DI Ch 18

It took me half a beat to process his words. Perhaps the alcohol dulled my thought circuit and my tongue, causing my voice to become sluggish. The liquor was like a cold fire that burned the moment I swallowed it. It was so warm that I felt like falling asleep. Oh, my entire body was pleasantly languid. Alcohol is a medicine. I don’t care if I got hungover. I licked my lips and emptied my glass.

But am I drunk? It was Seo Seung-won, to be precise, but my voice didn’t shake much from what I’d drank. I think the alcohol I’m drinking now is quite strong, but it was fine. Tae Seong-je brushed my hair back while I was thinking about something else with my head down. The wind tickled my ears as it ruffled through my soft hair. Are you drunk? Tae Seong-je asked. I looked up and said no. Maybe.

I couldn’t wait to rub my cheek against his palm. It seems rough and hard, but it didn’t feel bad. It’s strange… Perhaps it was because of his high body temperature. Unlike Seo Seung-won’s body, which was lukewarm all year round, Tae Seong-je was no different from a human stove. He was warmer than me, who was at least warmed by alcohol.

My head flinched as his fingertips tickled my earlobe. I licked my lips at the pleasant sensation and closed my eyes. The downside of alcohol is that it makes me thirsty. Hot… My vision was hazy. Because my eyelids were heavy, I couldn’t open them fully.

I could feel my eyelashes fluttering around this time, and then I noticed Tae Seong-je smiling handsomely at me. It was tempting, like the serpent offering the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil, and he spoke up. I couldn’t hear him, but his voice cut through the music, and his breath was hot and tingling against my ear.

I stared blankly at him and smiled contentedly. Woo Ji-min, Kang Moo-hyun, and Tae Seong-je, I just want to get rid of everything in my life, but even though I don’t know about Kang Moo-hyun, wouldn’t it be a little regretful that I couldn’t see Tae Seong-je’s face again? Even if he actually talks harshly, I think it would be better to just cover my ears and stare at him.

Sure, Tae Seong-je had been messing with people, threatening them, and putting them in danger to get revenge, but wasn’t Kang Moo-hyun’s grandfather the cause of that? If you think about it carefully, the chairman of Hyunseong Group must have been Tae Seong-je’s enemy, but he did not say anything resentful until the end. Looking at it that way, I don’t think he had a very bad personality…

I don’t think I’ve ever heard of Woo Ji-min’s story about Tae Seong-je, other than what he heard about Tae Seong-je somewhere. Even if there was, I’m not sure he would be able to say anything meaningful if I listened carefully… Hmm… No. No matter how much you think about it, Tae Seong-je in Part 2 is trash. No matter how much Tae Seong-je pretended to love him, he was still his lover, but he didn’t even attend Seo Seung-won’s funeral. 

“That’s right. Trash…”

“… Do you hate it that much?”

Tae Seong-je asked confusedly, but I didn’t hear him. My heart floated like my feet on the floor. It seemed that I had been separated from the people around me, leaving only Tae Seong-je and me in the most pleasant and soft place. I could hear and feel my heart beating. I hope it won’t explode like this. I think there was a time when I was terrified of this, but oddly, I felt like I knew what to do. At this point, I felt like I was going insane from elation.

“Why are you just smiling and not talking?”

“Huh?”

“Does that mean you don’t want to have sex with me?”

Tae Seong-je nodded his head in a sarcastic way. I stared blankly into his eyes. It took a few extra seconds for my drunken brain to perceive the situation. When I properly recognized his voice, I suddenly came to my sense.

“You seem to be interested in me. Am I wrong?”

“No, not wrong.”

“Oh. I’m right?”

“Yes. Yes, you’re right, hyung…”

I nodded and quickly closed my mouth. Tae Seong-je, who was staring at me, smiled again. The spirit of alcohol, which had been briefly blown away by his smile, seemed to have returned. I’m not sure why he’s smiling at me like that. Does he usually smile like this? It was a very bad habit.

What Tae Seong-je wants is just a one night stand. Aside from that, he’s been great to me. I’m not sure if this was normal now or not because I wasn’t familiar with this side of things, but I do know this.

