DI Ch 52

I could see how much Seo Seung-joon liked Seo Seung-won while staying with Seo Seung-won’s family for a year. I could see it just by looking at his childhood photos, listening to other people’s stories, or just looking at Seo Seung-joon’s actions. With such a good relationship between the brothers, today must have been a shock. Maybe he was disappointed.

I felt sorry for Seo Seung-won. I felt like I was ruining his life. I didn’t want this, but I felt like I was making a mistake. This isn’t it. I didn’t mean to do this. Bad feelings gnawed at me. The more I pretended not to know about Seung-won’s life, the more at ease I felt.

But it was difficult for me. I wanted to be good to him because I felt sorry, but I didn’t want to touch anything because I felt sorry as well. It was ironic, but that’s how it was.

“Hyung! Hyung, are you okay?”

I gagged and covered my mouth with both hands. Seung-joon quickly approached me and extended his hand, but I took a step back, knowing that the longer he stayed, the worse I would feel.

“Just go. And…”

My voice trailed off, and Seung-joon looked at me ominously.

“Don’t come like this again. It worries our parents.”

“Lies… it’s not that.”

I said nothing. He seemed to understand that I was saying it nicely so that he wouldn’t get hurt. After all, he wasn’t a fool. I suppressed the bitterness and hailed a taxi to send him back. I was worried that he would insist on saying he didn’t like it, but Seo Seung-joon unexpectedly went home quietly. It went well, but it felt like a corner of my heart was rotting away.

When I got back to the apartment, I stood in front of the door, taking deep breaths. Sweat dripped down my forehead like tears. I felt like I was ruining Seung-won’s life. In reality, it would be better to live without caring about these things, but I couldn’t help but think about it.

The smell of stew hit my nose as soon as I opened the door. I was hungry, but I had no appetite. Even last night, I never thought that today would be this long. I lowered my head and walked into the kitchen with a heavy heart, grasping the sink and sighing deeply.

“Seong-je hyung. That… I want to tell you that my brother apologized. For cursing and being rude, and…”

As I tried to defend Seung-joon, my words became hazy because I was worried about Tae Seong-je’s feelings. Tae Seong-je did not dislike Seung-won in the story. Who would talk about their likes and dislikes over a chess piece? But I wasn’t a chess piece anymore. I was something akin to a beloved toy.

So, whether Tae Seong-je let go of my hand or disliked me, it was a separate issue. I became anxious, fearing that Tae Seong-je might find me annoying after this incident. Sweat trickled down my forehead. My condition had been bad since the morning, and it still was. What could be the problem? I couldn’t even guess the cause, which frustrated me. That was the most uncomfortable part. It was a situation that couldn’t be cured, like an illness without a remedy.

As I reached for the soup bowl, a thick forearm suddenly wrapped around my waist. When I turned my head, Tae Seong-je’s lips pressed against mine, his tongue slipping deep inside. In an instant, dark thoughts flew by. Fortunately, he didn’t seem angry. I’m glad, I thought I was really lucky. Seung-won and Seung-joon disappeared from my mind, and tender affection for Tae Seong-je enveloped my body.

Trapped in the narrow space between him and the sink, our lips locked together. I could feel the solid rise and fall of his chest against my back. The decadent scent and the firm yet warm embrace from Tae Seong-je felt so good that I deluded myself into thinking that everything would be okay.

As our lips parted, a strand of saliva stretched and broke. Taesung-je’s glistening like they were coated in sugar, looked so delicious that my mouth watered. I stuck my lips out because I liked it, just because I liked it. I leaned forward and offered my lips. I kept rubbing my lips against his damp mouth. Tae Seong-je pushed his lower body and kissed me more deeply. I felt his hardened, thick, and lustful presence. I accidentally dropped the soup bowl I had been holding, and it loudly clattered into the sink, but no one paid it any attention.

Tae Seong-je lowered the rubber band of the pants I was wearing. It was only then that I became nervous as his not-so-soft palms wrapped around my buttocks. Among Tae Seong-je’s fingers touching my buttocks, his thumb teasingly circled my entrance. My hole tightened around the creased skin as a result of the pressure. His fingers moved slowly through the confined space as if considering insertion. Unconsciously, I hurriedly placed my hand on top of his backhand.

“Hyung, the meal is ready…”

“Yeah. I’ll eat before I leave.”

Tae Seong-je’s voice was so low and raspy that it made my blood rush down below. He gave me an ambiguous and deep look. His eyes were filled with desire and lust. I leaned against the sink for support because my legs felt weak. He exuded a dangerous aura. I should have been scared, but for some reason, my body gradually heated up.

He grabbed me by the waist and settled down, while I supported my body against the sink, pressing my abdomen against it.

“Are you going to do it here?”

I whispered, but there was no reply. However, instead of a response, his penis pressed firmly against my lower regions. I tensed as I remembered the pain of being split in half.

