

Tae Seong-je returned silently with a towel and gently wiped my feverish face with cold water. His hands, which were usually warm, felt refreshingly cold. His big hand over my eyes was mature and masculine. No one would ever be able to hurt Tae Seong-je.

“Don’t go… You can do it one more time, just stay a little longer. Don’t go now.”

I acted immaturely, not like myself. My voice cracked, mixed with sobbing, and it sounded pathetic. If I continued like this, I would lose what little dignity I had left. But I couldn’t stop pleading. Tae Seong-je’s distorted face seemed to change into a gentle smile. My brain felt hot and pounding as if my heart were throbbing painfully and making me dizzy. Ah, I didn’t want to be alone. This world was too painful to endure alone.