I’m Seo Seung-won, not Woo Ji-min. Unlike the pretty Woo Ji-min, Seo Seung-won was generally ordinary, so there was nothing that Tae Seong-je liked. I don’t think there was… It’s strange. Something really strange…

Tae Seong-je rubbed his thumb across my lips to see what was on them. I had never been aware of the touch of my lips until now. My entire nervous system was focused on my lips. He had a dangerous look on his face. My entire body was gooey as if about to melt. It was a clear desire.

I’ve… never had someone look at me sexually. To be more specific, being a sexual object. Isn’t this supposed to be done behind in secret? His blatant gaze seemed to strip me naked. A gentle pressure was applied to my lower lip. His fingertips, which entered my slightly open mouth, were so hot that I thought I’d be burned.

I said slightly, but just the fact that Tae Seong-je’s finger was in my mouth made my thighs tighten. It was clearly sexual contact. It felt like electricity was running through my veins. It felt like my limbs would tremble if I lost even the slightest amount of tension.

Before I knew it, my mouth was dry and I unconsciously licked Tae Seong-je’s fingers. Oh, I was trying to lick my lips… I unconsciously turned my eyes and looked around. Fortunately, we were sitting at the far end and nobody was around, so no one saw me licking his hand. Even the bartender was a bit far away, and everyone at the table was talking to each other.

The only thing between us was the sound of each other’s breath and gaze. In the silence, he gently rubbed my lips once more and removed his hand. One of his fingers was strangely shiny. In an instant, the strength in my shoulders, which had been stiff from tension, was lost. My hands all trembled. I was about to let out the breath I had been holding in, but I saw Tae Seong-je approaching me with his head tilted.

Ah, the moment our lips met. I couldn’t breathe at all. No, I couldn’t do anything. I couldn’t even blink, and I couldn’t move my hands. I couldn’t do anything except stare at him dumbfoundedly, with all my nerves focused on the touch of his lips.

“Look at this. You are interested in me.”

“…”

He mumbled as their lips remained locked in a silent kiss, then Tae Seong-je drew away slowly. The brushed lips tickled, but all I could do was hold my breath and try to calm my racing heart. The saliva that tasted like the sweetness of alcohol flowed into my mouth and then disappeared.

After leaving a very narrow gap, he approached me again and sucked my lips. I quickly covered my mouth with both hands, startled by the watery sound. My heart was racing, my face felt like it was about to explode, and my eyes were spinning.

“Oh, uh, no…”

“What.”

He asked with a hint of amusement in his voice.  I whispered silently.

“People will see… ”

“No one is watching.”

After that, he kissed me again. I wanted to refute that it could be, but I didn’t say anything more. I could feel the smooth texture of his tongue. I closed my eyes tightly at the unfamiliar feeling. All of my senses except for sight were sharpened. The low laughter of Tae Seong-je, the music from the bar, and the sound of people talking…

His sexiness was too much for me, and so was the kiss. His tongue slipped in slowly, accompanied by his hot breath. Tae Seong-je’s tongue moved very leisurely in my mouth, teasing my tongue, and I couldn’t calm down at all.

I feel good, it’s good, but I don’t know what to do. Where should I put my hands? Should I keep my eyes closed? No, first of all, how should I breathe? I chose to stop breathing first to see if I would burst out in gasps of air, but I started to run out of breath.

“Haa…ah.”

I was able to take a few deep breaths as he gently kneaded my arm and backed away. Tae Seong-je’s lips soon swallowed mine once more. My legs tensed as a result of the pleasant pressure from his fingertips. Tae Seong-je grabbed my waist with his right hand and gently pulled me, and his left hand, which had been touching my arm, soon moved down to my elbow.

The finger he was fiddling with was itchy and strange, and I couldn’t think about anything else, even if I wanted to. Tae Seong-je’s neat fingernails scratched my wrists. It traveled down my arm and grazed the back of my hand, sending chills down my spine for the briefest of moments.

I couldn’t open my eyelids because they were tightly closed.  However, my desire to see his face outweighed my fear of being seen, so I sneaked open one eye. Tae Seong-je’s eyes were gracefully curved as he looked at me. It was a gaze that only those who took the initiative could have.