“Uh…”

“Mmm… yeah…”

My mouth opened involuntarily as his raging arousal slowly penetrated me. Maybe it was due to my mood, but it felt like Tae Seong-je was entering smoothly. There might still be traces of his semen inside. Even so, I bit my lip, enduring the discomfort. But my jaw wouldn’t stay shut and kept opening.

Meanwhile, I could feel his penis pushing in. The pain I expected to be worse was less intense, and I kept trying to look back out of curiosity. Tae Seong-je didn’t stop his slow hip movements instead, he spread my buttocks apart, blatantly exposing the connected part.

“I loosened you up a bit when you sleep. You slept well.”

“What…”

An eerie laughter echoed, and heat spread from my face down to my neck. Not only was he nibbling and licking while I was absentmindedly sleeping, but he had also been teasing me the whole time. However, instead of feeling disgusted by being treated like a toy, everything just felt lascivious. It was as if I was straying from the right path and indulging in sinful acts.

As I unconsciously tightened the hole, he let out a satisfied groan. He exerted force to penetrate deep into the tight and soft hole. Unlike before, his entry was smooth, and my hips and thighs twitched involuntarily.

I lowered my head as I gasped. It felt like my vision was turning red due to the heat. I rested my cheek against the cold surface of the sink. It felt refreshing, but it quickly became lukewarm from my own body heat. Did loosening up in advance make the insertion easier, or was it because my body had become limp and more accepting? In a hazy and tingling sensation, I laid down on the sink.

I was terrified of the sensation of my bottom expanding to its limit the first time I had sex, but now it felt strangely satisfying. The pain remained, and it was difficult to bear, but the deep sense of fulfillment that washed over me was not unpleasant.

I wondered if I was getting weird and if my body was getting weird. It was a moment when I was wondering, Tae Seong-je, who had been moved slowly began deeply thrusting, lifting his hips upwards. My toes curled upwards reflexively every time he did this. I hummed and grunted with effort, but I could hear my voice cracking, which was strange.

“…Ah! Hyung, wait, ah, ah!”

Tae Seong-je tightened his grip on my buttocks and thrust deeply once again. Was it due to experimental thrusting here and there that made me feel this way? It seemed like he was doing it on purpose. I felt resentful. Perhaps because of my tears, Tae Seong-je seemed slightly distorted. He comforted me by patting my buttocks.

“Crying again? It’d be better if you didn’t cry…”

“Mm… sniff… Hyung…”

If you tell a crying person not to cry, the tears pour out even more. Because I was already in a confused state, tears fell incessantly.

“I told you not to cry. The more you cry, the more I’m attracted to you. Just by seeing you whining, I could get fed up for a whole day.”

His voice sounded affectionate, but it held no such meaning. I blushed as I realized he wasn’t patting me to appease me.

“That’s right. Don’t cry recklessly. Because that excites me.”

Tae Seong-je chuckled and gently stroked my hair, tucking it behind my ear. Thanks to him, the sweaty strands that were clinging to my face were neatly arranged. Tae Seong-je, who had been thrusting continuously without pausing his rhythmic hip movements, suddenly pushed in all the way.

“Ah… Ah…”

Everything in front of me suddenly became clear and different. I couldn’t quite grasp what it was, but something… something was starting to come out. The sound of wetness against the floor made my ears burn. I vaguely heard a low chuckle, but regaining my scattered senses took precedence. After all, I couldn’t think properly, but…

The slamming of flesh against flesh was deafening. Tae Seong-je’s hip thrusts became faster and faster. His thrusts were even more fierce and forceful. I panted and grunted, unable to bear it. The fact that it was getting brighter outside while the room was still in the midst of a passionate affair added to the irony.

“Ah, really… Hngh, are you crazy? Easy… loosen up a bit. I’m going to cum.”

“Huh… Ah, ah… Ugh! Ugh!”

The suppressed moans were interrupted by his vigorous hip movements. Tae Seong-je’s penis had reached an unfamiliar place by the time my own voice began to feel strange. I had lost control of my body at that moment. My back arched involuntarily in response to the intense pleasure, and tears flowed as I desperately scratched his forearm.

“Hyaah! Huk, wait… Ah! Huh! Ugh!”

“Do you like it here? Fuck, it feels so damn good.”

He continued to thrust relentlessly, repeatedly hitting the parts that had never been touched before. As I shuddered and screamed, Tae Seong-je pulled my forearm and kissed me. I was relieved. I had been cautious not to let my moans echo in the hallway, but I couldn’t control my own mouth anymore. I wished he would forcefully shut my mouth, even if it was just to muffle the sounds.

I didn’t know how my crying turned into whimpering, but it felt like my head was going to explode. Despite the arousing moans coming from behind me, my mind was too chaotic to process them. My melting brain, which had become strange with pleasure, seemed to extend beyond my body, making everything hypersensitive. Every nerve and erogenous zone seemed to be concentrated in my buttocks.